She was a solstice Something to be waited upon Change in such a way That made the day seem night And when she spoke Only the Angels Could hear her voice.
Perfectly painted into my sight She stood still And asked me to join her I had the time of my life And she vanished Only remnants of good morning kisses I wish I could have held her longer.
Pieces of love found throughout The ones I've held dear Memories meshed together As if It was all meant to be And thoughts come and go As if they were dreams, I can barely remember, But the feeling lasts forever And has sat with me today The longing for what cannot be told Doesn't seem to go away.
When you **** everything you touch Death doesn't seem too much Blind for life and in a rush Crushing my heart And others Don't get me started I'm smothered Who plays the part of my mother I chose to live for the numbers
Sitting slouched and waiting to be questioned Dying drenched and anxious Constantly hesitant and vanquished Trying so hard not to be abandoned As I've seen before.
I'm always reminded Like you're here beside me The songs I used to play And how it all felt It's too quiet I'm here, come find me The love we gave And how I wish it was now.
I felt my emotions piling over me Like blankets of water Where the cold held close With an illusion of warmth So linear that the vibrations stopped, The dreariness felt like home.
The day finished as it begun A somber feeling, no sun, just grey clouds Remaining so calm but hesitant With thoughts that weigh me down The ground doesn't seem low enough So I fall upward, finding solace in the opposites.
Hibernate till my soul awakes And wait for the wake That crawls under my skin Today and other days Fade away into a later date Always remaining here In this melancholic state, For eyes do not see mine When I hide in the shade I'll smirk when I see the subtle pain That surrounds me But my heart is shuddering And pounding.
Sometimes I feel like the days just fall Into each other without any elegance Sometimes I steal emotions from strangers who seem fit Sometimes I wish I was better.
Find me in dystopia Where the trees grow more beautiful Underneath And the shattered souls Are the air we breathe The ever changing And the thoughts We actually mean A plague so fruitful We can feast I'll be in the garden Ripping apart my limbs For I am free.
Salvaging the remnants Like I have nothing left to give A world worth noticing But at times It feels too hard to live A soft laugh Where eyes connect A bit If only there was enough For me to find In this.
What does it mean If I still worry, We've separated so much It's impossible to be us I fall apart just remembering The reasons I wonder where you are And I hope you Still smile.
In full view I see a stranger In my own eyes I've lived and I've tried I've loved and I've lost And the frost covered pictures Still make me smile Just enough To forget who I am Inside.
Do you ever really let go Of someone you once held As if when they left You felt a part Of yourself Close Building up walls So you won't feel exposed And ignoring how tall they've grown, A happy smile But beyond that Yields so much pain I collapse on the thought That this may never go away.
If i could find my soul I'd ask if it would grow And free me of this body That always finds misfortune Sometimes I wish I was alone More alone than you can imagine Sometimes I feel so much sadness That not even tears could ration Sometimes my thoughts are not passion But bleak ideals That take hold without asking Sometimes I wish it was only Sometimes But sometimes is forever passing.
I wonder way too much I'm distracted by the thought of us And what it used to be The blood that fell originally Now pooled With no echo of distrust Or hesitant desire We were all that we could be Until we weren't
Sometimes I think Could the sun be too bright Or could this all be a fault in my mind Just gravitating towards the light That I've designed To heal But maybe it's not real Could my mind tell such lies? Or have I just disguised My sadness.
Why do I feel When I'm so lost My thoughts Are what makes me want To give up If I only held my tongue Maybe all my wrongs Would be right But the serpent inside me Doesn't trust Anyone.
How do I learn from the darkness That never unvailes How do I raise my head When Im already a shadow How do I pick up the pieces Hanging from the gallows The mind stands still And the water is Forever too shallow To dive.
When my heart beats different Is when I fear the world never listened Sometimes it's not enough to accept That there will always be something missing Sometimes I wonder If I loved you for a reason And if you ever feel the same.
I think of her dying I don't see myself surviving The strongest soul is not of a lion's It's the one that is tired From loving others It's not fair but it's what's on our horizon Have you seen the sun? I haven't opened my eyes in a while...