Genius alternate existence
Requires immediate supervision
Between the farthest steps to heaven.
And the stupid truth I live in
Roots of trees in youth and
As humans live in death is
Often soothing
A room that opens into bloom.
The moon sings tunes
Mindless dudes think through
And the def tune into listen
The sun shines
Fun rhymes. Dumb guys
Fool away and shoot to **** in
But one rhyme
One time.
Can get one blind dude to see you
Love him more than all existence

What did you think recipe is
Eminem manifest destiny is
I should quit pathetic
I get it.
Like a ***** flick.
******* before
Actors practicing  exiting
Amityville. Damnd if he will.
Say yes to the dress again
Hand at the wheel
Transgender
Extraterestrial
Disecting pedestrians
Like genesis
Not scripture.
Talking the saga.
Rather the myth the legendary legolas.
The ring is a curse
Dwarfed when its
next to this
Fear of rejection
Of an obsession
sick. As dimensia medicine
For  Vietnam veterans
Dimensional benefits.
Like **** size in a tetris fit.
Its minus 77 red ink
Red face imbellishment
Period like a 7.7 point deficite.
You faking. Your pregnant
You got a point
But the ketchup smears selling it
Think in heinz sight ill
Invest in it

Interest percentage
Lending attention
To your
******
Mentorship
The way you handle
Your staff.
Like a 7.7 point deficite
Is inches in industry.
And your **** just invented it.
X y factor equation
Next gen tech there developing
Exposes. Plot holes.
Oh no science returns
To relish this ****
Like *** with ketchup
Mayo take your ***
Away I dont beef so lettuce
Be friends again

Flirting with ***
And eminems ****** instruments.
You know you sound
Oblivious.
And frivolous. To all the men
You had casual *** and ****
Like you didn't know
They all had *****
When they hit that ****.
Okay thats actually rediculous


***** who you pretending with
Cut with the sob stories.
Difference in indifference
Is pretending you different
Heed Goliath for what he is
And aim at deliverance
No affidavids
Daily diligence
Or brain games
At millennial
intelligence.
Pass as female satire.
Or be fire and flame
As hot as turbo chrmical accelerant
Wreck it Ralph
And Hectors ******
Hetero deceptive
Secretive intelligence
I got a
Masculine past
Relax your a mannequin
Still **** and
My fashion staying relevant
Your ******* it up.
Cha just kidding  bro your cellibut
Switch up with the rhyme scheme
Though
Like a flow from
The west side of heavens bed


Frame persuasive arguments
Like a painting from karmin
Or my dead aunty Margaret
Clothes and
Garments
Marked for bargain basement
Retail prices noone can argue with

Fashion on bark. Talking dog park
Evaluation. **** yeah bag it *****  and walk with it
If you got **** from
My corner store. I got a deal we can spark it quick
Like a moth drawn to a lamp
Or a cigarette **** to the carpet
I'm probably the
Dissatisfied customer.
Returning my product for bargain chip.
Its not defective. Just not selected
By the demographic we marketed
We targeted an audience.
And relentlessly marketed
But the target market.
Wasn't smart enough
To scarf it in.
I guess there not starved.
Like your *******
Heart for him.
******* martyr sin
I just bought my own *******
**** I marketed

For the record
This whole things dumb and ******
Marshall Mathers *****.
And ketchups never good on subs
My fashion isn't relevant.
Mann again.
With plastic mannequins
Chemical  imbalances
Of us

The ring is actually a curse
And tetris never fits.
Its a two dimension  curse.
Goliath was a *****
David put him to the dirt.
And the deficite. Would be less
If you put the period first.
Whats the point. I'm dotting
Eyes. Crossdress tease em with the verse.
*** the beat is never thumping
Less theres living
People in the hurst

Boi don't give up on me.
I'm never going to let you do that.
Came to far.
Shared every part
Of someday. In forevers.
rumour mill or group chat
but our past selves ******* knew that.
Wed meet and marry and
Be resilient brilliant strong.
And live old enough to prove that

Now your giving up dont ******* do that...
I make you mad.
Family discussion
Leaps from you and mom to me and you dad
What ever happened. To the glue attaching all my love just me and you had
You came to far to give up on yourself
Your not going back so  fricking ***** that
I'll push you through the wreckage in your path. *** I love you your my true dad....

Son I knew that
But

Who had. A better knowledge base of pain. And terror
Before I lash my tongue at your mom. I pause and feel my anger. Terrible...
It feels unbearable...
At times I scream. So ******* loud.
It isn't fair. I dont wanna scare her
Well you please pass and share
How can i
Your life
Is constantly in comparison...

The question ******* tortured me..
My early life was an embarassment
Now you have me prepared..
To let go of my tormented self distorted vision
  Prepared
To leap full forward
Into nowhere and you'll catch me...
*** your going to be devoted and totally supportive of my problems.
No matter thin or thick skin...

Yep... I'm here for more than just passion
*** it sometimes comes with madness

Yep I am...
******* babe. You don't answer a rhetorical question.. i didn't wanna know the answer....

