My lover never spied on me
Because my lover never cared
My lover never loved me fully
But my lover was always there

He filled some hole inside me
But only part the way
My lover was an excellent distraction
To keep my real fears at bay

My lover is a kind soul,
A man with good for miles
My lover never knew me though
He only saw the smiles

My lover lives without me
And for that my heart is low
I didn’t really want him to stay
But I didn’t want him to go

So from this fact I see one thing
A thing I’d rather not be
I was simply a void to him
And he a void to me.

I loved you
because when you said, “let me make love to you”
you sounded like a drunk
pleading for one more drink
I loved you
because even after I confessed
my dustiest secrets
you still looked at me like I was
heaven’s missing angel
I loved you
because you thought
the scars on my thighs
formed the most beautiful constellations
and you wanted to map out each one
I loved you
because you loved me
more than I ever could

           I left you
           because you loved me
           more than I ever could