I’m falling for you
I hope you falling in love to
Because I need you

RLC

What happened to her
She uses to be this girl
But she disappears
He wants her to laugh again like how
she did before
But it too late
She gone
And she wishes she could be her again
But she can’t come back
She never can
Because that girl you knew is gone
She lost her self
And she can't come back
The bright red cheeks
Are now pale and have dark circles
around her eyes
And to many secret
To hold in


RLC

You say you don’t want to hurt me
But as I see you with her
It hurts
I think
Why dose he
L
  O
      V
         E
Her
But
N
O
T
Me
I hold back the tears
When I know she pretty
And all you see are my scars
Of the pain of the past
And the pain in my eyes
When I hear her name in you mouth
And say
we’re  just not for eachother
When you where the best thing that happend
This summer
But the best thing that happens to you this summer was
Her....

RLC

walking down the street
it all a blur
can't feel a thing
look down at the phone
left 3 voicemails
one for him and the lies
one for the girl who couldn't keep a promise
one to tell her story
1 text
tell her you loved her and it not her fault...
you mouth all dry
it 4am
you put your headphones on
the song Go Solo  on repeat
you sit there  looking up to the sky
whispering, let me go
falling down to the ground
people say your life flashes before you eyes
but she didn't see anything
hit the ground
and lays there in pain
and looks up at the stars
and closed her eyes

RLC

Let me go

RLC

Your not the first...
Stay and let me explain
It took 16 year to find you
When October came I knew you cared
3 month go by with out a word
Come back everything shattered
They say I need to change
I try
Text by text everything goes wrong
Lost one
Then two
I never knew it would take a second to loss someone
As time goes by wonder what I could have done
Wrote a note
Tell her you love her
Your where happy for once because you finally told someone that
4 year ago I told that to someone who died
And I never said it again
But I said it to you
But I guess everyone you love
leave you
Your not the first

-RLC

He said he cared
He wanted to help
I opened up ...
he said I'm here for you
I tell him everything
how I hate myself
how no one wants me
how I tried to **** my self
as I look back I thought he truly cared
but that what all they all say  
until they don't want anything to do with me
as I sit there in the bed
thinking what did I do wrong
I thought he cared
I feel empty
so I go take a shower
I stand there the water so cold
I'm try not to cry
but it just starts
I scream
What the ****
I keep screaming
I fall to the ground I sit there
numb
I felt so hopeless
its like no one ever will help
I try over and over again to get help
but it destroys me more and more
as the cold water on my back falls to the ground
I tell myself I'm done
I'm done try
I'm done asking for help
I'm done opening up
no one really wants to help
I get out of the shower
and go to the cabinet
get the pills on the left side
and count them
one by one
and it feels good
not to feel a thing

RLC

I feel this hole in my stomach
It like I’m not hungry
I feel gross
The food is on the table
I feel like I should eat it
But I’m not hungry
If I eat ...
I start felling like
I can’t breath
I want to eat
But I’m not hungry
I try some snacks
But I play with it instead
When I can’t breath
I panicked
And It gets harder and harder to breath
I run to the bathroom
I start losing weight
5 pounds a week
I couldn’t tell
Because all my life I was fat
No one like the fat girl
I still feel this hole in my stomach
I don’t know what it is
I’m not hungry

RLC

It was like a gasp of air when I was born
My sister wanted a sister
but when she saw me she didn’t want that baby
Days turned in to month into years
My sister never wanted to play
I tried to make friend
I thought I had some
I guess she was one of my best friend
It was her birthday
I worked ******* a card
She said she wasn’t have a birthday party
But if you look on Instagram
She did
By 6th grade they all had changed
I moved schools
I thought I was going to get a chance to start over
But the kid they didn’t lie the told me the truth
The truth about how I look
The truth about how annoying I am
They torn my apart
By texted message
I would be the one who got in trouble
When they would tell me
if you where skinny and had long hair I would like you
Write notes about me
And laughs
For 4 year I had to deal with that
I work hard to get back to the school where everyone lied  
I thought it was going to be sun shine and rainbows
But when I go back
I thought they would change like I did
But no… no..no
They where worst
Everyday I would come in with a smile
Do my work
But when I talked
One girl said thank God I’m out of it so I don’t need to listen to her
When I went to lunch I would try and try to make a friend
But they would walk away or start saying rude stuff
Or shoving water bottle up they throat and make noise till I left
I would talk to someone one about this he was one of the guys at the lunch table
He said I’m sorry
He said people cared
He said people love you
3 Month go by with out a word from me
I stared text him again
He says sorry I can’t do this anymore
You can’t just do this to me
I have no one
He says his sorry
But I was stupid
So I open up about everything
I shouldn’t have
But I did…
He said ill meet you before class
I was happy for ones
But when I was going to class
One of the teacher grab me
And said let go
I was confuse
But know I now what happened
He told someone something
I started to text
And I see
That he was done with me
He bloke me
I was gasping for air
It was like I was drowning
I couldn’t breath
He was the only friend I had
At the stupid school
My life was ruined by people at school
Everyday I perseverate
Over and over about school
And what I could have done
So I wasn’t the girl called annoying girl
Or the one who lost everything because of her
And that me.

RLC

You say you care
You say you’ll never
     LEAVE
But all those where
        LIES
If you cared you wouldn’t have
         LEFT
No
     G
       O
          O
            D
               B
                 Y
                    E
Just a girl who
    LOSE
  EVERONE
The girl thought
They would never leave
But once she open up
**** their
   GONE
         LIKE
               THE
                      WIND


RLC

Im supposed to be happy right ?
Everyone thinks that I am .
But that is a big joke.  
Everyday I try to hold it in
But my mind is  trapped in my body
I struggle to say the words out loud  
But out loud is scary  
The words are like a  scream for help
But I cant… I just cant
When they ask me if I’m fine
I shut down and smile  
I try so hard everyday to be perfect
But the girl in my soul is scream louder
Is it ever going to get better?


          -RLC

“I love you”
Those words
F
  A
    D
       E

In the back of her mind
As He says it
She cant stand those lies
The lies that he really love her
What is
      L
         O
             V
                 E

If he never did mean it?
What the point of happy ever after
If there no true love
  


            - RLC

I thought you love me
But secret kept us away from each other
One by one you left me
I loved you with everything, but you didn’t
I wasted everything
my heart in a million pieces
Our love is gone
My makeup smudge
I can’t believe you’re gone
All those pills won’t help
My hands are shaking
As you leave my hands
My smile turn upside down
This happiness won’t be the same
Without you, I don’t know what I’ll do
You never love me, and I never knew it
When I see the sun, all I see is the dark cloud
When I see you with her
all I see your happiness
And me I’m getting more pills
And my mascara is running down my face
As my last words say.....
You never love me and you’ll never will

RLC