In an empty room
Filled with water
There I fall
Letting gravity do its job
As my hair rises
So does the self hate
As body lowers
So does my hope
As the pain in my chest becomes tight
I cannot help to feel lost
The water continues to boil
Filling myself with nothing
As the pain grows
So my forgiveness
As my tears float up
So do I

Is it ever safe
Is it ever okay
Without getting a strafe
Yet with filled with frey

Is it ever good to come out
Is it ever a good thing
Without getting doubt
And sringing stars of spring

Is it ever understandable
Is it ever full
Without getting the labol
And feel great pull

It is ever good
It is ever forgivin
With possibilities of could
You'll feel the best you ever been

Like the ocean I swim in
With the water of uncertainty
I tend to swim in the deep end

Like forest I build my log cabin
With the logs of grieve
I tend to live in the center

Like the mountains I climb
With the stone of a brokenhearted girl
I climb never to the top

Like beach I gaze over
With the air as hope
I tend to drown in the breezy days

Like home I live in
With the building blocks of compete
I tend to like the most

What does it mean to be really trapped?
Is it the lion that gazes up ward toward the traveling people
Dreaming to look out, yet they keep him in his cage
For safety~

Or is the constant reminder of what you are
That only build walls
Stronger when pushed away

Could it be that fact that people are people
That shoots you with the facts
That cuts you with the fallen heart
And that builds humidity in yourself

Are you who you say you are?
Are you tired of trying?
Are you sick of being nothing in yourself?
Then change it

God knows i'll never get there

Anger will grow
So will the walls
Until the Pressure comes

And the building falls~

The stary night ascending
I stare in deep gaze
Desperately seeking for my star once more
Some where up there in that maze

The foolish dreamers seem to dissipate
Waiting on something that will never come
They sit there just sitting
Just some

The some
Will there stars come
Will there dreams fade in darkened horizon?
When it darkens to nothing, I believe the most

Does this angle have a plan
Is there a light I have yet to see
I know my spirit should lead me to me
But where is my spirit

What will fill this cavity of desperation
Am I to be satisfied with out knowing?  
I Gaze to wish to also see
Cause all I want

Is for my star to come

I'm tired of yelling
Inside my mind
The anger grows swelling
Making me blind

The stabbing pain in my lower heart
Is nothing compared to the uproar
I can't hit the target: with this dart
Cause it will cause more war

Nothing seems to work anymore
The scars I'm making is no more than scars
Something that closes the door
Building more bars

I choke on my blade
I play the game
The blade of everyday's fading shade
And I'm the winner of the game of blame

My breath softens
Along with my tears
Cool and wet as the dance
Down a cheek with blood

My eyes water
Along with my hate
Ungrateful mess
Twisted with a taste blade

My hair covers my face
Along with my life
Confused and can't choose
Wither left or right

My mother does not understand
Along with a father
One day the'll know
But once I am gone

The snow is melting
Along with me
I see you in everything
Your my forest; your my sea

No matter what I do
Your always there
In my dreams
Yet the're thin as air

Thanks to you
I haven't moved on
I know I can't have you
But I wait for you at the crack of dawn

I've seen you with others
I've seen you happy
I know I could never give you that
Which makes me feel ******

It's okay though
I'll just stand behind
Because thats what I'm best at
I love you; Twisted and Twined

In lies we swim in
And the carelessness we walk on
We shatter something we once created
Something that will never be put together again

While watching everyone around you breathing
You're the only one drowning

There is no going back
You can only move behind
Never forward

Because mirrors tell a lot about us
They show more than what you want

You stare deep in to your crestfallen eyes
Seeing nothing but endless jungle
You gaze over your smile
A fake smile; never more

No one understands you
Cause you don't fit
They hold the remote
That moves you back and forth

Until your batteries ware all out
There is nothing you can do

But staring at the scars
Of everyones' lies
Leaving nothings but stars
Of everything that dies

You think you know me
But do you?
You think you own me
But do you?
You think I'm wrong
But do you?
You think you understand me
But do you?
You think I give up all the time
But do you?
Its seems you know me better
Than I really know myself
Cause that what I believe
And so do you
Right?

That shock
The waves that flow through out you body
Down to feet
Back up to your head
The feeling of
"What's behind me?"
and
"Why me?"
Could not be more that just a illusion
But its real
It has taken your breath away
Speechless and silent
It mixes with you sanity
By twisting your thoughts around
And replacing with nothing
But
"Where is "it" now?"

She has been painted in between the shades of someone’s hate
And have been thrown around with nothing else to spare
Yet wondering still, just how she will be able to cope
With the people breathing down her neck
With the breath of loathing and lies

With this new fear
That she can’t seem to shake off
It scares her even more
Knowing it’s hurting her loved ones

She worked so hard to fix that crack in the mirror
But even if you glue it back together with love
And you form it just right
You will still see the cracks in your reflection

There is nothing she can do but deal
To put up with the pain
To hope to gain
Even though she know she cannot heal