THE SWING IN DREAMS

Sitting among autumn leaves
feeling the cool evening breeze
dancing around in my mind
another time in dreams
I see a long battered swing
it looks so cold and desolated
it holds a story of long ago
the more I look at it in the silent
my mind had taken me back in time
of darkness and pains
bring down the rain
I could see myself sitting on that swing
tears did fall like glass
from a broken past
my hands are ******
my body bruised
I was in a bad storm of lies
that cut deep into my life
the cold winter blistered my skin
the ripping ancient tide air
making its way in my lungs
what was next to me
was my black cat
that was curled up on autumn leaves
while he was looking at me
while I start to scream .

Poetic Judy Emery © 2004
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Nothing can save me from you
Not no one
because they have tried
o so many times
they search and search
but couldn't find
or able to defined ,
You came along
like a summer love song
but with time
those old songs lost their tune
in that late June ,
Your words of love where no longer
your eyes became darker
your words became sharper
the abuse of you cut deeper ,
You left your mark
and I couldn't defined
you told me things
you showed me pains
that almost made me go insane ,
Look what you have done
you tore my world apart
you played with all my emotions
you had given me fantasies
but they all turned into darken dreams.

Poetic Judy Emery © 1986
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Today I walked alone in the park
Thinking of all the memory's
Of you and me
in summers breeze ,
Oh , how I wish you was still with me.
If I can help another heart to mead
I would tell them our story
to open one's eyes
about what Love can really bring
From breaking up
to making Love
I would tell them to never give up on Love.
Life isn't a game
Life is a true gift from God
Love is another gift God gives
not everyone will find Love
But if you know God
then you know Love
You have to learn from love
even when the heartaches
from Love to death
just do your very best .
this light that shines on the pond
In the park is like a glimpse of your love
You have been always so smart and true
I will always love you
I loved it when we use to walk in the park
holding each others hands
looking at the beautiful  flowers
and all the colored trees with changing leaves,
the leaves of the red and green and bright yellow
will always bring me back to you
I miss the way you sang to me
under that old midnight sky
holding on to me very tight
making wishes upon the stars
while the moon shine so bright
I know so much about Love
because God had sent me you
even now that you are in your rest bed
my heart is still with you .

Poetic Judy Lilly Emery  (c)

Love Happens Late In Life

Love happened late in ones life  
the coming of love,
the coming of light
shines so deep in darken places
this Love is like know other
like being in Paradise
the candles are lit deep within
as if the candles had been lite by themselves,
Love is a gift from God
we can see the stars gather together
like a far away dream
pour into are pillows while we sleep
when I see you smile
you make my heart smile
You''re so sweet
you're the love of my Life
tomorrow’s dust flares into breath of another
Love is a gift that never withers
love was made from God
He is love to all of us .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Holding On To Our Love

We will hold hands together in love  
Laugh and smile together in all kinds
Of weather we can talk and talk
and make so many dreams
Paris is were I will soon be holding thee  
We can share our secrets together and
make love in all types of weather
We will confess our fears
even by far just never
brake my heart
One day we will wipe the tears
from each other’s eyes
You will see , Please never give up on me
I know this love we have
is hard because we are far apart
I promise I will not ever brake your heart !
lets give each other comfort
while we are on the phone  
confide in each other
lets let God take the lead
you will see God is with us ,
because he is the mark of love .
close your eyes and get some sleep
just know I am holding you
while you dream about me .


Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Let Me Be Your Everything
I sat down to think about all you ever told me
I start to write all  my emotions down
for all to read about you and me
I want to show all how
things really are that was between us
I want to have romantic dances
with lots of kisses you would say
you would hold me close
where you could whisper in my ears
all the things you hold dear
how much you need me
the Love you want to show me
the passion you have for me
I truly know a lot from you
you have talked to me
about so much things
you even told me
Love is not that easy
like others think it should be
You get up out of bed
to start your day  
with me on your mind
that was all you could think about
is the love that is in your heart for me
you would tell me
You're my love you see
Let me be your everything
this old life brings
let me spark up a fire deep within you
like you had never known
I want to be the one
to give you a kiss each and every day
just to let you know the hours
you're upon my mind
Let me be all you could ever need
Your words my love
will always be a part of me
Your love will always be in all my memories
So I will write out what I feel
even when we are no longer
my heart has grown founder
this love will always be
written down in history
of you and me .

