Why does Day by day it's getting harder,
When it's Nothing new but a replay,
It's okay till others ignored it,
But what if you too are ignoring your feelings?

I have a heartbeat but my heart is so passionless,
My body doesn't feel right as my soul has abandoned it,
Sometimes I think Am I even living?
Now I'm wondering
What is it like to live?

I'm tied,
Tied with the heaviest and strongest ropes,
Ropes of imaginary picture-perfect me,
Imagination is which doesn't exist,
And what I am is how I don't want to exist.

Luck may get partial sometimes,
But at some point ain't I lucky too,
As I'm still alive, breathing and writing.

No matter what I'm,
Who I am.
Changes will certainly be there,
But only for me and
Only if I want.

Empty-ed
Void
Blank
Nice

Dear sister,
Time spent with you is so beautiful,
Maybe that is why, it's flying hastily,
I perhaps can't slow down the time,
However, I would do anything to prevent this thought,
"When did we drift apart?"

You know if I don't like to be with someone,
Then I just don't like to be,
But it doesn't mean they're unlikable,
It's just that a cup of masala chai,
And a dessert doesn't go well together,


The same goes for me, when someone
Don't like me,
It's not my fault either.

Shapeshifters
Exist
In me
My thoughts
My emotions
But not in
My behaviour
Now they are
Squealing  altogether
It's so noisy and stifling
And yet I'm staying calm.
Because
Someone has to be.
Right.

My sad times are always accompanied
by my poems...
Then why don't my good times

Be real,
But not so much that you lose yourself,
You don't have to express your every thought and every desire,
You cannot wish for the one who isn't you to appreciate every dream you aspire,
It's not you who's at fault,
The world simply doesn't conspire.

pain Is inevitable,
Sometimes if we want things to get better,
We need to embrace the pain.

I'm chasing a good career,
I'm striving for promising work,
I'm desiring for an ideal life,
I'm dying for a perfect body,
I'm struggling to achieve luxury,
I'm working on building my brand,
I'd want to be loved so much
I've many things in life that
I might die achieving,
I want each one of them, but
I wouldn't be shattered without them,
I'd still make a living, as
In MY LIFE,
My emotions, my People, their feelings
Are the only things that matter the most,
In the end
I just want to get better as a person, daughter, sibling, and citizen.

When you let go of what others think of you,
When you know you are doing right,
When you know you're hurting none,
That is when you start
To let embarrass yourself,
Let you embrace yourself,
Take all the colours,
And paint yourself,
A wonderful and colourful life.
Be Your Own Muse sometimes.

Haal kya hai janab ka?
Jawab kya hoga,
Iss sawal ka?
Zara sa mann duniya mein, Zara sa mann kaagaz ke panno mein,
Hum to kud gumshuda hai,
Humare in khayalon mein।

There's nothing:oh- so very startling,
If one day we're told that
We live in illusions,
I understand worry is the most futile work,
Any human can perform,
In any sense of life,
So instead let me take a peek,
Of Your illusion, and gain some experience,
To bring out the nicest and most beautiful delicacy,
Out of my psyche fallacy.

She was my best friend,
The best I could ever have,
I mourned for months when her family moved out,
I would tell everyone about the friendship we had,
I was so happy when I was meeting you again,
But that turned out to be very very sad,
You behaved as if you don't even know me,
First time in my life I felt my heart broken,
Instead of embarrassment, I felt lament,
I wish we had never met again,
I would have lived in our good memories,
You were my first heartbreak, the beginning, there were many after you,
The problem is within me,
If I'm into something I do it like a devotee,
I'm afraid that if this is how  friendship could affect me,
What would love do to me?

In a few issues, in fact in a lot of issues
" Ignoring what others may think is good
But aren't people making a little too rude?"

Awestruck and amused,
Someone else has also believed in my dream today.

Once there were some  days,
When I used to commit a few mistakes,
Very fearlessly,
My teacher used to call me,
With a friendly smile,
Corrected where I was wrong,
And tend to learn a lot,

Soon the time changed,
So does the teacher,
I did write my test, again with few mistakes,
But when the teacher called this time,
The atmosphere wasn't so dear,
Stood fiercely with my paper,
My heart thumped hard, felt breathless,
He took a big wooden stick,
I held out my palm,
It landed on my palm, but hurt my pride,
It repeated and repeated,
I didn't dare to commit mistakes,
Lost the whole night, mostly in fright,
Thinking about the next day,
The road to school looked like the way to hell.

And
As always,
I ended up
Picking the pieces of my heart.

