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Pensai Sep 2018

I’m in Love and regret
It’s a new retrospect
So much sorrow and gloom
As life lessons they bloom
In Love when upset
You forgive and forget
While regret makes no sense
You just cry in contempt
My soul it bleeds sadness
while pain heals the wound
The nightmares of death
Came to play all to soon
The pain that I felt only you understand
A void that is gone was not part of my plan
I have yet to cease weeping
My heart grated to shreds
As the guilt cuts me up
Like Katanas in hand
I look in the mirror
with no one to blame
Not a spark in my pupil
My eyes filled with shame
Yah tells us no lies when you feel what I feel
A Love that’s worth fighting for
A Love that is Real.

Pensai...

Some people might find that strange.
But the truth of it is that the amount of love you feel for someone and the impact they have on you as a person, is in no way relative to the amount of time you have known them.
Ranata Suzuki

#love

Pensai Aug 2018

When the wind sweeps low

As time moves things pass
The turmoils of today grows constant
Light shines where dark thrives
I no longer feel relevant
A loud cry often overheard
Mistaken for a violent surge
I’m overheard never Understood
I’ve come face to face with my demons once again.
Stronger than ever.
Gnawing away at my soul. I can feel their teeth on my emotions.
Yet I refuse to fold.

Pensai Aug 2018

..

The sound is painful
Like nails on a green blackboard
The key of heartbreak...

Pensai Aug 2018

Love Me Hard

Love me hard, yet touch me soft
Grip me tight, and don’t get off
When mountains rise, and rivers clash
Land will slide, like rain on glass
Diamond thrive, where pressure rise
I see my future, in your eyes.

Love me hard, yet touch me soft
Our bond is mocked and often scoffed,
Public fears , are dreams come true
We both shed tears. As our love grew
Our battles won, are worth the telling
A Timeless tale, a happy ending..

Love me Hard, Yet touch me soft,
Penthouse Dreams, amid a loft
He knows our hearts, we cannot lie
We’re proud of love, but yet so shy
Love me Hard, yet touch me soft,
Love me hard, yet touch me soft.

“Pensai”

The greatest gift on Earth besides the gift of Life. Is the gift of Love.
Dedicated to the Love of My Life.
❤️

Pensai Aug 2018

...❤️...

My love been on fire. And nothings been well
But for you I’d cross oceans of fire in hell
Regret runs so deep, thank God I’m not dying.
it gives me good reason to just keep on trying
I prayed and I prayed and lost faith in a way
But Yah shows me different, we still talk today
And I’m talking bout us Love and no other two
I’ve been shot by an arrow from Cupid from you
As life streams down my pride and my body it shivers,
I have mountains of love with respect in the rivers
I just want you to know when u thinking of me
That I’m thinking of you, thinking different of me.

“Pensai”

To define Love is to define Life

Pensai Aug 2018

A Beachy Mood

I can taste the salt on my lips
Oxygen is pure
Vegetation is rich
The sound of the shore is a soft as a kiss
The timbre of nature in harmony and bliss
Breeze blowing calm
Gorgeous shells in my palm
And the sand is a void that you can’t miss at all
At Morning the light is so subtle yet bright
Before noon there’s no gloom, much more vivid my sight
Some hours go by while the Sun leaves the sky
So the stars come alive in the brightest of nights
I can taste the salt on my lips...

“Pensai”

Pensai Jul 2018

Lightfall

A loud cry with quiet eyes does no justice for the soul in need.
Evil cancers the spirit of the weak
Demons in defeat combat with the might of ten thousand men.
Our victory is within the hour.
“Pensai”

This poem describes in vivid detail my battle with depression and suicide but firmly reassures you I won the battle. And for anyone who can understand that place.
It’s always darkest before dawn. You will prevail

— The End —