My fingers traced circles up her back
I was moving blindly
I said "Honey, don't be so Republican"
She didn't take that kindly
I was being kind of an *******, but
I've put that behind me
In the moments before catastrophe
All the mistakes seem so tiny

It's a good thing, Darling
That I've got you to remind me

It's a good thing hahahaha

My fingers tickled my numbed soles
Sensations prove I exist
I glanced nervously at the wheel
She was driving reckless
I kept each thought there to myself
Off my mental checklist
She either knows or doesn't want to
No reason to press it

It's a good thing, Baby
I'm not a man who uses my leverage

It's a good thing hahahaha

Another sweltering day to get lost in
Wander around a parking lot, talking
In the park we got stopped by police
My runaway pig was disturbing the peace

Eilonwy's in the Summer Lands
I wrote her that I joined a band
She writes too much about another man
I'm suspicious, she doesn't understand

List our future plans, it doesn't help
Looked in a mirror, I just saw myself
Reflection in the pool is murky and raw
We barbequed but Gurgi ate it all

Why do huntsmen gather at the border
How come Doordash cancelled my order
My spot under the tree's taken by a hobo
This stuff never happens to Frodo

Well
Craig Finn's voice sounds like pink lemonade
But
Shiny things are eventually all meant to fade
Like
A clear voice on the radio into static
But
Your phone sounds clear even when I'm asthmatic

When I say "Goodnight, Elisabeth" I try to sound strong
For you in the twilight of a year that went wrong
It just reminds me of a blue Counting Crows song
Of a lifetime that collapses slowly then just goes on
Of a simple meaning I buried in indigo prose
You find it when you're motivated not to let me go
and for that I'm inclined to keep bending back
All the times you fall asleep or don't text me back

It's a lot to feel
For something so obscure
Keep paying more into
Dreams that get deferred

I was wearing
red Adidas
On the night you took
that picture of our sneakers
Adjacent to each other
shifting with the land
You drew a heart inbetween
our names in the sand

It was alright
It was a nice night

I laid next to you listening to white noise
You let me take liberties in my night voice
Whispering so that morning can't listen in
and wake us with creeping daylight's dissonance
Real life ain't got nothing to do with us
In this teal night, Jacksonville imbued in us
The will to live ***** if it means we can live
There's no time to wait for the ocean to forgive
us
My beautiful dust to dust
My angel all mysterious
Angry at the breaking dusk

It's been a nice life

I see it in your eyes like polar ice
Your skin pretty and flushed in the night light
Coded emotions in the motion of a zeitgeist
I just want to keep touching your right thigh
For all the the cursed things I didn't get right
In this black midnight of a life

This parking lot is usually a mess
Now it's empty from me to the sunset
Think about my family, hold my breath
Wash my hands, play chicken with death

Quarantined, watching Community
A whole decade flashing in front of me
"Somebody said - Be what you'll be"
We could be folding socks for eternity

Uncertain times, inverted, serpentine
Crowds on the beach form in perfect lines
I know they like a good time - My Oh My
But could ya please stay the **** inside

We get half a tantrum, half a choice
Refresh my account looking for an invoice
Laid on my couch, anchored to your voice
Saving throw vs. my life being destroyed

Well I was rushing down a river
I said to myself "This is a dream"
Because of the absent context
Because no river is this clean
Holding tight to a memory
The ghost fractured light weaves
She said "Don't you dare believe
That I was ev-er
the image you conceive"

Stranded on a mattress
Trapped inside a sadness
Screengrab of a last kiss
Just out of sight

I've been living in a tunnel
I've been tricked by this maze
I thought I was out three times
I kinda lost track of the days
I've been painting an Autumn
With dimensions all out of place
A looped highlight, a raised skylight
A blurry spot on my eyesight

Tell me is it a shadow
Tell me is it a boom mic
Tell me is it some meaning
Just out of sight

I knew you'd wait
till after midnight
To call me, you and I
have always been scared of the light

I knew you'd wanna see me
But you'd need an excuse
It's too hard to be seen clearly
I was thinkin of one, too

But I was afraid that I
wouldn't last long enough to help
Either you'd break me down
Or I'd just do it to myself

I waited by the phone
I could hardly breathe
By the time I finally heard your voice
I'd forgotten what I need

I was in deep
You were in disbelief
You had me so wide awake
Now I just want to sleep

I don't know if we're in love
Or just scared of real life

Pens, lighters, paperclips
Stacks of important documents
Hold on to your valuables
This life can't be held responsible

Under the
Under the
Under the
Under the desk where the lost items hide
A culture of tribes & divides

Over the
Over the
Over the
Over the moon where the angels nap
Tired of routine and trying to relax