Remember when you said
Stick a needle in my eye. Right now..
*** this ***** sees how you would
Leave me
when I share my ghosts
Your going to leave me bleeding
An open heart still inside me beating
Under scalpel.
Incision made. Right when I'm helpless. You up and leave me

I know I love you baby...
This isn't really me the real me
I got issues you ******* know this
Promise your not going to
Let go of me...
Babe I won't let go believe me
I know you've sacrificed.
And right now both of you need me

I may be less hopeful for tomorrow.
But its not tomorrows hopelessness.
That shoulders all my sorrow
Its a prospect. Of something working properly.
And it not needing me or wanting me.
I was always a product of dysfunction.
It hardwired  me so improperly...
I dont like to admit it...
But im a love sick kid. With platinum
Albums and discography...
A drug addiction. Daddy mommy issues.

Abuse neglect.
And ****** ******* trying to marry me....  
The scary thing.
Is neither of us were good enough...
No matter who we were comparing see

I know babe I got issues. I was born a ******* man. And thought I was a serial killer. How embarrassing



Well
Mine was how unscared I was Of whats inside. And how dare you believe
Love me completely. Be there and ******* care for me
The little voice
In the mirror. Saying Nobody ******* cares for me
Don't believe it for a second.
Your the greatest. In my heart.
What don't you get about.
I love this man so much
Enough to marry me
Thats the scary thing
**** it...
Run a mile inside my head...

Babe I love you but your scaring me...
No i love you more than life...
Thats the ******* scary thing....

Copasetic voice talent. Swayze as a lemon drop...
Tangy ***** you taste like every  thought
That made my  taste buds rot...

Chasing supervillains...
In a
Crazy plot
facing down my demons...
Pursue em. Tag em label them...decease em...
To a Playlist that I play alot.

Ifs me your seeing.
Praise God Jesus. And heavenly beings
Amen and thank you god
Count to 15 open up my eyes and made sure Im still breathing...
Giving thanks to god
I think I'm heaven sent at times
But plagued with evil danger
Tryna break the odds
Human being with mutant dreams
I pray for reasons to believe
The truth inside of me creeping smoldering and bleeding. Like the under currents of a river keeps you... wrapped in pressure as you screaming till your heart skips a beat or two...
I need jesus
I let my secrets slowly speak.
and crack the ceiling make it see through ..  
and seek a listener who makes me speak truth.
Because it hurts to much to keep em locked up when I don't need too

please i need compassion and devotion. Need you boo
While I unravel in a backwards motion
Feeling your loss. Your absence.
And your memory is teasing
I wish it was the real you...

The truth is freedom isn't cheap. Some get nervous.
But truth has gotta see  the living breathing surface.
Can't hide away your every flaw pretending that your perfect. Thats just needless
Expectations a false pretense.
Devoid of learning courage
You avoid the ugly truth...
hiding it the lies get more determined
****** is a messy thing.
And suicide is never truly worth it...
You struggled. Juggled jobs. Just to run and tuck tail and get discouraged...??
**** that burn it. Till you learn.
That you deserve it.
Your always gonna think your worthless

If your struggling right now i bet  you just ******* heard this
You say clean up. I say its ******.. riley says go get detergent....
This is a fight against the God in you and satan and its ******.

Trying to present my self as intellectual.
Makes me look like im pathetic.
I flow like water in the ocean.
Get it going like diaretic.
Spider senses start to tingle.
For the web site Christian mingle. Where I met a guy named
Shannon  bingle. Man actually had me shingle
Married to the roofing life.
Like Taylor Mackinney to her kraft singles.
Cheesy as they come. Logan gablehouse.  Is greasy.
The world is
thirsty for the fast deal
Sign like handcock on the contract.
Pro ball scholarship
But give handjobs in the back field.
Tyson smokes so much Marijuana
He knows how being black feels
When interrogated by the cops
Paranoia he doesn't act real.
My mom thinks she's European.
No native blood.
I asked her how does that feel.
She replied in French with Jordan gablehouse. Do you wanna taste your last meal...
J said you *******. Tell me how the grass feels.
And keegan just like forest Gump.
Hes dashing through the back marsh
To avoid the dudes with fast cars
Who blame him for doing bath salts...
Jack jack wanted aish so bad.
He collapsed in madness with me **** it yesh man thats real. And sad
Drugs I'm so disgusted by. I'm bring serious to say this jack. Man
You gotta say your peace. To the fake back stabbers and not take it ******* back
Get clean and sober. Stay on track
With medication.
And watch how much fakeness your closest friends shape shift and react
Funny stuff aside.
Manas really great with that.
She took two dumb ******* crazy rats.
Caged in habitat. And made them slay a crazy rap....than slaughtered them for science. Donated their *******. To science. Experiment gone violent.
She's not ok with that.
Karmin is an angel.
Thinks she names all that.
Inside her head. A secret undercover braniac.
And Riley is an amazing man.
Talented and brave as stan
But I didn't tell you.
Stan is my fan name.
When I'm ****** mister nameless slim shadey type of ****. To some gangster jams....
Grandma Gisele is a thank you mam
Do you actually spank the ham
Like Christmas web cam. Food. ****.
Christmas day. You can thank my hand....
Richard gablehouse. Was pregnant with a chicken glaze.
He undressed food so many different ways
Little booties on the Christmas bird.
Bout to expose those little legs...
Oh its just humor ***** slip off the case.
I love my dad yo pieces.
There's a reason I'm a little raged.
No one seen the terrifying look
He harbored just for me.
When I didn't obey....
We got over all that.
Cleared that **** away
We had to make up. Every 15 seconds
New fight but its a different day
I feel bad. But hey its meant this way...
Alex Fanta was in debt to native medicine that made him good and gay...
His wood is great... i hear Scott hedge brag. You thought I didn't love you guys cmon. Don't be dumb AND gay
I woulda say.
She should stayed.
But cherry your a woman stain.
You look like hulk had a vasectomy and you got the ******* stuff that hangs...
Just kidding love you babe. I'm just trying to be funny.
Scare you
Cherry you ******* dummy.
I'll always provide for you with money.
But you gotta be so ******* stun. You refuse me rights. To my kids who absolutely love me.
I said ill always take care of you.
But your going to have to stop being a dummy....
Derek Moore you mega *******.
Your nieces self  esteem is ripped. And all your other kiddies jeans. *** you had to be inside  it you ******* *******...... go eat a demons ****.. id rather be a traffic cone in **** t least you'd see my **** than be your only reason why you didn't commit suicide when God agreed with it..  at least coulda did it for the ones you loved. I know thats fuckinv mean and **** but next time you **** with me jm going to have you seeing ****...
Cherry entire family. Hold up freeze it quick. While we're out and telling secrets quick.
I ****** Ashley's boyfridnds ***** yep. At least before you two met.
I did alot of foolish ****.....
Corsette and lingerie. And of course his *** stain ruined it...
Just kidding couldnt get him off. Or even fit it in. No room and ****.
He got the hugest ****.... don't know how you don't get split in two and ****... ******* ruined *****
Or at least get **** sized bruises on your ***** and hips.
Whatever not 100 percent certain but I hope if it is true you say your cool with it.....
Dylan Hutchison I love you but you never grew up actually knowing me.
You kids **** on your dad. I know it hurt you but it had broken me...
I get it he was drunk and druggy.
But he loved you two so devotely.
Just wish you had some time.
While he was living to start showing me. You were open to him emotionally
I get it. You were busy.  Coulda sent him via email. artwork dreams and poetry... so he knows how much you truly love him.
Beneath the disconnection. Tell him how bad a place your feeling come from...
Moving on. Forget deceased.
There's still a bunch of dumb *****.
Reese swampy drop your pants punchline like 8 mile at the lunch truck...
Lyssa let's get frisky. While your cats lick my nuts like going down after 60 rounds suffering they ******* punch drunk....

