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PEARL SMOKE Mar 2018
The last candle got blown.
Our “Always & forever”
Burned into ashes.
Blew away
There is Nomore forever lasting.
I’m saddened.
I’ve known for years
This relationship wasn’t going to ever function.
All it did was break me more.
Many tears are falling.
I am hopeless romantic.
PEARL SMOKE Mar 2018
Minds spinning
Mouth can’t say nothing.
Heads flooded
I can’t type anything .
PEARL SMOKE Mar 2018
This is the year.
That will determine my fate.
Either I get it together
Or
Await a death date.
It’s been too long.
To still debate
Strive for heaven
Or
Hells gates.
No more chances .
Acceptions or excuses.
I know all consecuences
PEARL SMOKE Feb 2018
Im not scared
Anymore .
I don’t know what to feel
Anymore.
I think I’m worried,
I just don’t feel it
Anymore.
My thoughts try to
Tell me something’s wrong.
I Can’t think of anything..
I’m unsure If I’m ok.
I don’t know if I’m
Even thinking straight.
I remember once feeling
So afraid.
I had to seek help on my own .
For the sake of my sanity.
My heart felt a heavy
Storm coming.
It rushed me to look out
Find shelter .
With strong material .
I started moving .
But did I act fast enough ?
Did I act before or after
Time had already passed..
PEARL SMOKE Feb 2018
Do You have love
For me ?
They’ve never Really put it
On for me .

I Don’t think they really know
About the pain it brings
Methamphetamine
& how it makes me feel gone.
Momma my bad
I haven’t picked up my phone.
I’ve been on one.
There’s a love & it’s rough
But I’m dedicated.
& The Drugs Real rough
I don’t know if il ever make it .
PEARL SMOKE Feb 2018
I’m so sad
Why was I cursed .
Why do things go wrong .
I don’t deserve any unfairness.
I’m good to people,
I’m respectful , kind , Caring .
I listen to everyone .
To everything & Help others.
I’m so sad.
Why was I cursed.
Why did Bad things happen .
To my innocent soul .
I did not deserve, Any of this .
I’m so sad.
As A Kid , To a teen & now as an adult I suffer from Feeling useless.
Why ? What’s made me feel like I have no worth. ?
A lot , A lot of reasons Just know.
My depression is not progressing
I’m in such distress.
No mood to right Nomore .
I repeat my problems in different words.
Il say it once more , my issues.
Last time il repeat what’s wrong with me  .. poetry is slowly fading
So listen closely . As I can fade too
PEARL SMOKE Feb 2018
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He’ll meet Somebody.
Fresh start, new girl .
Their pasts will be hidden .
Which will make There relationship super great.
No fighting , No Insecurities .
Better body , nice **** .
Better *** , Experienced .
Most likely she’ll have his same interest.
But hey ? Why do I keep thinking of his new future when I leave him
I can meet the exact same
Some one who listens
Encourage,repecful , loyal
He’ll find better but il
Finally meet someone whom I can Act and feel everything I couldn’t with the ex .
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