Poetic Judy Emery © 2010
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Alone Tonight

I see your alone tonight
for all the wrong's I have done
you must know how much
I truly love you
would you mine given me a call
I would like to cry out my heart to you
if you would only let me do so
would you mine coming home with me
lets  talk about everything  over Tea
Just don't stay mad at me
Your love mean so much  too me
I'm sorry for being so mean
I am alone tonight
Don't you see the pain on my face when
You told me to walk away ?
I am the one that hurt you so I sat at home
Alone like a sore beneath my thumb
It burns like a boil that keep going on
My heart is in so much pain
it feels like a Hurricane
That wont go away
I call you once more
to ask you to forgive me
come back home I am truly sorry
You are the world to me
a love I had always dreamed of
I am sorry I don't know
how to show you truly how I feel
my love for you is truly real
So I am alone on the phone
hoping you will come home .


Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Moved On Without You  

Come with me and let’s talk about all the what if's  
Stay the night and hold me and make everything alright  
You say the words but you’re playing me
like I was some kind of toy  
It don't feel right you holding me tonight  
Your touch wasn't the same
What do you expect me to say when you act this away?  
You know it's just too little late to play more games
You take my hand just to rub me wrong
You are so fake ,  
Years had passed I moving on
now you come back just to say  
you've changed
You know your begging don't
fool me like it once did
Because to you it's just a game
You know it's just too late to come my way
just too play more games
So let me just say get away from
my place and let me be you see  
Your old way's I don't need .  
If you think I will take another night
out just to cry for you  
You are so long gone your just too late
to make my heart change
cause time has made me strong
I see what you are all about so move on
I'm starting to move on
just like the Years that has passed
My heart isn’t attached
I'm going to say this now I am better
now without that sad song and dance
Your chance has come and gone so move along
I have no more I want to say,  
you know deep down you wish
you had never played your cheap games
I hope you can sleep at night  
It's just too little too late for you
to play another time
You known all the right things to say
to make me look your way  
You say you dream of my face ,
You miss all my kisses you had with me
Your nasty way I can live without
But it wasn't enough you wont to see me
all turn around with my knees on the grown  
Praying for all that pain to go away
Now you want to communicate ?  
Go find someone else that you can
make cry out night and day
I'm loving myself
I moved on and now I am
making new dreams for me
You got a problem with me  
Don't come asking me for help
because I have other things to think about.  

Poetic Judy Emery © 1996
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Dancing In The Dark

Preciously waiting in the dark holding my heart
Waiting to see if the man I am been seeing is true  
To me before I walk away in the pain he gave  ,
Tell me that you needed me at less ,
He just looked at me with no care in his eyes  
Shed for me just a tear to let me know you cared ,
When you whisper in my ear to say he will never leave  
Dance with me in the rain to wash away your fears my dear ,  
Tell me what you see in me to make you hurt me ,
He would say I will never let you go
without a fight
Oh, how I could see in his eyes
he means all what he is telling me
You are my life hold me close
then ask me for a second dose
Of a dance in the rain ,
It has been along year dancing
in the rain in so much pain
With a man that dances in the night
to take over my life
You can not live without my loving touch
he would say  
tell me you would never leave
He would tell me you need me
like I need air to breathe
I cried with hurt in my eyes
darkness and pain is the life you given me
tell me that you are addicted
to my touch that you love  
So much ,I cried out with shivers down my spin
I looked at him as he takes my hand
for the next winters dance
tell me that your heart cant
beat without mine he would cry
That you will always be mine
your words that don't stop teasing
My mind I cry to get out of my head
You make me wish I was dead
with every touch of your hand
Ever dance the rain became my friend
Darkness of your cold heart
has taken over my soul let me go .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Angel wings that will never fly
Dark Angel ripped and torn my heart out from me
He even broken my wings
Wiggling and whimpering
Of a pain I will never forget
Obsession in his eyes over me with so much jealousy  
His darken soul filled with scorn
covered with hated tears  
Dark Angel is afraid to let anyone near
Painted fears is what I bared in my mind over time
He pain that sears with words doubts
He touched my body touched
my hair with a touch of lust
With deep words of hurt
Obsession of ****** screams of a wounded animal
He read my dreams of freedom
Something he could never bared to let happen
Man of free , man of working of heart of soul
This is what Dark Angel calls himself
a man of Love with choice to live and die
A place of joy,love to make comfort in a warm home ,
To take my Blue Moon from me
He looked deep within my eyes
with fierce of anger
Dark Angel broken my wings and then
said I will never let you fly again
he surrounds me in chains
In the upper room in ''Paris ''  
at the old convent building  
Were a lie's are being told by a priest
giving out his voice to a darken world
that no one carers to see
Dark Angel covers me in shame of  his darken lust
In the dark he feast on my insecurity
Obsession is what broken him down
My wings are torn and shredded by his abuse
My eternal darkness is where I'm headed
No love will ever find me
I'm trapped in the hands of Dark Angel
he feeds off my fears of empty emotions
Dark Angel tells me
I must obey all his commands
because you have no love of your own
You belong to me , you can't
understand how much you mean to me
I now became Dark Angel s little dark toy
I have something to say dear what
would you like me to do for you
I must talk this away
Walk like a lustful toy of the night
Freedom is now as a lost dream
Obsession Is he over me .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery  (c)