Sha you **** ***** I still got a **** lets make it happen...
Prefer dudes. But who's to say a little **** show couldn't happen.
We actually had a ******* with hot muscled Travis.
We got his **** in me my **** in you
And did a little jordan sandwich...
Sheldon chartrand I masturbated thinking of you ******* me ******* it....
You could slam the pack of shingles fast. So **** black and tanned yep...
Thought about your fast hands so hot like a math lab with the Cranstons...
Exploding for Chris Roan.. who?? Chris roan... a sickness no different from cancer... i felt so much love for you. But had no ******* hope or answers... you didn't know I was this way inside. Just the way God had to plan it.... you coulda made me feel included though with out you I couldn't understand it.....theres was just this separation. Anxiety. And sadness...renuka your my favorite. Of all my mental workers...
I came to you a creep hell bent on ******. And you repurposed my inside sanity. Restoring me to perfect...
Cleared my name to child service workers..
And did me such a service...
Ryan too and garry. At least you guys live through your purpose...
Helping hand and gentle hands.
Reach every different person..
Liseanne your ******* gorgeous.
Picture perfect
**** enormous... but you set me up for stis in your quest to send off young Brianna... i got chaffing in my ****.
*** you hooked her up with more dudes. Than rihanna...
In the back of your mini van or suv can't stand it but the infection had been managed...
Sorry rihanna... I love uou your thr best so beautiful can hardly stand it
I'm rambling oh yeah let me be candid. About Travis. Matron was his last name. And he smoked crack so ******* savage.. child psychologist slash roofer. I actually believed you in a panic... don't know who's stupider. The dude who won the poker game for hoarding the titanic or the dude that.
Lost his pride and got his poker *** kicked...
Jade my truest form of poetry in nervous flight.
My girl of mine.
My nervous rhymes.
Could not muster up at courage time..
Your my first love.
For a reason the best is always first in line..
But I ****** and hurt your mind...
With my words and worthless spine..
You deserve so much in life.
I hope you know I think your worth our time...
Like a child is bursting with a nursery rhyme...
Okay its ******* ****** time...
Steven Irvine your a word so
***** it perturbs my mind.
Disturbed that I. Would like you to have courage. And turn your rap gift into words that rhyme and.
******* merk the earth this time...
Tyler moose you ***** line.
Sniffed off jet lis little ****...
You **** more ***** than Jason Bixby.
Holy **** he takes alot...
Its cool though. Say im sorry...
My motto is keep on trucking...
So much more ok so **** it..
I'll keep rambling on bout nothing....
Kayla gambler think we made a babie.. but you didn't tell me...
I hope whoever she belongs to that she's happy safe and healthy...
Nolan Robb I'm sorry for saying you ****** **** for crack. At the time my thought was that was wack. Until I sunk as low as that... current day just ****** an old guy for a sack of Molly and an open pack.... Daryl Marshall your a good dude... but your ****** up deep inside.. i can see it in your eyes... your scared of being wrong and aldo being right... you fear failure fear success. And you fly off the ******* handle... ive seen my dad get mad but jees loiuise he couldn't hold a candle...
You make Rambo look like prolapse ****** sagging in the sun...
Old ******* on your rage is much more destructive than a gun....
Jordan Marshall your a *** stain that should sat on Michelle's tongue....
Swallowed did a good job. Just ******* kidding bud.... your pretty ******* funny. And also pretty dumb ..
But at least your not like Tyler marsh shoving fisher price toys in his ***....
Oh please I got uou all beat and then some the world knows my story...
Would you call it boring... **** no.
But I no longer want the sea being stormy. I just wanna find one man after surgery get ***** and tilt his single axis planet into orbital retraction. Supernova. Every morning. ****** sweaty pores. From ***** inter planetary pornscenes.. but first I gotta morph. Into a woman so I feel more like my self inside. Its more rewarding..
To not ignore your thoughts. To have some wants. Take off early system warnings. Relax. And dream of rap gods. Jesus. And the last 15 years of poor me...



