*******.
All. Every one.
I don't care.
Wish I could just be in my own mind
and not theirs.
Trying to figure with what they think
and how i fit with it.
It's a bunch of *******.
What matters to me is who I am to myself:
without anything, or anyone else.
I'll stick to this state.

I am consistently questioning everything that is me.
I find my self back at square one
more often than not.
so small.
so hopeless.
wandering aimlessly
up, then down, then up again.
what am I missing?
I have to shake this insanity
and stay in the very moment
where i reveal my faith.

Something about today feels like change
But I know nothing ever stays the same.
I feel the past leaving me
like I'm becoming who I've wanted to be.
Feels like forgiveness for myself
for every one who ever hurt me.
Strange things are happening.
Now, I see
strange, great things
and they feel like change.