Come out of the rain
a voice called out to me
o let the storm move along
you don't need to be out among the cold
O but if that voice only known
I had been in the storm way too long ,

O my heart , my heart
I cried
O can you see me bleeding ?
the rain is all my tears
I cried day and night for years ,

Come my child
the voice called out to me
let you heart mend
come take my hands
that is when the pains began
to cut deeper within ,

Who she ever Love me
can never come near me
this is how the story go's
O how I would Love to take
your hand in true Loves dance ,

But a spell has been cast upon me
and my heart has been lost
deep down into darken dreams
so for now I will always let my tears fall
I will always feel the coldness
until the spell is broken .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

My Life is so dim
how could Love ever find me
o teach me your faith
o lead the way
for me to one day be saved .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

In my girlhood all I ever seen
was the pains and rain of darken dreams
all I had ever known
was how to make it out on my own,
I made my mistakes
I walk the line
I see the dead
I see the blind of all times,
Oh, how my world had been darkened
I didn't have a mother or father
that was ever around
and when they where
The pains be gain some more,
I lived a life of the poor
I had been born into a world
of true darkness;
a place that is never nice
I would always wander what it was like
to be on the other side,
I am woman that is my right
I am beautifully made
that is my own rights to say
But in this darken place
envy eyes are always on me,
They talk so much badness
just to keep love away from me
where happiness could never find me
I got lost into darken dreams
that keeps me always on the edge
but I will never love my mind,
I will always keep my eyes
on the brighter side
I know in time God will let his Love shine
he will find me at the right time.

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery © 1988

The Queen Of Darken Dreams

'' For the sea ,comes many dreams ;''
I hold on to everything in darken dreams
I keep sight too all that was never nice
Oh, how the hollow winds blow
in a world so cold .

For the workers that are in the field
holds the pains of hard times
that dance around in their minds ,
I often wander will life stay like this
will anyone ever be mist ,

Invisible , magic plays around
into the night playing on the sleepers minds
Dark Angel is out casting his spells
just to give others Hell ,
Oh , I hear the screams
coming around with the hollow winds,

People are walking around like rage dolls
like you see in old photographs in dreams,
drama always finds its way in this place
keep your eyes on all in sight ,
never let go of what you know
from long ago .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Dark Angel , he has nothing I want
nothing about Dark Angel
holds anything good ,
No truth in his bones
his words are all Lies
he doesn't play nice ,
Oh, how he makes me sick
he try's to talk with poetic rhymes
but nothing came out right
his words bled out like red ink
while the old ship started ti sink
His words of old romantic
came from the dead .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

A Repentance OF Heart

He stood before the congregation
On blended knees asking Jehovah
To forgive me,
This at one time was a hard thing
For me to do,
I once walked in the dark with me
Head hung down in shame.
I hand been walking in the dark with
All kinds of sins I had made along that
Darken road,
There was no one else to blame for
My shames but me.
Satan used even used all my family
To take me down and made me feel
Like I was some kind clown that every
One kept beating down on the ground,
This was part of Satan his evil plan.
It works for many sad lonely darken years,
He set out to ruin the reputation of me
put an end to this godly sister I once was  
There I was weeping in the wind with a life
Time of deep dark sins,
I would cry out to Jehovah God how could
You love someone like me.
My ten years walking in the dark almost lost
My spiritual heart,
My life I could not bear another year;
So Jehovah sent brothers and sisters
The young and the old
to let me know I am
Not alone.
A repentant heart I truly hold within myself
But I was afraid to stand up for myself.
My sins weighted me down so much I almost
Couldn't stand on Holy grounds,
That's when I realized how easily
This could happen to you or me.
Those without sin can cast the first stone,
Which nobody did.
So, one night alone I set down on hands and
Knees and ask Jehovah God to forgive me,
Then out of know where my eyes could see
My heart was making a new beat of a new
Life working inside of me,
A new woman I became to be,
And all my sins
Had been washed away.
A lesson is here for all of us to see;
Any one can fall to deep in sin just like me.
But all it takes is a repentance of heart
For our Fathers healing to begin in Jesus name
Amen.