...

Grotesque awareness of a deeper sadness.
Emotions wrapped in freezer plastic.
Burned so deep my deep tissue
Meat. Is completely eaten.
By a disease.
They call the demons madness...

I pray I sleep. I dont lose Jesus.
And he saves me from.
My weakness in my deep disastisfaction

I run in circles.
Taking shape electing nerves to volunteer for damage

In freestyle pattern
Blood and broken bones.
Injury with freezing feet detachment

Rcmp detachment
Though I'm freaky bad *****
Jesus sees i matter.
completely reaching into my
Entire being.
Till I've excreted all the demons.
My entire  ***** matter...

This flow is patented.
Like easy flow toilets.
Or a period pamper
I'm the ****.
Don't ****** say it
You can smell it when I wipe your *** and appear. To wreak of laughter

Your direction like a detective
With a single bias.
Waving all your way. God might just save me
Crazy ***** you think its modern science...
My diet is chicken breast
Bacon grits.
Vision longterm science
My *******
Have enlarged six sizes

Naturally occurring hormones.
From this problem reliance
Monster kindness
You think genius comes in
Shades of grey.
For gay dudes. Straight chjcks and
The common minded
Try being more accepting
You ******* ****.
Racist *****.
Trump you obnoxious tyrant.
You started selling bleach ingestion
As disease prevention
And the public wants it.
Hope you like your women squeeling.
You ******* pig.
*** we won't march in silence
Blacks. Immigrants. Lgbtq. And the common minded.
Rising up like Phoenix from a firey grave.
Display. More common findings.
Than a tie die shirt. Goes with a hippy.
And coffee. Goes with last nights ******* ***** diet
Sweeten the ***. Smooth as cream.
A dream the next guy offers.
And we all stop and buy it
Politicians will  never come through as
Honest.
Lets just not pretend.
So we all know we've exited the closet.

Disfigured type of senses.
I figure God has got it
I think I got it
My body needs freaking audit.
My nasal blockage
Caused by...
Little rocks.
That get you feeling awesome...
I hate the monster
I keep in the closet.
I feed it ****. And pure *******.
So it'll will clean the carpet...

But deep inside
I dream of fleeing.
For the Belizean tropics.
Green trees.
Cool water.
And freedom.
From keeping secrets.
In the deep dishonest

My past is scattered ashes
And I find tragic truth.
Do you have a clue
What does it matter dude.

I rose when in defeat.
I smoke and go to sleep.
My beauty hides inside.
No peep
I know the oceans deep.
Emotions running over
*** nobody noticed me.
Tormenting over me.
Hurricane enormity.
Making tears form into poetry.
I know I got this blessing
Step into the devils head
And learn your ******* lesson...



Chorus....
When this lullaby hits you.
Touch goodbye baby girl because I miss you.
Had to fix few.... Things.
*** there's issues with my mood ring
Dads becoming mommy.
Quite alarming.
But inside its not a new thing.
Noone truly knew me
Gotta keep on moving.
Baby daddys gone.
But mommy is the new me.....


My parents loved me always
Though not a perfect home.
Drugs. Self medicate.
And chaos.
Some ******* major holes.
Started smoking cigarettes
Just after 8 years old.
My body was an alien
It made me gag and choke.
Selling dope
At twelve years old.
Crazy way to cope.
We always stayed afloat.
Adulthood brought bags of coke.
The pain I crave the most.
At the same time.... hate addiction.
Came out as transgender.
To my kids st Christmas.
As God my only witness.
Never felt that full dimish.
Couldn't fix a single sentence.
My ex clipped out family visits.
The grinch just cancelled Christmas.
*** my gender switch.
The ***** can eat a bag of *****.
I'm ******* sick of this ****....


Chorus...
Baby when the lullaby hits you.
Touch goodbye baby girl *** I miss you.
Had to fix few... things
Issues with my mood ring....
Your dads becoming mommy
Quite alarming
But inside its not a new thing.
You gotta keep on moving.
Some times
You gotta find yourself.
But first you have to lose things.
Daddy may be dead.
But mommy is the new me....

Sadness sometimes over runs me.
I find tradgedy in truth.
My past is scattered ashes.
Do you have a clue
What does that matter dude.

I rose when in defeat.
I smoke and go to sleep..
My beauty hides.
So deep inside. I know the oceans deep..
Enormous like a storm above.
That torments the sea.

