Before I get my happy on for the day, I had to sit in sadness.
The thought came to me..."is this Goodbye or see you later?"
We have been talking and not, with distance between us, even thought we are close. Neither one of us did anything about it.
We had to have the connection but we were hiding at times. Time has reach the point of choosing for itself.
You have been making guest appearances and like a good audience, I've been waiting. But the waiting has to stop and your guest appearances have been getting far and few between, plus shorter each time.
Dear time, is it goodbye or see you later?

I will always Love You.
The Friendship with always be special,
even if it becomes a memory.
The Love, unspoken at times, was and is always there...but we are letting time and distance make the choice...
Is it goodbye or see you later?
You were/are a good teacher, though confusing at times.
You are good friend, though missing at times.
Some good memories, I felt, more to come, I hope.
Great times with smiles, laughs, tears and Love (unspoken), I will always have you in my heart.
Come back if want and/or need, call please,
Feel my loving energy that I will always send...lets not loose the connection.
Lets stay open to receiving.
So Mr. Time...
Is this goodbye or see you later?

...to be continue

Tell me your story
Let me hear your words
Not the story that others believe, from their perspective
But "Your" words, how you feel, who you are, what you think
Do you know your story, has it been that long
Or are you just re-telling what others have said you are
It's time to Live "Your" Life and not the life others have create for you
Tell your story, your words
Live for you
Be you
Your story
Your words
Your creation
Who You Are!!!!

No one should have to re-live their mistakes everyday or made to re-live them. You should take responsibility for your actions, all parties involved. Learn the lessons and forgive yourself and others involved in the situation. Mistakes are choices, when you know better, hopefully, you will chose better and grow and move forward. Reliving your mistakes or someone else's mistakes does no good because it can't be changed and you give it control over you...it is what it is. You "can" heal from it. As I said, learn and grow from it. So, no blame, judgement, labeling, guilt but lots of learning, change, taking responsibility, growing, forgiving, experiencing the sensations, releasing and moving forward. And at some point, hopefully soon, you make it point of reference ( the past), not away of life. You Heal...
(Now, this is just my opinion. The things I do get pass things, along with time...in my case, sometimes a lot of time. :-) It may not work for everyone but hopefully it will jump start something in you, that will work for you. But whatever you do remember; No one should have to re-live any mistakeof everyday.)

As I sat out back this morning to start of my day...The worries came up on me: What am I doing? How am I going to do it? Why? Was this right? Can I? Will I? Change!!!!
I didn't stop them. I let them continue and I experience all the sensations.
Then, the thought came to me: What do I have? Where are you now? Deep breath and I let the worries go because I got LOVE!! I got a 100% record of making it because I am here now! I Believe and have Faith in me. The road is Rocky but it was full of stepping stones that helped me make it here today.
If today was my last day in this world...it would be a Grand and Glorious Day because I got LOVE!!!
I have created, celebrated all/everything! I have smiled, cried, laughed, sung my songs and did my dances. I have forgave all/everything.
The worries will come and go. Hard times will come and go but Good will always be around. In those small places and in wide open spaces there will always be Good! Today, as everyday, I will focus on the Good. No labels, judgements, just taking the Good I got and creating more. It will get bumpy but I will walk on.
Today is going to be...No, it is a Great day...I got LOVE and all that comes with It!!!!
I share that LOVE with you today...
Take it and create Greatness!!!!!!
BIG SMILES, hugs and kisses.
Now lets keep this Party going!!!!

As I sat out back this morning to start of my day...The worries came up on me: What am I doing? How am I going to do it? Why? Was this right? Can I? Will I? Change!!!!
I didn't stop them. I let them continue and I experience all the sensations.
Then, the thought came to me: What do I have? Where are you now? Deep breath and I let the worries go because I got LOVE!! I got a 100% record of making it because I am here now! I Believe and have Faith in me. The road is Rocky but it was full of stepping stones that helped me make it here today.
If today was my last day in this world...it would be a Grand and Glorious Day because I got LOVE!!!
I have created, celebrated all/everything! I have smiled, cried, laughed, sung my songs and did my dances. I have forgave all/everything.
The worries will come and go. Hard times will come and go but Good will always be around. In those small places and in wide open spaces there will always be Good! Today, as everyday, I will focus on the Good. No labels, judgements, just taking the Good I got and creating more. It will get bumpy but I will walk on.
Today is going to be...No, it is a Great day...I got LOVE and all that comes with It!!!!
I share that LOVE with you today...
Take it and create Greatness!!!!!!
BIG SMILES, hugs and kisses.
Now lets keep this Party going!!!!

The water was so hot I had to run cold water into it just to sit down. The temperature of the water and my body came together and a calm rushed over me. As I picked up the razor, my heart beat slowed down instead of getting faster as I thought it would and I made the first cut, the razor was sharp. With the calming water around me I didn't really feel it but I knew it had been done as the water turned red.
I take the razor into the hand of the wrist that I had just cut and make a slice into the other wrist. I felt this more because I was loosing my strength in the hand of the already cut wrist and had to put more pressure on to make the new slice.

I sit in crimson red water and a Wonderful Peacefulness came over me. I was feeling calm and sooo Peaceful and felt some joy in it all. Felt joy that it was almost done...at that moment when the Greatest Peace came to me, I knew it was almost done...

At this point of Peacefulness, the alarm went off.
It was just a dream, my dream. But that Great feeling of Peacefulness was still with me in that moment.
I hit the snooze but I could never return to that truly Peaceful place.
There was Great Sadness with me that morning and joy in knowing the Peacefulness was within waiting.

This week I was re-introduce to the label “Frustrated”, I didn’t really enjoy it much.  I need to do a little inner research and put things back in their place. (It’s my reaction that I need to check, not their actions.)  Remembering to just do my best where I am and keep celebrating me and the Good Times…It’s all Good, it just take a moment to see it sometimes…

Sooooo, I’ve decided that, this is the beginning of a week of focusing on celebrating everything…No labels, just taking it all where it is and know that it’s happening for my highest Good, even if I can’t see it right now.  Saturday to Saturday, celebrating and enjoying my experiences and knowing that it’s all going toward my highest Good and it is apart of the Creative, Loving Energy we call Life…anybody wants to do it with me?  Have a Great week no matter where you are and I’ll be sending Great, Loving thoughts your way!!!