If God forgave my one sin,
I swear I would have killed you
I swear I want to
I swear I want to

For all the things you did to me,
For all the things I wish you did
No, I wasn't such a hateful person
You made me like this,
You made me like this

I don't feel a thing now...
What is pain? What is fear?
All I know is loneliness,
Loneliness eating me alive
That long never-ending nights,
Nights so dark and monstrous,
Nights so melancholy...

You destroyed all that I had left,
Now I m just a broken soul.
Oh, how much I want to hate you,
Oh, how much I wish you knew
But still, in this life, I can't
No, I can't hate you
No, I really can't

If God forgave my one sin,
Yes, I want to **** you...
Place a knife in your heart,
And check if you had one
But no, I wouldn't be able to do it
No, I can't.....

If I had a backspace in life,
I swear I would have stopped at hello
I wouldn't have gotten so close
I wouldn't have let you in
I don't know if it was a mistake,
I don't know if I should regret
I deleted the pictures, your number, your texts
But tell me, what do I do with these memories?
Tell me, how do I delete them?

Why did you awaken the love in me?
When you didn't have any intention to love me back..
Why did you make my heart flutter?
When you were going to break itanyway..
I know, I was a naive girl
To fall for your trick
I should have known
I should have known..
You were that demon disguised as an angel.
Candy to my eyes but poison to my soul..
Yeah, you poisoned me
And now, I cant breathe

what do I say when they ask me?
were you a friend?
were you a lover?
maybe just a painkiller
to soothe me for a while
yes, you told me all I needed to hear
you held my hands and looked into my eyes
you told me I am the most beautiful of all,
caressed my hair, and kissed my lips
a kiss like a magic spell

Now your effect is wearing off
making me feel all the things
it hurts so bad I cant tell
yes, you were my fantasy
My illusion, my fairytale
I lived my dream for a while
and now that I m wide awake
the illusion has faded
and the fairytale has ended

Dont try to get the answer of why
He doesn't owe you an explanation..
Yes, you showed him the best of you
But still you weren't good enough..
He doesn't know how you look..
With red eyes and messy hair..
He doesn't know how you look..
With all the stupid whining you do..
Yes, you showed him the best of you
But still you weren't good enough..
Maybe that's why you are feeling so low
So empty, so blue..