My parents loved me always.
No not a perfect home.
We had dysfunction chaos.
Drugs pain. Yes some of those.
I started smoking dope.
To cope at twelve years old.
My body was an alien.
Maybe that's what
Made me crazy made me gag and choke.

I have two little kids.
Yes I'm the proudest father.
But I came out as transgender.
Last December.
And had to tell my daughter.
Her dads becoming mommy.
I've went through nothing harder

I've been in psych asylum
So many times who's counting.
Upto 15. Times and I'm
Olanzapine. and ******.
When in a minor tantrum.
Self harm
Slit my arms so wide.
beyond this
size of bandage.
And time does damage.
My last relationship was based on *******.
Bi ****** havoc.
Guy guy girl sandwich.

At nine
Kissing tongue in throat
Playing truth or dare
*** if you didn't
All the cool girls
knew you were scared.

So many times I cried.
And wondered who was there.
An emotion to exclusive.
To be given up to you and shared.
So I kept pretending to like girls
Yeah its fine if it's in truth or dare.
All the while
Tightening around my throat.
And truly scared
Like a noose was there.

Moved away at 17.
Spent some time in Manitoba.
Got beat down so ******* hard
One night.
Thought I would end up in a coma.
Now im 30 years old.
And mostly hoping for a moment.
I can. Be open. To exposure.
Captivate your heart.
And calm the stormy ocean
That torments your emotions.

Ripping in an endless Cypher.
Night time Cryer.
Like the tears stain my genetic
Fiber
I pray to let it. Be collected
By a heaven higher.
Never tired.
Cleverness is endless
Have you met my direct
Connect supplier.
I rip pages from a gospel.
And set this place on fire.

Avoid crack *******.
Cooking its lethally destructive.
These aren't peanut butter
Cookies in this mother *******
Oven.
Jordan gablehouse.
Name stunted.
Just jordan I'm discussing
Cause the most famous
Go by one name
Like Shakira. J lo.
Britney and mclovin
But im writing such ******* dumb ****.
The assumption is.
My brain is on dysfunction.
*******.
No name bologna.
AND A bunch of bananas
In my lunch kit.
When I wake from this
Corruption.
Hope I realize the love I gave to someone was enough
To make me sacred and special.
Enough to love it

Counting every blessing.
Babe.. and go make some more
Crazy flow.
Clean and fresh
Like new born baby toes.
I fit in this game
Like a grown man.
Sporting  baby clothes.
Transgender.
Remember
Me
*** i don't pretend.
Like yellow belly actors taking gangsta roles.
I get into your face like a fist about to brake your nose.
Epitamy. Of friction. Heat and tension.
Make this major blow.
Like Jonny depp.
In real life before he made that show.
*******
In the 80s bro.
Is there naked dixks in gay *******.
Don't lie even straight guys know

Masked massacre.
Blue bandana savage.
Crippled by anxiety.
Society can't understand it.
Olanzapine.
Divalproex.
And half a tab of Xanax.
Hit so many native chicks.
*** i got a taste for
Moose meat tea and banook
Got a tear tattoo.
On my *******.
*** i killed my ****. Had enough
One day and stabbed it.
Savage.

Slowly in this roll.
The feature is the night life.
Teacher of the hype rhymes.
I speak like leaking
Popular diets on prime time
And call em pseudo science.
So that you run to me and buy mine.
Fine guy.
Celebrate destruction.
Disgusting flow like construction
Sewage pumps at lunchtime.
Greatest in the game
You get punch drunk
Coming with these punch lines

Thats how you feel.
Incarcerated
In an artist space

*** calm is great
But commas just punctuate
A tomach ache.
Period
My functions fluctuate.
Like oil prices
When Saudi floods
The markets
In a number race.
Consumption
Of an ugly fate.
And destruction at a stunning pace

Something In an endless sea
Of red.
I mean. The hungers fed.
The younger men
Don't know. Like toddlers.
Repeating something said.
To teachers.
Thinking its above their head.
I've been stumped again.
**** it man.
I'm becoming something
My mom  
Would Facebook click unfriend

Hungry for life
No throwing up stomach bile.
**** it let's run a mile.
Make it 8
Say my name
Sun child
Shady. Umbrella time

Rain
Sweat.
Pain... death. In the summer time
Way to step.
In the wake of a grave
Slept

Every breath
Every step.
Every single second spent in your head.
Like love.
Like death.
The more I spend. The more I get in message

I bless ya. Find me like heaven does.
In the entrance of.
The devils cut.

Find me living. Girl. Seconds minutes in your play ground.
Did I mention its best in forever
**** what you heard.
What you say now

My burden is a higher cause.
You cannot hide your loss.
Its written in the script
Of systematic oppression
Beneath the ****** clause
Separation of identities.
In a country. With.
Such determined flaws.
Slavery was abolished.
But society didn't learn at all.
*** certain groups.
Make fears turn into laws
And put a person behind prison bars
Incarcerate the spirit.
Spreading hate you don't deserve
At all.

Equality ain't secondary.
Courtroom secretary
Hope you heard it all.
I hope my words
Encourage you.
And your marches will
Be worth it all!!!
Won't stop till your respected
But remember nothings perfect
Yall.

