Empty space
It  Laces with the feeling
Of the past aren’t you tired
being tied to the ending
It  never ends  
It keeps going around and around
Like  a roundabout
It latches on to you
You lack the love
the past locks you up
Afraid of love
Put a lock on the emotions
Empty the feeling
Don’t make a fuss
the past its exhausted and confused
You are losing
it haunts you
Always will
you don’t expect
The  same things to hunt you
Until it hurts you
What’s  the meaning behind the emptiness
That Happiness?
is The lack of sympathy
the path of the people
That abandoned you
Why does it repeat it just won’t  stop
Don’t lie your tired
it’s exhausting
It doesn't Change
it ties  to you
Your lost
Most of the Hope hangs  in your eyes
It drains  like rain that keeps clogging
you change lanes to get through
Your longing  for a Connection
But nothing  stays
everything It just doesn't
fix anything the lies
that lays with you
It’s the list that lingers
And lack of love trigger's you
That itch that lingers the feeling
Your out of place
You don’t belong
here or there or anywhere  
The environment lacks every moment
you long for
to feel the warmth and unconditional love
But it’s unbelievable
you let the fear of being hurt
Ruin the moment of someone that could have been a true friend .
Your scared
The scars of abandonment
It’s not about the moments
Its the reality
Of the truth
Years of yearning
You learn reality it  is the only thing that you try so hard not to realize the truth in
But you already knew the truth it isn’t new
You just wanted to lie to believe
you will be happy someday

RLC

There’s a fork in the road go left or right or just maybe go forward into the middle don’t decide to go where someone else goes. Go down the middle lane and plant your seed of hope for that it’s the middle grown see both ways  Of the path of where you heading be different be you theres ups and downs but where you go is just a seed of hope plant it and it will grow out see the light in both sides and stand in the middle isn’t it beautiful who cares don’t worry if you stand out you just have to keep being you see both ways because the middle ground will balance your  perception of hope .

RLC

🫴🏻
The risk of the trust
Is to sink into truth
But that bubble
Can’t double
Just pop the bubble

-rlc

What is  a memory?
What should I be thankful for
Honestly I have never actually known
I just can’t stop laughing about it now
The ******* the couch says Rebekah
that’s actually not a good memory
I tell her  it’s just funny to think about
I can’t make those memories into a bad one
Because those were the only good ones I got

RLC

So many doors  so many problems
I  say you make a better door then a window
But you are the doors that locked
blocking the light
the feeling of not being able to breath
I can’t see where I’m going from your door
I wish I could be able to see through that window
See the happiness I deserve
The light in my eyes seeing  whats out there
Wonder is it going to be better
I wish I could get to that window
But all  those places all those people
just have doors and those doors lead to other doors
And those lead to the worst memories
People have to open a door to let me in
I just want you to let me open the window.
But you’re blocking it.

RLC

people looks down at the ground
I look  like a clown being around
They say look in the mirror
But i can't because i can't read backwards
I want to go forwards
Who am I?
You all say I'm different
I try to see what you meant
Some people just go a far way to lie
Me I'm just a mile away From the truth
Who am
I'm the girl who was different
Then the others
RLC

I thought I knew you
I thought that you stud up for me back then
I thought we both were on they same base
about the past of you and me
you where someone who I looked up to  
I thought I knew you  for  years
but now that everything is different
After you texted me that night …


I   should have never let  you tell me to run straight to the base and let you slide into my heart I should have listened to my head telling me you can’t run to him your just going to get hurt .

RLC

It’s Almost fall
the tree start to turn different
But thats how it goes
Look around seeing those leaves fall
But because you’re falling out of my life
I’m not looking at the leaves I’m looking at you leaving….
After one thing falls apart it start to fade just like those leaves on the tree
Something beautiful Turns  into something
that Gets blown away
But that’s  how it goes…

RLC

As we sit across from Each other
At the table
You ask me
Are we here because
You went here with him
I look you in the eyes
I said no because your not him
10 hours drive away from you
You and I would write letter back and forth
I was so happy to get your letters
Its like when your a kid
running to the mail box with a smile
I started to need those letters to know you still care
2 month go by i still sitting in the living room still hoping for a letter
But in reality they were never going to come
the letters the texts the calls stoped  show up
And I wonder what happened
I go back to that day when you ask me
That one question are we here cuz of him
And then i realized you where him to me
I needed you to be him
But in reality you didn’t want to be him

RLC

She wants to go back before last October
When everything was perfect with you
As time go by
Everything changed
The girl you knew isn’t the same
And what we had isn’t like it used to be
Those laughs start to fade
Into not try to think of you
All we have is nothing now
All she wants is go back to before last October
Where it was good
had everything She wanted
But now she stuck in the fog, and his moving on

RLC