The drugs have made it through my body
(both prescribed and not)
and the last bits have been swept out
through sweaty pores
Reality, the daunting thing
is now here before my eyes
bills to pay, life to conquer
how to conquer I ask, I ask
with desperate thoughts bouncing around
amplified by sobriety
my dearest self stay strong
for this is only half the battle

No one makes me feel so small except for you
The little ticking time bomb ready to burst
Medication just makes it worse
he's upstairs with his friends
and you're about to burst
about to burst

My mind is maddening
stuck in daydreams so vivid
I'm in a room full of people but I'm
headed for the kitchen
grabbing a knife and rope
to sink my boat

While kids stare on no one the wiser
that this girls no longer afloat
legal meds lock me in this box

Converse
Your side profile makes me think
Of better days or worse
I cant explain it other than
Your eyes are my fire
Your lips are my verse

For a month I had a home, our home away from home
neither mine nor his but we had our place
our little niche
our own space.

As the month drew near darker days came more frequent
I'd prefer to stay in bed, I'd let you tuck me in
but not even *** could make me forget
that the inevitable was quickly approaching.

Now that I'm here?
with no prospect of a home in sight
a place to call my own without
throwing myself to the dogs in the process.
The woman and her fangs sink deeper and deeper
the harder I try to run.
As each day passes I grow wearier
as to whether or not I'll even make it.

Cipralex
Pop three whenever you notice
The oozing and bubbling skin
On your arms in the morning
From being too close to hell
In one evening
Side effects may include
Yawning every 5 seconds
Not due to boredom or tiredness
Light headedness
From the lack of food you now realize you have yet to eat
May result in abuse of medication
Due to not wanting to feel numb constantly

Blitzed out of reality when the ball dropped
and he was there
good intentions turned sour as each day passed
but it was good for her
for what I thought was good, it was
when good finally came around though
that is when the fog cleared
Everything before September was a cloudy haze
and will stay that way
A year I partially forgot for good reasons.