Naji. I apologize. I haven't been the greatest.
*******. Delayed departures. And train of thought that never made it.
I hate *******.
I love the smell.
I'm a slave but you may never hear me say it.
I hope uou make it.
Your so sacred.
God gave me zero cravings for alcohol.
I stumble fall. And raise.
I hope you hear this all.
*** I'm not what I appear at all.

I need your light. My sweet surrender.
I remember where
My center was.
Had so much *** for pleasure.
But the men were
Self centered *****.
I make every love your mentor ***.
I sense your the best ever
Mentor that has ever come.
Your only filled with
Depth of love.
I'm in the clutches of a tethered grip.
Mental prison.
But my love for you is endless its
A hold that I won't ever slip.
I love you im just sorry
Your mother's
Such a selfish *****

Confessional.
Open up let's examine truth.
For two seconds.
I'd move heaven
And the planets. To have that with you
You don't have a clue.
But you actually do.
And thats where plans I've made
Might stand a chance
Of fruition... plants that actually bloom
And can come true.
While my innerchild retreats.
I see my dreams like Saturn's moon.
Revolving around a planet.
Based on all your talent
And the love I have for you....

Do you ever see a wishing star.
And imagine you already have it.
Can't be death without
Destiny.
If God played a hand in planning.
So I sift through sands
On the beach of madness.
With an hour glass in my right
And a map to becoming Stan fan
Number one with out the current traffic.
Get it... current traffic.
Slur my words.
Thank God I **** left handed.
*** its taking so long
My hour glass is like a fertile birth of sand pit.

As ****** up as my persona got.
I never lost my inner meaning
Being of a stolen freedom
Seeing demons.
In the depth of dark sky.
Breathing in a narc high.
Like why is thoughts with baby momma.
Equal upto dark eyes.
My family substance over wreckage.
I seen  in them as smart guys.
Sparse time.
To start rhymes about my hard time.

Stuck in this. Cascading fading starlight
Escaping from the vacant space.
Like super nova heart ache.
In a car length .
Arms length.
Measure from a heart break.
While I marginalize my scars babe.
So contrast. Just for charms sake.
Looks like a bomb next to a small flame.

For God's sake. Get my heart out of harms way.
Switch like finger stances on a keyboard.
Do you want to have me more.
I need more reassurance
With an urgent label.
It'll mean more.
Speed warp your real warmth.
Into my esteem source
*** I bleed more like rivers.
In the free North.
Free form. I'm a sleep more.
In the streets of floating
Consciousness.
Properties of skinner yeah I get to Seymour.
******* liberate my mental structure
Call it going free form

I have a viral psychological infection.
Diagnosis. Mostly detachment.
On emotional basis.
Frozen in space with a growing harassment.
Dope to cope situations
Blown gasket. Focused blast

Towards realities deception
*** voices attack the lobes. Controlling. Threat detection.
And death perception
Till I fear not he'll death or heaven but only losing position.
As a woman. In love with.
God. Eminem And
The thought that I'm pregnant
*** when my system talks my body properly listens.
Like systemic racism.
Gotta walk to win it.
Protest. Know yes.
That change is merely.
Beginning.
Of a friend evolving into dreams.
Being solved with all of every
Waking second.
God my best friend.
Jesus .
Amen
Walk with them
Amen amen amen.
Love you lord.
Even though I do wrong.
I'm full of flaws.
I truly am.
But my heart is true.

Living in a deadly sin.
With purpose set to self affliction.
But strange investment.
In your chest.
And every breath that's in it.
Your the best decision.
Like a bed made.
On deaths percession.
With
February getting scary.
Cemetery
Near the federal prison.


Life sentence.
Chained in passion. And love as wide as  space in this galaxy.
But let's wake and face reality.
Its a major break in sanity.
*** you hate me like you make.
Me angry.
And that maybe alot.
Like take your shot.
Or gutter ball. *** you strike me as hot.
Not street thot
**** what he thought.
I'm as sweet as. Diabetes.
Till he's deceased or at least
Getting teeth rot.
Ghetto beats.
Ain't for the poet
But im bleeding.
Heat from. My living breathing beat box.

Humbled by your strong back.
Long arms.
And your smiling face.
Eternity is all it takes.
For my love of you
To finally fade.

It won't die away.
Like magnets.
Opposites in action.
Gods  science great.
But its just a diet.
Of a chemist taste
Like bi ******
Head
We exchange
And give it many ways
The love pups.
To buy us seconds.
In a precious pregnant state.
Together forever
Stepping to heavens gates.
So don't step this way.
With petty hate.
You ******* square.
I'll round your fate
If judgement awaits.
*** I'm not curvy enough.
To be a femmy shape.
Wanna draw to conclusions
At least get it straight.
Or dot your pious eyes.
Period I'm not meant to wait.

Explicite course of Action.
Left to settle a debt with Debbie.
Machete. Mask.
And intervention.
Impossible
When it gets as heavy.
As a levy
Facing katrina ...
wet and yet to break!!!!!
No **** here.
I mean a.....
I'm ******* deadly straight!!!!
Crash test dummies.
Out the gate head is great
It ain't just a head fake.
Fast *******
Till my neck breaks.
You say ******* *******
decapitate my precious face
With shrapnel.
Traveling in good intention.
To set straight my crooked bangs
Crooked smile.
Battle size. Savage size
Crocodile. The jungles humbled by
a monster.
With blackest eyes
In a puddle half as wide.
As habitat
Required for predators
Half your size
to hunt and trap their type.
You have my life.