Poetic Judy Emery © 1981
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Not To Far Away

I loved the soft sound of the wave's and
The mist of the midnight air on P. Beach,
This is where I go when I feel I am all alone and
Far away from home ,

I swallow up all my pains of long ago when I left
From a place I thought was my home ,
But I was so wrong ;

I had always loved the daisy-covered ground,
The cloud-bed apple sky.
And not too far away was the farm of cow's and
The little chickens making their sounds ,

Texas was my old stomping place where I had
To learn many heartbreaks , And I always prayed
For rain to come and wash out all my heartaches
That came my way ,

The storm appeared when I moved away
To California to live out my better day's
The very voice of Jehovah touched my heart and
Let me Know he was with me where ever I go ,
That I was not far away from home .


Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

The Light

The light in your eyes is fading fast
Like a bladed glass ,
I try to keep up a good front that
Nothing's wrong ,
But inside my head and my heart
Are constantly fight who's right and
Who's wrong ,
As soon as I feel I can grasp for air
And go ahead and let the pain's run
In ,and accept that you are long gone
I can move along ,
The taste of happiness has faded away
To another place and silence made
Home ,
This feeling that I feel that is holding me
Captive within myself ,
Feels as if someone pulls out the rug.
And I fall off my feet onto my face ,
My heart does feel a beat.
And I have strong faith in you to see
Me through in Jehovah's name,
I don't want to give up , but this is too
Much pain that won't go away ,
This is killing me slowly within why I
Am holding it all in,
But how much can one person take.
I try with all my might.
As darkness try's so hard to fall over
Me when death has taken its course ,
This is not who I'm supposed to be.
I always try to remain bright in the love
Of Jehovah God ;
But this time my heart holds dimering
Light of a lost life and I must get my
Feeling back right,
So I call on yo Jehovah to let me run
Free until I have finely found me .
And now I am asking Jehovah God
To dust me off from all my sinful ways
And let me see brighter days to run
In the race .


Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Don't You See

Spring tiptoed through the town last night ,
Disguised in robes of winter white .
This morning he seems far away from me,
The cold winters wind made its home again
Right at my feet of you and me ,

I feel this hurt haunting my sleep, deep inside
My heart you are leaving me ;
This II hides so others
won't see what you hold to me ,

The skies are so gray when our love faded
Away for me , This makes me so crazy don't
You see you are the world to me ?


Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

Lonely Highway

Highway run for a ride of faith
Into the midnight moon is you
My God I seek ,
I hold on to my faith  
Wheels go round and round  
You're on my mind all the way
Restless my hearts to you  
I sleep alone just to know you  
Are watching over me ,
Sending all my love along to you  
In my prays I even cry upon your
Devin name Jehovah ,
They say that the road is dark and  
So lonely and I must say they are
Right but I have you to talk to  
I hold on to my faith in you ,
Right down the line it's been you and me  
Oh Jehovah my God thank you for loving me
You stand by me day and night
I'm forever yours faithfully  
There is no other love like yours  
You are my everything  
I will always call out your name  
Jehovah is my love for life  
My God , my friend to the very end .

Poetic Judy Emery © 1982
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Wild Winds

The weather is mild it makes my spirit wild  
The raging wind is running wild
with so much
Thoughts of you ,
The rain has stopped for a moment
When I start to think of you  
Here comes the blues
The wild wind is very far
from done when my spirit  
Is on the run
Your unbinding spells that
put me through so much hell
Weeping willows wave their
long tendrils of goodbyes  
This is a battle fought like the wild winds
Passionless bodies that envies
love With pointless dreams  
Like limbs that flaunt in vain in the rain
Such narrowness of fame of so much pain's
You have nothing to offer but wild winds .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

I Closed The Door

I have to admit the space is nice,
Not having to talk about my life
Or look people in the eye when  
I need to cry
I just want to be  myself without  
Someone telling how I should be,
I feel too naked around a big crowd
Why everyone looks down on me
Because I want let them live out  
My dreams
I just want to hide behind  
Run with the wind were every one
Stop looking at all the scars and
Pains that they all given to me
I want to run free from all of this mess
I've made a nice big bed to lie in like
My mother always said
Though of emptiness and lost dreams
Came from family  
Honestly I want to make them all live
Me a lone and let me live my own life  
And let them live theirs
I don't want to speak to you don't be  
So confused you know what you all do
Is lie give so much shame and blame  
Of the mess you all made ,
Then you come home and try to still  
At my soul another time with your nasty lies
You made in the night
There’s nothing to say
So get away I will no longer let you shame  
My name and give me all your blames  
I want to live my own life so give it back
When it was once too hard for me to say No  
I when to say yes for all my dreams to come true
Without you living my life for me  
Move on and set me free
It’s too easy to fall back in the trap they all set out  
For me to fall in , back into old way  
Who are you to tell me what to do
I am the one that made you look good
Move on I'm already out the door
I have to remind myself all the reasons  
For letting go and moving on I
In my weaker moments I cry out to my God
I keep knocking on his door
I can’t keep myself  ''LOOKING'' back  of
All the pain everyone I trusted given me
Looking back, hoping to find something good
I may had left behind all I found was hopeless
Emptiness and so much pain
Dying out in the cold rain
I'm still holding on to me and my own name  
I don’t know why everyone had done this  
To me but no more the door is closed behind me
I set my life on happiness .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)

