Dreams of you keep me awake
Surely my reality isn't a mistake
But in my slumber I can't make an escape
And I wonder how much I can take
When my nights and days seperate
Blending seamlessly as possibility and fate
I wish the madness would finally cease
Because my heart desperately needs release

A bottomless pit
A fruitless wishing well
A black abyss
An insurmountable hell
An empty vessel
A hole for a heart
I was too much to love
From the very start
Stark darkness
For a hope of light
All that is wrong
When I wish it was right
I give up on this endless fight
Loneliness surely is my plight
At last I say good night
My dreams will take me
Far away
And I will awake to a brighter day

I sat down with my pen and pad
Imagining the life I wish I could have had
Funny thing is the details were all the same
And a smile spread across my face
And you were to blame

Sometimes I think back to when I was young, I remember how expansive the world was,  how everything was enchanted,  how new days were filled with boundless possibilities. Now,  I know that the world is a place for me to explore,  it is truly magical,  and each day I am creating endless realities.  My spirit shall stay youthful, innocent,  curious, and gracious.

Oh hallow the heavens divine
May my intentions begin to align
To give in and live in realities design
May my fears resign to the origins from which they came
may I be redeemed from the shame
That once followed my spoken name
May I be awoke in grace
And have pride and love for the reflection of my face
May the place where indifference once inhabited be desserted and filled with all that I have taken for granted
I want to be enchanted with the presents that opportunity presence
No sense in waiting for false pretense
No resentment no pain
Just the world which is mine to gain

Cicadas softly sing their lullabye
The breeze begins to dance with the trees
A train whistle howls into the night
As stars begin to appear in the soft twilight
An engine roars far away revving closer
As a dog calls out for attention
My presence is quiet and calm
I feel chills brush over my body
Then an aphid lands on my arm
I allow it to linger
I am happy

Someday you will be loved
The way you have always known how
But you have to love yourself for now