Just a little insanity.
Janet hold the judgement
while.
I manage to elaborate.
On such a touchy subject
So hot. You may prefer
oven mits to touch it.

I'm half of the corporations budget.
When I talk of fiscal losses.
**** it.
I'm distraught.
You caught me siphoning.
Corporate stocks to stuff my pockets..
To be honest
The loss I'm talking isn't stocks
Its more in bonds.
We used to share.
You cut your losses.
I found a bridge.
Jumped off it just because you dared

Living in a system bound for depression.
Its an empty sound.
Mental clouds.
Like metal mountains.
Lead pencil meadow.
Where the dead men drown.

Chronic thoughts that talk like laughing oceans.
The sky a vengeful father.
The dosage of a medicine.
Packaged bought and sold to slaughter.
Noses with a dusty coat.
An icy *****
And ***** tastes like water.
Life parameters
In sweet chalk
Enormous tolerance.
Shape shift from creations default.
And we want
a tempered
Reality. We sought.
We thought.
Like the running rivers of a wilderness.
We thought
Wed be tought.
A freedom . Need not.
Face ******* prison innocence.
Indifference. Ignorance.
*** we need peace talks.
With our free thoughts


Trade mark jordan gablehouse

Orientation was a confusing subject
In school
I refused to touch it
Gay was taboo.
And gender change unproven
But I knew I loved it.
My memory a cemetery.
Who's who of the dudes I'm *******.

In fantasy.
But Reality was a different tune.
Burned my arms
Abusing substances in middle school
******* leaving little clues.
So blurred a false persona
Like I killed a dude.
That ******* isn't true.
I lied for all my life.
I hope the truth doesn't get to you

Fight me like flames do.
Licking air against the great moon.
I shed peace.
Speak truth.
Tight like wearing a hang noose

If you speak out of passion.
And master the art.
You speak to the fashion
That shares who you are.
Not just fabric.
Or a garment you garner
You wear it impart
As a token
So nobody ******* tears you apart.

You have chances to conquer
And pride to remember.
Tender compassion with honor
Makes your garment so clever
It'll never be tattered
I'll love you forever

I know you love me so
Lets focus on the bigger scope.
I love Marshall the man.
His fam. So dope collaboration
With interscope.
Of course I want *******.
But innermost.
Anticipatiom
Waiting for awake and refreshment.
My aching body was pregnant
Said my body retracting.
Made mistakes.
But kept track.
Of my passion and the love
Every body gave back n.
Different distinction
From my inner voices of sadness.
Collapsible hammock
Bout as bad as invention.
Since the **** who made
Non recyclable plastic.

Who has bros.
Like the monopoly creator
I dont.
Constantly. In scrutiny.
Probably wager.
My closets
convict tailored.....
My life is chalked in failure.
As long as I don't talk of
Haters.  Gave it up

I'm in an episode of the Brady bunch.
But he
Go ham between my buns.
Just ******* making lunch
It's crazy stuff.
Head on lettuce
Its wet yep
crispy tasty crunch

Talk sick vocab.
Nomad with a rebel grip.
No man. Waves
At sailing ships.
Like water waves hi
To welcome it.
Deposit. Currency.
For emergency .
Or my **** runs a deficit
Whether.
Interest develops.
Like percentage on a bank loan.
Set a record pace
And rate intelligence based.
On sway flows.

Build the bank like the river does.
The **** constructed as tough as
A Columbian missile truck
Missile head seeking heat.
Hot when I get a sick to ****

Delusional. Rumors
Stalking the night moon.
Like who's in the white dress.
Black heart. And a white groom.
Mind like a mild flue.
Sick but not gonna die soon.
I'm fed up like a fat kid.
That just ate out of the drive through.
Sick of this ****.
Can't get well no matter how much I try to.
**** the rumours.
**** the night moon.
**** the tux.
This ***** say goodbye groom

Difficult times.
Like im running this treadmill.
Destination climb.
Wrong intentions.
But I write with a pencil.
Right brain mental.
Left with directions of devils.
Down with the rythym
But I left it up
To my head to
Develope  my level

I'm over the way I lie.
Deception is an icy debt.
I seem bent.
On life with your voice
Inside my head.
Its like I've bled.
And wept over things you've said
Kept untrue

A debt I've spent.
Tears never shed yet soon.
The bed your meant
To spend precious seconds.
After *** next to you
My ******* for you.
My neck and the rest
Invest in the clues
Is meant to detect.
Your every ****** move
In a fever of forever
Not yet but potentially soon

How much does this weapon cost
Of virtue lost.
To turn the law.
To hurt you dawg
Its ****** and the weapon.
Carries discrimination.
With a ****** clause.
But not every badge.
Is worthless dawg.
Like every white person.
Named kirk or Bob
Don't automatically
Have the perfect lawn.
Imperfect flaws
Like every curtain call.
has a certain song.
Worth turning on.
Its love in search results.
But some people don't search at all.

I'm sorry I was racist.
I'll promptly admit it.
Every one gets fed ****.
As young little children.

