I hate the good days with you that bring the bad ones. I hate every smile, and every laugh with you because I know they'll bring in a wave of tears. I hate the months with you that are so great, that nothing bad could go wrong, and for a second I actually think everything is okay,  but nothing good last forever, I sit back waiting, waiting for that one thing to end all the happiness, I try to not think about it but it's here. A sea of tears that last for miles an miles, my heart beating so fast, it's going to rip out of my chest and fly away, leaving me with nothing, nothing. But after a while it comes back. Says sorry an acts like nothing ever happened, just like you, like every other time before. I hate that nothing will change.