To My Haters

People look at me and laugh,  
They walk around like clowns wishing they  
Had what it takes to walk my way ,
What a shame to still someone else name ,
They go around and say bad things and
Get others to believe something that isn't true  
About me how crazy but I will never let you  
Bring me down don't you see you could never  
Be me God made me the way I look and that  
Will never change my DNA ,
They make fun of my every move,  
But then I must say look in the mirror and what  
Do you see is darkness in your life ,
Not to pretty is it ?
What I want to know is what is it about me that people hate,  
Could it be the fact that I have nothing to prove,  
People are just ignorant for no apparent reason,  
I love me that is just the way it is ,
They talk about me every season for whatever reason ,
If they see a hot man look my way thing can get nasty
That will tell him bad things about me for him to look  
Some were else as long as it was not at me ,
What for, I don't know, this war has been going on to long ,
I don't really care, and my attitude shows it,  
People are going to talk if I like it are not ,
But, that's okay because I know how to walk,
And how to be myself ,  
They are wasting their time talking about me,
I'm using my time to walk away so free in summers breeze
On easy with my happiness I am me ,
I don't have time to play little childish games,  
My life is so real I don't need to play the loser games ,
At least I can I say I'm happy in my skin God gave me ,  
But I want to say thank you for taking your time out for me  
Because it means I'm doing something right I'm always on  
Your hateful minds ,
I feel life is going just fine :)
I really don't like to fight I love me you must see :)
People are only looking at me because they wish they was me ,
They spend hours looking on the outside of me,  
Wow they would hate me, even more if they see my big heart
Of what makes me ,  
The part of me they should talk about is what's in the inside ,
How God loves me and gives me peace even in the life I live  
Of hat and shame of child play ,
They also look at the downfalls of themselves ,  
I know that must really hurt but don't give me your dirt ,
Sometimes, I just have to tell them,  
There's no shame in my game ,  
I have a lot of love for  myself and I don't want to take time out
To put your nasty ways in my heart ,
So, people can take their opinions about me and stack them on a shelf,  
And take the book down and write down what you have learn ,
For those who look at me and make fun of me,
I know I'm all in the game of being me ,
I just have to ask you something,  
Are you really looking at me are your nasty self ,
For those who are laughing at me,
I bet you cry in your sleep
wishing you was never that mean ,
I want to tell ask you something,  
Is it really me you're laughing at,  
This is a poem for my 'Haters'
to think about not me but at themselves
Love to all my haters. :)

Poetic Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

SLAMMING DOORS

Deception is a part of life
that you want to leave behind
Betrayal is its friend of the night
that you want to take
Off your mind and let it run in
summers breeze so free
Without it just being a dream
If you watch closely to your pains
You will only find many doors you left open
And your will never be free
The people that gave so much pain's in your life
They’re not different in the end
So let them go
Let go of the pain and let
the rain come down
Slam that door as hard
as you can and move on in life
You cannot have both so just let go
I know love is bliss
Sadly I will never have a part of this
Just another dream that faded away just as fast
Lost in the moment of one lasting kiss
Something my poor heart miss
Oh this hurts so bad
My heart is taken the beatings
that it should never had
Glad some things are gone
washed away in the rain
But there is still some pains that remain
Slamming doors that yet have not came
You are like a song that I will not miss
But when the rain comes
I will cry out slamming doors
I need your love today
But then I don't need
no more pains from you and all
Those sad lies you tell
I need you now, before you go away
Trying to hold on, I know the cause is lost
Does this mean nothing?
I promised you, my heart
was crossed in the rain of your pains
I've  kept all my  promises to you
Can you say the same?
We're losing touch what is true love
You're driving me insane
I cannot keep playing your games
Are you so heartless to say you still love me
When I saw you with you know who
You must have me confused
My heart was open, the key was yours
But now all I'm doing is slamming the doors
Walking out of this darken life of your lies
Slamming all the doors.
I hate these childish games
Let the rain pour because
I'm slamming this door .

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)