I see you are back in the town again..
With your “partner”
Saw your pictures on the socials the other day
Looked pretty happy!!
Looked like you have moved on
Since she has forgave and forgotten all that about me!!!!!
I feel annoyed ..
I feel affected somehow..
And I feel unjust..
For you and her to move on so easily
And blaming it all on me!!!
How could you?!!!
I wish you also go through the same thing..
I am still haunted by your memories
I am still traumatised
And I feel as if I have lost my ability to love and trust anyone now…
I want to get rid of this pain!!!!!!

How can some people just move on like nothing happened?
Putting the blame on someone else’s shoulder and just getting away with it…
How??????

I crossed borders for you!!
In hopes you are as real as your words
Just to find out…
I am an ordinary to you!!
Your words mean nothing
They are overused with many..
Humiliated and hurt!!
That is what you made me feel…
Like a clown!
I felt embarassed ..
To have traveled 20 hours..
To explore the potential of what could be..
Just to realize what it really is…

F you , A

Strange
I don’t miss you
I rarely think of you
Each night I am questioning myself
If I should just leave
I don’t know what is stopping me

Needing to forget you
But not wanting to !
Have forgotten most of you.
Your Touch, Your Smell, Your Voice, Your Face!!
But still wanting to keep hurting
Keep reliving
Because that is the only way
The only way I can stay connected to you
And make myself believe
It was real, Everything was real!!!

Is wanting solitude so bad?
Why cannot something just be mine?
Why cannot some thoughts just stay within me?
Why cannot some feelings just stay hidden in me?
I am being the person you want, isn't it?
I am doing my best!!!
But I really don't want to share all of me to you?
Cannot some parts of me just be with me only?

It has been a way of life now!!
No one really cares about the truth!!
All they care about is their perspective about the truth!!
And hereby, I am the one who has been living this life!!
Misunderstood and Misjudged
My inexpressiveness for emotionless!!
My indecisiveness for irresponsibility!!
My assertiveness for arrogance!!
My standing out for bossy!!
My logicalness for insolence!!
How Do I live this way of life?