It's going to be like this, isn't it,
This is why I stopped talking,
Why not just leave me alone?

Invading my space,
Makes me feel special,
And throws me off the cliff.

To the only man,
I've ever loved so much,
My best friend,
The one who saves me from mom,
The one whom I save from mom,
My partner in crime,
The one whose anger is more of fun,
The one who always is on my side,
When I hold your hand,
I don't need to be cautious anymore,
Your hug is the most comforting place,
I'm thankful to God to have you both,
Lots of love from your little Princess,
To the only man, I've ever loved,
Happy Father's Day dad...

Wounds turn numb,
When they are healing.

People who have a wonderful place in my heart, and memory,
I'm curious if they remember me,
Like I remember them.

I don't feel outcasted anymore,
Maybe I'm alone but not lonely,
Enjoying my own company gives me happiness,
Which is at another level.

There seems no place for me to shout,
Until my I omit everything,
So I'm screaming through my words.

I said, "I'm used to love you,"
You thought it was a grammar mistake.

Someone said beauty is a choice,
I agree,
Smile or not it's your choice now.

I have a best friend who loves me,
My sister loves me,
My parents love me,
Yet I feel ignored, unimportant and empty sometimes,
Why does that happen,
Are all relationships end up like this

Dear God,
Can you fix my malfunctioning,
There are many nonsense embarrassing memories, I'm troubled with,
Can you replace them with my tomorrow's test work?

To your privilege,
And
My dismay,
I'm a pro player,
In the game of
Self-blame.

Maybe not all the time,
But most of the time I like the person I'm turning into.
That's what gives me a sense of righteousness and peace.

Few flashbacks are so dark,
At times,
No distractions can change my mood,
Then happened something,
I felt really good,
It was written something on my book,
There's still 'HOPE' take a look!

If my life wants to turn bitter,
It better be coffee.

I thought a smile was the most beautiful thing,
Until I met your eyes.

I wanna be free
I wanna be safe

Do they comply?

I'm home, I'm safe,
I'm happy??

When I leave
My body,
If there's is a soul,
In my body,
They wouldn't have much inconvenience,
Adjusting
In
A
Smaller Coffin.....

The problem is always
With the"nice people",
Who are just nice.
Nothing more,
Nothing less.

My feelings flowed as my eyes graced the sky,
Finally, I can say goodbye.

The moment I saw your silhouette,
Everyone else became a blurry shadow.

When I'm happy,
I look at you and smile,
When I'm sad
I look at you and smile,
I don't feel like "this too shall pass",
I just smile.
Not to cheer up,
Not to gear up,
It's a pause,
I just smile.
I forget the race,
I lose the speed,
I drop the accuracy,
I just smile.
No memories, no future vision,
No idols, no competitors,
It's just me, my heartbeat and
My smile.

Adrenaline hits,
My first sleepless night,
In Excitement to change.

I want to live and die,
Not hesitate and die.

I want a place,
From where
I never want to escape anymore.

I bought you jewellery,
I take you to dinner,
Oh my dear
I know I've been busy lately
But I've sent you flowers and greeting cards,
Yet you seem unhappy every time.

"Or you could have just bought me a Pizza,
You would have won."

Who is to blame?

My ears
Or
Your mouth...

I wish I were deaf,
Instead of
Wishing half world to be mute...

To
The
People
I've hated,
For a
Moment,
I dropped my
Judgments,
Widened my
Brain,
Took a swirl
Into your shoes,
Made fake
Scenarios,
Imagined your side of
Life,
Now I
Don't know
If I ever hated you
Or will ever hate
Anyone.

What is the correct option?
Which one is more devastating?
Which one takes more healing?
Which one holds the power to change someone's life?
Which one hurts the most?
Physical pain or internal pain.
Can they ever fade away?
The one which everyone carries and yet is non-detectable.

हवा में चाहे कितना भी प्रदूषण हो,
अब सांस लेना थोड़े छोड़ेंगे।
लोग चाहे हमारी जिन्दगी हर्राम कर राका हो,
हम जीना थोड़े छोड़ेंगे

I tried not to care,
But that's not just who I am,
I tried so hard to be unaffected,
But what do I do with my weak heart,
I don't even know if you mean them,
But your words affect me so much,
Thanks for letting me learn
How to make a face of iron,
While your heart is tearing apart,
Just Breathing is difficult now, survival is very far,
I've mastered the game of adulthood,
Your mercy again from when I was a child,
One thing I'm grateful for is,
You'll never get to see this side of mine,
My little secret profession,
I've become a very fine actor now.