You left me, with no notice no warning, in an instant you were gone and now I have no home.
You were the one that could, at least for a moment, make me forget all the interference and now I'm all alone.
How selfish am I to cry out for you to stay, to beg you not to leave me despite the agony you must feel .
I watched you softly release your last breath, as the life left your beautiful green eyes I kept thinking this can't be real.
You think you will feel like all the cliches, so much to say, so young, so much time ahead, but as for me I felt this hole.
This wretched space within began growing, consuming everything ; my heart, my passion until it finally reached my soul.
You taught me to be strong, you showed me that I can endure anything but my heart aches with despair and inside I feel empty and forlorn.
The nights mesh into the days but I keep pretending I'm ok, I will be strong, between my sad reality and my false bravado for the moment I am torn.
I love u Momma now and forever.