That shock
The waves that flow through out you body
Down to feet
Back up to your head
The feeling of
"What's behind me?"
and
"Why me?"
Could not be more that just a illusion
But its real
It has taken your breath away
Speechless and silent
It mixes with you sanity
By twisting your thoughts around
And replacing with nothing
But
"Where is "it" now?"

In an empty room
Filled with water
There I fall
Letting gravity do its job
As my hair rises
So does the self hate
As body lowers
So does my hope
As the pain in my chest becomes tight
I cannot help to feel lost
The water continues to boil
Filling myself with nothing
As the pain grows
So my forgiveness
As my tears float up
So do I

In lies we swim in
And the carelessness we walk on
We shatter something we once created
Something that will never be put together again

While watching everyone around you breathing
You're the only one drowning

There is no going back
You can only move behind
Never forward

Because mirrors tell a lot about us
They show more than what you want

You stare deep in to your crestfallen eyes
Seeing nothing but endless jungle
You gaze over your smile
A fake smile; never more

No one understands you
Cause you don't fit
They hold the remote
That moves you back and forth

Until your batteries ware all out
There is nothing you can do

But staring at the scars
Of everyones' lies
Leaving nothings but stars
Of everything that dies

You think you know me
But do you?
You think you own me
But do you?
You think I'm wrong
But do you?
You think you understand me
But do you?
You think I give up all the time
But do you?
Its seems you know me better
Than I really know myself
Cause that what I believe
And so do you
Right?

She has been painted in between the shades of someone’s hate
And have been thrown around with nothing else to spare
Yet wondering still, just how she will be able to cope
With the people breathing down her neck
With the breath of loathing and lies

With this new fear
That she can’t seem to shake off
It scares her even more
Knowing it’s hurting her loved ones

She worked so hard to fix that crack in the mirror
But even if you glue it back together with love
And you form it just right
You will still see the cracks in your reflection

There is nothing she can do but deal
To put up with the pain
To hope to gain
Even though she know she cannot heal