It's the weekend
My body, face, eyes
Are in a tired haze
I can feel that I need much rest
Much sleep
A lot of leisure.
I move things forward, I grow alongside
The roadside poppies
And the roses I painted a darker red
As a little girl
Fantasizing, always.
She wore red
Her phone baring a flame
It reminded me of the portrait
The portrait a dear friend painted
Where I'm holding fire
And I'm embracing it
Enjoying it.
I worry a lot about popularity
I feel concerned about people actually liking me
I feel tired and blissful
I feel afraid of what each moment might bring
I feel fear that I'm not exactly entirely
Where I'd like to be
All the time.
I opened my window today
My cat and I enjoy the warm hot
Summer breeze
I dreamed of nothing but
The past
Last night.
There are so many poems I could write
A deafening silence
Was all I heard from you
Just like before
And before and before
I think it is probably easier for you
To act like you don't know me
Don't see me
It was easier before I held a mirror up to your blue eyes.
It was easier for me too
I think.
But I held a mirror up
I faced one yesterday
My tired face
I'd been waiting
Without even knowing I was.