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The risk of the trust
Is to sink into truth
But that bubble
Can’t double
Just pop the bubble

-rlc

Empty space
It  Laces with the feeling
Of the past aren’t you tired
being tied to the ending
It  never ends  
It keeps going around and around
Like  a roundabout
It latches on to you
You lack the love
the past locks you up
Afraid of love
Put a lock on the emotions
Empty the feeling
Don’t make a fuss
the past its exhausted and confused
You are losing
it haunts you
Always will
you don’t expect
The  same things to hunt you
Until it hurts you
What’s  the meaning behind the emptiness
That Happiness?
is The lack of sympathy
the path of the people
That abandoned you
Why does it repeat it just won’t  stop
Don’t lie your tired
it’s exhausting
It doesn't Change
it ties  to you
Your lost
Most of the Hope hangs  in your eyes
It drains  like rain that keeps clogging
you change lanes to get through
Your longing  for a Connection
But nothing  stays
everything It just doesn't
fix anything the lies
that lays with you
It’s the list that lingers
And lack of love trigger's you
That itch that lingers the feeling
Your out of place
You don’t belong
here or there or anywhere  
The environment lacks every moment
you long for
to feel the warmth and unconditional love
But it’s unbelievable
you let the fear of being hurt
Ruin the moment of someone that could have been a true friend .
Your scared
The scars of abandonment
It’s not about the moments
Its the reality
Of the truth
Years of yearning
You learn reality it  is the only thing that you try so hard not to realize the truth in
But you already knew the truth it isn’t new
You just wanted to lie to believe
you will be happy someday

RLC

She wants to go back before last October
When everything was perfect with you
As time go by
Everything changed
The girl you knew isn’t the same
And what we had isn’t like it used to be
Those laughs start to fade
Into not try to think of you
All we have is nothing now
All she wants is go back to before last October
Where it was good
had everything She wanted
But now she stuck in the fog, and his moving on

RLC

This memory bring back to much pain
This pain is hidden behind these walls
These walls build higher and higher
Each day bring more suffering she want
The suffering to stop those pills she think
Helps get Rid of those memory
When they stop working she falls down
Again she build up those wall
as those walls fall down
When she in her room
At 3 am thinking about those memories
As she opens the pill bottle she wonder
If she’ll ever be happy
But as those memories flood back
she want it to stop
One swallow and it stops

RLC

I believe he loves me But I don’t love myself.
I don’t deserve to be loved. He tells me I am beautiful.
But When I look In to the mirror all I see is the ugliness inside.
I’m broken
No one wants me
Especially him
He doesn’t want someone who is broken.
My heart tells me he loves me but my mind says no My mind is racing.
I am lost.
What is love?


RLC

I thought I knew you
I thought that you stud up for me back then
I thought we both were on they same base
about the past of you and me
you where someone who I looked up to  
I thought I knew you  for  years
but now that everything is different
After you texted me that night …


I   should have never let  you tell me to run straight to the base and let you slide into my heart I should have listened to my head telling me you can’t run to him your just going to get hurt .

RLC

It’s Almost fall
the tree start to turn different
But thats how it goes
Look around seeing those leaves fall
But because you’re falling out of my life
I’m not looking at the leaves I’m looking at you leaving….
After one thing falls apart it start to fade just like those leaves on the tree
Something beautiful Turns  into something
that Gets blown away
But that’s  how it goes…

RLC

As she keeps on telling herself that
he going to be the one people there for her always
But days pass then month
At school, he would be with his friends laughing at her
Every day she would text him
He would say sorry as always
She says would you be like other people in my past
He says I’m not like those people I promise
she says ok…
Then three month goes by without a word from her
She comes back no one knew she was gone
She starts to talk to him again
He tells her he needs to stop text her
But she doesn’t want him to leave her as everyone does
So she opens up more about everything
He says people care
He says people love her
She doesn’t believe him
She says no one does
She wishes he were going to say he loved her
But wishes don’t come true
So she goes to class all happy to see him after class
Then she found something out that she couldn’t  Believe
She goes to the phone to say something
Tears fall down her cheek her heart shattered  
She believes that he was who she thought he was she didn’t know how long
she thought she always knew he was going to be there
But now she realizes he like everyone from her past
RLC

What is  a memory?
What should I be thankful for
Honestly I have never actually known
I just can’t stop laughing about it now
The ******* the couch says Rebekah
that’s actually not a good memory
I tell her  it’s just funny to think about
I can’t make those memories into a bad one
Because those were the only good ones I got

RLC

If I had long hair then you would have like me better
If I had  a hourglass body you would want me
If I weren’t annoying  then you would have talk to me in the hallway
But I’m none of that!
I am not perfect
I am not that one girl
I don’t think you know
just think I have feeling too
You don’t know how much I cry to you hurtful words
You don’t get it
If I was just perfect you would have cared
You would have loved me.

As I step on this bridge
I thought it was holding on
One by one it starts to fall
It was supposed to help
But it was unstable
Seeing everything Falling into the water
All those memories fall to
You try to pick them up
But that's  not good enough
You didn't want it to brake
But it did
As you try to fix it
It not the same
You just want the
Bright Red Bridge
To hold on
But it was already crossed the line
And
It
S
T
O
P
E
D
     -RLC

I want you
But you want her
And your never want me
But you don’t want to hurt me
But it hurts to see you with her
I want you to want me
But instead, you say
you need me
Does she do what I do
Do she make you need her
Does she say your name
Will she tell you the secret
That she hasn't told anyone
I just want you
But instead, you need me
But is what you need
More then what you want?
RLC

As she gets on more and more pills
She doesn’t know someone cares
But as that person doesn’t tell her
About how much he loves her
It was too late for him
Too late for her to see that he did love her
As he goes to schools, he wonders where she is
As he asks
They say she gone for good
He falls to the floor and cry
like that girl did for days



RLC

You think I’m happy
But its just a mask
It hide all the Pain
My smile is
Broken
But it ok
All those pills wont
Help but it helps the
Thinking go away
As Im running
Away from my problems
The problems are still there


        RLC