Another daydream, just another nightmare
I shrug it off, sometimes it bites
Just maybe, I shall take my flights...

Someday soon, I will leave as I've been pleading in rage and anger.

Flip the page, this is not a cage

A lesson, I have a place to stay, Cosmetics, clothes, luxuries, a shower, eternal food.

But an uncle that hates me

I wish My freedom and Independence
I wish for My financial success
I wish to teleport to the people that love me

I wish to be what I was not looking
Burying myself in my lost tears, hopeless screams and cries for Help.

But nothing.
My thoughts have hit a huge jump
I am not waiting, I am being.

What can I do when I chose this family on earth?

I have to go back home
How?
Shall I ever be bestowed upon a life that taught me to grow....
In isolation, I froze

I WANT HELP FROM THE PEOPLE WHO KNOW AND UNDERSTAND ME

I AM ACCEPTED IN ANOTHER WORLD 🌎

I AM LOVED AND SUPPORTED...

HOWEVER , I FEEL LIKE I AM LIVING A NIGHTMARE IN THIS "REALITY" AWAY FROM MY WORLD AND PEOPLE.

HELP HELP HELP

PLEASE
PLEASE
PLEASE

I NEED TO GO BACK TO MY WORLD

The girl I once knew, she wasn't there anymore.
I've lost myself in my pain, desperate inner pleadings.
Wanting help, but only getting help from the wrong people.
People who are, not good for my energy, me.

I see my twin infront of me, Alisha... Where are you?

Gone. I long for Independence, financial freedom. My eyes empty and dry.

I lost myself, in my desperation. My face cracked.
Save me

I've shifted, I'm teleporting
I'm going through a massive spiritual Awakening, my 40millionth one of this lifetime

Purging, releasing, healing trauma wounds
Depression needing to be felt in order for it to be delt with and healed
Feeling emotions and pain
Shape shifting and shedding
Peeling skin again, transformation and rebirth
Reborn into a wild *****
My new skin will be naked and stronger than before.

It's something I need to undergo for my next level.
It's tough, my body is dealing with immense pain and burnout

Soul ascension...
Shifting my 12D self into this reality

I am exhausted, and so burnt out...

But it needs to be done
Sleep, just sleep...

Connect and feel like light codes transcend you ✨️

I've lost myself

It's been a while, but I really lost myself
I hate this **** city, but I had to come back here for a reason

I miss my friends, and I'm missing out on really good work opportunities 😪

I'm also missing out on my year end function.
But life really ****** me up to the point I don't even  have a place to stay in the other city.
ALONG WITH THE STALKERS THAT IM RUNNING AWAY FROM

60 BREAKDOWNS LATER...

I almost broke my hand from such a massive anxiety and asthma attack

This air is suffocating
I feel constantly lethargic and fatigue
I feel like I lost my liveliness

I've sunk down in severe depression

Thus city is haunting
I've never felt this unhappy in years

I need a place to stay...
I'm a dying corpse here
I'm hanging onto nothing, just pain

**** this city, I wanted to come here, and i really like it here

But the hot dry air

The fatigueness and drainage from the heat
The dry air and damage to the lungs

No energy
The heat is damaging

I would like to go back to my other city, but I also don't want to at this time.
I came here for a reason and I want to continue on with that reason, but the air is so bad that you have to no choice but to sleep all day everyday

Don't get me started on its inhabitants. Corporate, the people like to control others.
It's completely rigid and inflexible

It's home, I grew up here, but why does it have to be like this?

Not bliss, I miss the optimism and hope

Don't become a performing artist if you can't handle the rumors and hate that comes with it

Don't say you want to be famous and you end up doing the arts only to get famous, then you see what the reality of it actually is

Remember, the way other people see and talk about celebrities will the same way people are gonna gang up, stalk and talk about you.

Do the arts for the passion, fame is actually destructive and toxic as ****

I wanted to **** myself many times because of it.

I do this **** for the passion, I've always been a performer, it's in my DNA.

I love dramatic arts and theory on Othello and many historical figures that brought film and poetry to life

This is my love

Poetry , music , art , painting

I will retire and paint for the rest of my life to music