Perception is everything.
Surroundings are biased.
Equation spells racist.
Overcame it as giants
our generation
Made it. Celebrate triumph
As a break in the cycle.
And racial tolerance minded
The states is not trying.
For hate crimes and violence.
The racism must stop.
And vote mister Satan goodbye *****.
I'm sorry for saying some ****
In the face of the times that
Provoked hatred and violence
But I've been feeling the hate
From every ******* blaming the African race for the riot.

Love is not a foreign place.
Freedom isn't born of hate.
My mental prison.
A collab.
Of vocal torment.
At a morbid pace.
My force is great.
Like morphing
Isn't normal.
But your nothing normal
So my bones would say.
A portion.
Of a storm.
My vocal chords
Like strings that tore.
Away...
Nothing more to say.
I'm morphing
But it never comes
So the voices say
You'll be gorgeous babe

Equation on impossible.
Solving riddles in a little scheme.
To evolve like
Pillow clouds into little things you see
Like mental freedom.
In a different dream.
My existence. Is a different beast.
Its a wish you well.
Masterpiece the people are envisioning...
From disaster. Much persuading
Needed to create
An image worth remembering.
Not by hate you will dimish me.
But isolation is the only hate
That withers me
And can ever really finish me
I hope I live on and created
A vision the world
Was picturing

I'm always trying to write my best poem.
Best vocab
Best rhymes
Most heart.
**** it.
**** it

I want that **** like venom needs
A parasite
A healthy host to feed
My needs. Like trophies in storage
Since you ghosted me.
Dusty and more expensive
Then just a storage fee.

I'm enormously
Neurotic.
Talk sick
In case you haven't been watching me
I'm that mental projection
Distortion
Border nostradaumus prophecy
I cause clocks.
To turn back years.
In talks of. Sharing bonds.
And stocks in an economy run properly.
And cooperation
Of all social scopes
But the racists need labotomies.
Cooperation isn't just for some.
Its how me March
Into our prospering.
And foster healthy dialog.
Between the darkness
We've been harboring
And enlarging
Love to overwhelm
The hearts to rid us of
Everything disheartening

Resonance with in my soul
With waters of the swarming storm
Making waves upon
The morning shores.
I see so.
Maybe nothing more
Though I know not
What the language of.
Nature of a racist
All this hatred in your wagging tongue
A bleeding sore
Left needing more.
Like leaches draining blood. I say for some.
J blame trump.
It takes a ******* major ****
To say shady **** the ****** way he does.

Difference in molecular levels
Flames licking tongue.
Burning intelligent embers
At a respectable level
Till your flame meets
My accelerate pleasure
And it mixes together
A forever was.
That held together forever ***.
A measure of
The you inside.
That hides. And needs better love.
Like mailboxes need love letters
*** his entire
Genius was never ever clever enough.
To hide the terrible stuff.
He endeavoured
I'm pathetic as ****
With this confession of love.
But whatever the ****. Ev3r
Pretend you don't touch
My heart with your incredible love.


Forever remembered
In a sky that lights
With feathers of smoke.
Eyes like devils in a fiery center.
Who am I
Oh yeah I just remembered
The smoldering choke of
Hydrogen
Before the burning fire is dismembered.
And the tinder severed from
The head
Of a passionate ember.
*** once something
Gets hot.
You remember
It can't burn forever

To be the image of perfection
Immaculate conception
I was split. Between
The earth.
The devil and the heavens.
Jesus blessed and conquered death.
So we could have forgiveness.
The intent. Of every opposing view.
Is for accument of power.
Its your wishes.
Your ambition.
That you hunger to devour.
The devil wants his vanity.
God wishes we had sanity.
And Jesus just wants us to get along
A planetary  family.
Is that conceivable of happening?
Nations want assertion
Into dominance and wealth.
Selecting men who represent.
Them. But don't care about their health.
Kids just want acceptance.
Play and fun nothing else.
And narcissists just want perfection.
Intentions but only help themsrlves

Mental capacity. On full presentation.
I levitate. In a centered state.
With full meditation.

Created for greatness.
Shaped in stages of changes.
I place value on people.
Not the sum of their wages.
Place faith in creation.
And pray for safety from Satan.
Making days count.
Instead of counting days that I've wasted.
Examination. An autopsy.
Of my body of work.
Displays. Courage.
Strength and hope.
Under  all of the dirt.

I've created an image.
My decision. To present its beautiful
Virtue.
My head with
Intentions. To end it. Than mend it
But
First gotta hurt you.

May
Mercy immerse you.
In a surface breaking .
Surge creating.
Re emergence of passion

Mind is a weapon.
Word is a heavy sword.
Mental wards.
Trans gender morph
On intentions to get awards.
My head weaponized
Only Dismemberment
Re sets its course.
I'm heading for.
The entrance door.

Waiting for God.
Elapsed seconds. And fever thoughts.
Buying for time
car at a
Parking spot meter box......
These are thoughts.
That creep alot
Like bugs 6 feet deep
In a cedar box........
The plot you don't see alot.
My dad.
My family deaths.
You mean alot.
I really mean you mean alot.

I wanted to be famous.
Among a menagerie of other things.
I thought that my creative
Gifts. Would bless. But something
Truly Puzzles me.
It
Muzzles me. Befuddles me.
Its my own ******* fuckery.
I'm a diamond in the rough
But no one has discovered me.
So **** it.
Let's keep trucking.
Till I **** at what
I thought would bring me luxury