that night
the feeling of betrayal and hurt
you made this happen
you just couldn't resist temptations huh
you just couldn't keep your **** hands off of her
so you slept with her
hurting me
killing me
deeply
inside

the fear in my eyes
the pain in my chest
did you want to cause this
or was this unintentional
did you mean to break my heart
did you mean to make me scared of you
I can't see happiness anymore
I rarely smile
I fear that the next one will do what you did
and leave
but that doesn't last forever they say
wrong
as long as I remember you
it will last forever
so thank you
for ruining me
thank you for breaking me













permanently...

My thoughts are like demons.
Pounding on the door, trying to get me to let them in.
trying to break me down one by one.
Killing me slowly.
Making me go insane as I lose myself in them.
When they finally hit.
I lose my sense of being sane.
I lose myself.
I seem like I’m ok but really
I’m in pain and no one can save me from them because they are too strong to be stopped.
Even I can’t stop them.
So what makes you think you can...

Dear dad,

Does it bother you knowing that I’m in pain?  Or the abuse you gave me. Does it bother you that I tried to **** myself? Do you even care, how do you sleep. How do you live with yourself?  Your price of **** deserves to rot in hell. you made me fatherless. you made me go to guys looking for love, and I hate you every day for that

Love you precious daughter.