i miss the old me
the happy me
the driven me
the ambitious me


the me i was before you
the me you broke into pieces
the me that will never return

i had to accept an apology i never received
and forgive you for actions you refuse to acknowledge
it was the hardest thing i've ever had to do
but still, i made sure i will get through it.
and that my darling
is what i call
STRENGTH

I've accumulated a lot of scars over the years
one on my knee when i fell off my bike
a long straight one on my forehead from falling out a tree
every hurt i've ever felt left a physical scar
but the scar you left on me...
i can't see it, only feel it
i can't see it, but everyone else can
i can't see it
but everyone else can
in my sad teary eyes
my fake smile
and my fake happy
they see how broken you left me.

i filled your cup till it overflowed with my compassion
now i'm dying of thirst.

you played hide and seek with my happy and my sad
you only ever found the sad.
the happy got lost a long time ago

at the age of 10
i convinced myself i wont make it to 25
now
at the age of 25
i don't know what to do,
how to deal
or
how to keep living

you treated my weakness like a crime
i was the inmate and you the warden
you cuffed my insecurities
and put me in a cage
locking me away from myself for years.