I've shifted, I'm teleporting
I'm going through a massive spiritual Awakening, my 40millionth one of this lifetime

Purging, releasing, healing trauma wounds
Depression needing to be felt in order for it to be delt with and healed
Feeling emotions and pain
Shape shifting and shedding
Peeling skin again, transformation and rebirth
Reborn into a wild *****
My new skin will be naked and stronger than before.

It's something I need to undergo for my next level.
It's tough, my body is dealing with immense pain and burnout

Soul ascension...
Shifting my 12D self into this reality

I am exhausted, and so burnt out...

But it needs to be done
Sleep, just sleep...

Connect and feel like light codes transcend you ✨️

I've lost myself

It's been a while, but I really lost myself
I hate this **** city, but I had to come back here for a reason

I miss my friends, and I'm missing out on really good work opportunities 😪

I'm also missing out on my year end function.
But life really ****** me up to the point I don't even  have a place to stay in the other city.
ALONG WITH THE STALKERS THAT IM RUNNING AWAY FROM

60 BREAKDOWNS LATER...

I almost broke my hand from such a massive anxiety and asthma attack

This air is suffocating
I feel constantly lethargic and fatigue
I feel like I lost my liveliness

I've sunk down in severe depression

Thus city is haunting
I've never felt this unhappy in years

I need a place to stay...
I'm a dying corpse here
I'm hanging onto nothing, just pain

**** this city, I wanted to come here, and i really like it here

But the hot dry air

The fatigueness and drainage from the heat
The dry air and damage to the lungs

No energy
The heat is damaging

I would like to go back to my other city, but I also don't want to at this time.
I came here for a reason and I want to continue on with that reason, but the air is so bad that you have to no choice but to sleep all day everyday

Don't get me started on its inhabitants. Corporate, the people like to control others.
It's completely rigid and inflexible

It's home, I grew up here, but why does it have to be like this?

Not bliss, I miss the optimism and hope

Don't become a performing artist if you can't handle the rumors and hate that comes with it

Don't say you want to be famous and you end up doing the arts only to get famous, then you see what the reality of it actually is

Remember, the way other people see and talk about celebrities will the same way people are gonna gang up, stalk and talk about you.

Do the arts for the passion, fame is actually destructive and toxic as ****

I wanted to **** myself many times because of it.

I do this **** for the passion, I've always been a performer, it's in my DNA.

I love dramatic arts and theory on Othello and many historical figures that brought film and poetry to life

This is my love

Poetry , music , art , painting

I will retire and paint for the rest of my life to music

A confession based on my experience as a new artist in the industry

1. Neighbours are always completely obsessed with me to a point that it actually destroys their own life. Their own misery puts them in ****. I was accused by one of the jealous neighbors that I am a lookalike of "Kenji King". Kenji King whom is my stage name. She was so obsessed and tried everything to prove that I am not Kenji King, just an impersonater and identity thief. To the point that she actually got charged for false accusations and ended up getting arrested. Her father whom went to prison with her had a heart attack and died.

2. Another neighbour, heard that I quit my career in the industry. Her husband was a creepy stalker who couldn't get my name out of his mouth. They had a fight over me cuz he was stalking me and she was upset that "he made me quit my career". She kicked him out.

3. Other people are stalking and talking about how im "gone off the rails"

Remember, everything is a projection, stay happy 😊

Hahaha, yeah **** this is my life

In a haze...
Saddened, bored, in isolation.
Dealing with all the pain, loss and hurt in the silence. Dealing with Bordem and hidden feelings coming to the surface of me.

20 breakdowns, and still managing to smile.

Tired, brain dead

My persona may show differently , but I'm private and hiding in my curtains

When will I see the light of day?

Intense, emotional, transparent
An Awakening through the darkness.

Forced to deal with the feelings I kept myself detached from for so long 🙃

Sleeping all day all night 🌙

Depression hit me again
Feelings and depth has been risen and evoked

I haven't been depressed or felt it this bad in years

It'***** like a storm
Healing trauma and letting go of what doesn't serve me and cutting bad people and energy out

I've been hiding and keeping a lot inside of me
Working tiressly and staying positive

The darkness and exhausted hit me like a train
My eyes can't stop watering
I feel 😪
Pressure is high
Tryna keep stable but my inability and insatiability is thought consuming

I masturbated 20 times, I'm wet and ripped, I need it in me.
I'm high, I'm eating **** edibles to cope with the pain and anxiety.

My *** drive is its highest, constantly ***** but needing to keep self control.
What will happen if I let go?
If I feel what I lost?
I want to be loved, touched and held, and cared for.

I want passion and cuddles and everything 😩

But life is unpredictable
KENJI KING AND ALISHA ARE IN CONSTANT CONFLICT