A love so strong
Yet oh so wrong

Is this feeling right
Or should I stay and fight
For the one who stood beside me through all the long nights
The one who took my breath away and holds me oh so tight
This choice is to hard and can not be taken light

How can I say I do
When my heart is split in two
My heart has turned to goo
And I'm left wondering what, when and WHO?

Laying in bed i think to my self

What ever happened to my mental health?

I'm no picture of perfect stealth

And not much to live for with no kind of wealth

I laugh to myself even though i know its not funny

And imagine what it would be like if today were sunny

Would every body still be indoors making there money

What a waste of something quite so cunning

Well okay then i may say..

How long do you think it has been okay

To not live our life but merely keep it at bay

Constantly struggling to look the other way

Well i have something important to say

Today we must all think a different way because tomorrow may just bring a better day!

They took something away from me that left a void so deep
I can still see us laughing and tickling your tiny feet
But it seems my child that in this life we where not destined to meet
We would have been so strong us three, together there would be nothing we couldn't defeat

But someone, somewhere said dear child you are to precious for this world to keep
So they gave you wings and now we mourn as away from this world you retreat  

But we shall try not to cry, we shall try not to weep
For you our baby girl, our angel, our beautiful soft and sweet
In our hearts a special place forever there shall be <3 <3 <3

At the end of my rope
losing all hope
trying to live life has become a joke
doing my hardest just to cope
still trying to climb this slippery *****

Where did I go wrong
this lie has gone on to long
its time they hear my song

a song of sorrow of pain and fear
please someone, yes anyone can you lend me an ear?
for I need to let this out my dear …

I fell to hard and way to fast
now all I wish to do is erase my past

For its one filled of grief
And almost no Relief
with a tiny amount of belief

That my baby wouldn’t die
That I wouldn’t have to cry
Or live in constant deny

That my love would stay strong
And we could carry on
To above and great beyond

But our baby she is gone
And the life from me is drawn

As each day goes by I feel us drift some more
Wondering why you have not headed for the door
Why do you stay here? Would you like some more?

Some more of my mental abuse
Some more of you getting used
Some more of you being accused
Or some more of your love being refused

I cant be with you, nor without
In my heart there is much to much doubt
My emotions have hit a drought
And I fear together we may never find a way out.

Don't tell me that its all okay
When I'm barley holding life at bay
Stop telling me not to think that way
And that today is just a really bad day

How could you know the pain i feel
When all i show of me is not real

I regret the life i lead, so fake
When with every smile my heart brakes.