Sort of still angry
Sort of want to scream
Sorta still thinking 'bout
The things he said to me

One foot out the door
But it's so cold outside
So I stay halfway in with you
Though I'm not satisfied

I know you see it, too
That look on my face
Misery, loneliness
Too scared to walk away

And I'm here in the dark
And time passes by
And I still can't feel a thing
Still afraid to try
Still waiting to die
Still don't know what
I thought I would become
A life meaning nothing
A life without love
A life never growing
A life just like a setting sun

I know my worth and it's not a lot
I tried my best but it just don't stop
I fall apart again and this time

I'm not gonna say goodbye
You're not gonna hear me cry
I've been on the fence I'm sorry
But now it's time to do what's right
And maybe if I'm being honest
I was never in the fight
You don't wanna throw the towel
But I'm not coming back this time

Not this time

You'll have your time in the sun
But for how long?
You've been watching the clouds
Now it's all said and done

There was never a time
When time would stand still
But you waited for life
Like it wasn't enough
Until the day would come
When time called your bluff

You had your time in the sun
But for how long?
You were watching the clouds
Now it's all said and done

You settled for anything
Just to say you had something
And something left you sorry
But you just waited for more
Your body surely weakend
As your mind surely dulled
And it all was accepted
As a matter of course

Each day in the morning sun
Look away from what you've become
Each day in the morning sun
Look away from what you've become

You had your time in the sun
But you wasted the light
Now it's all said and done

All said and done
All said and done
All said and done..

There's no telling when the time has passed
To turn around and make amends
Though I made time to live a lie
And to pretend
Always knew that soon
The dream would have to end

Now is not the time
Here is not the place
To play at innocence
Ugly flower
****** waste

Through the glass reflected back at me
The person I was supposed to be

The time is past
The flower's withered
With each day
The rot spreads quicker
Who's to blame
As I grow sicker?

Such a shame
Such a shame
Such a shame

So much in life is left unsaid
And yet I've come so close
So many times
To the last letter that my mind
Could ever write
Seemed justified

So many times I've failed the test
And found myself a liar
To forgive the faults and misery
I guess I grew too tired
Of it all

Days fade to a darker shade of gray
I lose control and soon enough
I've got to numb it all away

And in the morning light I wonder why
There's still a reason
Still a small flame
Left burning inside

There was never a clear answer
Or some righteous destiny
Nothing but a small exchange of words
Known to you and me
But no matter how far we fall
I believe in another way
I'm stronger than yesterday

No I'm not broken
Just got a lot on my mind
This promise spoken
Binds me to life
It's never easy

But we're not owed anything

I look out
From the bottom of my grave
At the darkened sky
And all I see is rain
I have no desire to climb out
I don't care if I escape

I can't see anymore
The world that I saw before
Makes me feel like it's all a dream, but somehow
I still bleed just like it's real life
And I never really wake up from the pain

If you tell me
You're tired of my face
I won't blame you
I'll live inside my shame
I've always been this useless girl
A coward so afraid
To live my empty life
To repeat mistakes I've made
Always frozen in my fears
Or blinded by my rage



When there's nothing left and the cold pours through your viens
From every flower and warm embrace, all the beauty drains



"'Tis down in yonder garden green, love, where we used to walk
The finest flow'r that 'ere was seen
Has withered to a stalk
The stalk has withered dry, my love
So will our hearts decay
So make yourself content, my love
Till God calls you away"

Fallow fields and dust are bound
By a hollow earthly sound
Our last night has come to call
Away from time we all shall fall

There are things that I have seen
That made me question everything
But in this hour I know too well
The fracture of my mortal shell

A wasted curse lost in the wind
Worry not for those who've sinned
Blazing leaves in setting sun
All my life has come undone