you know
sometimes i miss first winter snow.
sometimes i miss your stare, your words, your scent.
i rarely say this,
but im all yours in the end.

you know
sometimes i cant sleep days, and weeks at most
sometimes i 'm so deep in my thoughts
resemble ghost.

you know
sometimes i wish you'd mend what has been broken
sometimes i wish you'd say what's left unspoken
sometimes i wish you'd solve what has been tangled
you know
sometimes i wish
love weren't violent.

yes you could say i daydream way too much
sometimes so often, boundaries disappear as such.
it's easier
to climb the stairs with wings
but my escape-
a run on broken limbs.

every step i take causes so much distress
every breath rips apart ribcage
in this race
you know
sometimes i miss first winter snow
because i met you on the day
it covered my sore wounds
with innocent pure glow.

now there is mud
and slash
quicksand.
i rarely say this
but im still yours in the end.

you are the best thing that has happened to my soul.
you are the strength i needed most when all went wrong
and now when i am back on track and can stand firmly on the ground
you're found.

you are the best thing that has happened to my heart.
you are the power that keeps pumping across my entire body
blood.

you are the best thing that has happened to my all
you are the air i breathe, the dreams i dream, my soil.

you are the worst thing that has happened to my sanity.
because of you, it's long gone down the drain
there goes the gravity.

With eyes wide open I step outside
The air fills up my lungs for first time in a while
Never girlfriend and never a bride
I put on the most painful and  deceitful smile

Youll believe what you see when you look at me
You wont doubt for a second im alright I breathe well
I have learnt how to hide im choking under your spell

oh my lord please stop hurting me
i havent done anything wrong
through every war i went,
survived every bitter storm.

oh my lord please save me
from pain that is growing inside
i wish i could tell you everything
and you could just make it right.

my saviour, my angel, my dearest
i pray to you every night
please take care of those who are nearest
please save my fragile heart.

but you never listen to my pleas
you never vow to protect back
you stare and nod and promise
while im covering my tracks.

I need you
like never before.
want to sit
right beside you
on a couch, on the floor
on the ground
in the mud
in the rain
in the storm
i dont care where i sit
as long as in the same home.

it's in the depths of his eyes
where the sky is so clear
it's without any disguise
my soul was resting until…

until you came around
i was safe and sound
until and you came about

I used to be so strong
my bones could stand the storm

he buried all of my dreams
replacing mine with his

he messed up all my routes
not leaving any clues
where i could find him, how
i need you so much now.

You feel like the sun
So hot and im melting
You look like the ocean
So boundless and tempting

Just like cold air
I feel you
Like rain you wash my smiles
In your tides im caught up
After walking for miles