It's this that you try to understand the perspective of the person who has hurt you...

You try to justify his actions...
You simply don't want to accept the fact that " HE WAS AN A-hole AND HE IS REALLY A BAD PERSON"

F YOU, A

I am trying to understand this color between black and white..
This number between 0 and 1...
This conscience between right and wrong...
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All my life, I have been in either one of the sides..
It was always either a YES or NO for me...
But at this moment, I am stuck with a MAYBE...
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Maybe , he didn't mean what he said...
Maybe, I misunderstood him....
Maybe, I should still wait for awhile...
Maybe, he will come around....
Maybe, they are just friends...
Maybe, he really does love me...
Maybe, he is really busy....
Maybe, he wants me to call him first....
Maybe, we still have a chance..
Maybe, just the time is wrong at the moment..
Maybe, we can work things out again...
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I don't know....
Maybe...................

I tried my best to change myself and try to fit in your world.
I tried my best to turn myself into those skinny , glittery girls you run after.
I tried my best to put on makeup, walk on high heels when all I wanted was to stay inside in my pajamas.
I talked to you all till 3 in the morning when I had to reach my work by 7 AM.
I comforted you when you felt low.
I made you feel that you mattered.
I made you feel valued.
I made you feel loved.

While in return, you just left me questioning my worth.
You ripped open my bleeding heart again .
You sprinkled salt in my unhealed wounds again.
You broke my dreams again.
You made me realize why you shouldn't expect anything from anyone again.
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I don't know what did I do to deserve this. My intentions were always pure. My feelings were always true. I m stuck with a question mark. F you, A.

All my life , I have been seeking validation from others.
I promise myself today, This ends here..
I am beautiful.
I am powerful.
I am enough.
I am worth everything I desire.
I am a boss *****.

I didnt want you..
I wanted those dreams you made me see....

At the end of the day, we just want to be chosen , isn't it??

Yes, the devil is beautiful
He is dreamy
He says all the right words
He does all the right things
He makes you feel all the love
He makes you believe that fairy gods exists..
Then...BAMmmM!!!!!!!
Can you hear that noise?
The noise of your heart shattering to countless pieces...
Then....Ouchhhhh!!!!
Can you feel that *****??
That ***** that pierced through your soul and made you lifeless...
What do you do now???
With all these impossible dreams and unexplained feeling..
How do you get over it.?
Get over something you never wanted in the first place...