if you haven't noticed
the scars on my hips
or the fake smile on my lips
or the forced laugh that i've aopted
or the way i don't care
about the things i used to love
then don't you dare stand
at my grave and cry

how can you cry for someone
that you don't even know?

I scream

You scream

We all scream
just constantly each day is
a new nightmare in this
Hell world we call EARTH

Roses are lame
Love is fake
Weddings are basically
Funerals with cake

And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all
And I will stumble and fall
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl

They tell us happiness is life.
They tell us sorrow is death.
They restrict our minds and emotions.
In bliss they allow us to prosper,
But in depression they allow only torment.

Words that are rarely used,
Like treasures, are often abused,
Forgotten in the passage of time,
Buried in the pages of the sublime.

Words that are strange to our ear,
Like whispers that we can barely hear,
They have a power all their own,
A beauty that is often unknown.

From "petrichor" to "halcyon",
These words evoke emotions strong,
A world that's rich, a world that's deep,
Where language can soar and language can leap.

So let us not forget these words,
That are hidden like a singing birds.

Twinkle, twinkle little star,
Let me get hit by a car,
How do I really wish to die,
Jump off the roof and try to fly,
Twinkle twinkle little knife,
Help me end this wretched life.

nothing hurts more

than trying so hard to
be good enough

and being replace by
someone better

i might not have the prettiest smile
or the biggest muscles
or the warmest heart
or anything

whatever
i have nothing

In order to be loved
Humans will act as an idealized
Version of themsleves

I wanted to live and reach twenty.
  But since I'm at it now, I feel a bit lost.

I don't have... what you might call a dream.
  I don't even know where I'll be one year from now.

I don't care what happens to me.
  I don't seem to be able to have dreams, plans.

It's good enough just to be alive.
  My goal is to be positive and joyful.

You was the girl who
      loved too soon

I was a boy who
      loved too late

But no matter what
      mistakes we made

We'll be each other's
      one that got away

Roses are red
Birds like to fly
Existence is pain
I just want to die

sometimes you run
out of words
silence takes
over silent
until your breath
and heartbeat
becomes the voice
whispering
you need no words
you need no words
and then
and only then
you're at peace

I longed for real silence
the one you can find
but stumble upon
in some cabin
somewhere
on the lake without a moon,
where youhear the cigarette burn
and the candles flicker
and your mind dances alive
to the symphonies in the black

A spiderweb of cracks,
Shattered glass upon the ground,
A broken phone screen,
A sight that can astound.

Once so sleek and smooth,
Now marred by a single fall,
A constant reminder,
Of the mishap that befell all.

The phone still works,
But it's not the same as before,
The touch screen now a maze,
A challenge to explore.

Yet we soldier on,
Through this minor tragedy,
For we know that life goes on,
And this is mere mundanity.

Her salty tears fell
And mixed with our lips as we kissed.
'Why?
I asked
She smiled.
'Because I'm happy',
she said,
and teared again.
And her lips tumbled
apart like a sand.

Up high on a rooftop lot,
Above the world, a peaceful spot,
A moment to escape the fray,
And find some peace amidst the day.

The bustling city down below,
A distant hum, a gentle flow,
The chaos tamed, the noise subdued,
Up here, it's like a different mood.

The moon sets low, the sky ablaze,
A peaceful calm, a gentle haze,
The world slows down, the day recedes,
And in this peace, the heart it feeds.

The air is still, the breeze is light,
A moment to pause, to catch our sight,
To see the world with different eyes,
And find some peace amidst the ties.

For in this rooftop parking lot,
We find a peace that can't be bought,
A moment to breathe, to just be,
And find the calm that sets us free.

So let us cherish this moment here,
And let the peace that we find adhere,
For in this rooftop parking lot,
We find a peace that's worth a lot.

I shared so many firsts with you
That I wasn't prepared for our last

If we ever fall in love
Let's never tell the world
The world tends to destroy beautiful things
So let it be our little secret

If we ever fall in love, let's always keeps our promises
I have broken way too many promises like cookies, to know that's how relationships crumble

If we ever fall in love, let it be everyday
I want to learn to love you in new ways with new days

If we ever fall in love, let's never be scared
I know love is a fall of trust and I don't want to fear falling
I know I will be held

If we ever fall in love, let's always sleep our problems away
The only thing we should always take to bed should be each other, nothing else

If we fall in love, let's cry together
I know we'll always laugh together and dance together, but tears are just fears waiting to be dissolved

If we ever fall in love, we may never fall in love
But if we ever do, love me with all your heart.
And if you have to, if you absolutely have to-you can break my heart

Beautiful pictures, captured in time,
Memories frozen, that once were mine,
A moment captured, forever preserved,
But with no one to share, it's left unheard.

The colors vibrant, the scenes so grand,
A beauty that's hard to understand,
The majesty of nature, the work of art,
A picture that speaks straight to the heart.

But when there's no one to share the view,
The beauty fades, the joy subdued,
For what's the point of beauty unseen,
If it can't be shared, it's like a dream.

And yet, in these pictures, there's still hope,
A message that we can all elope,
For beauty is not just for the eye,
It's for the heart, it's for the mind.

So let these pictures be a reminder,
That beauty is all around, a finder,
And though we may have no one to share,
We can still find joy in what's there.

For in these pictures, we can see,
The beauty of life, and we can be,
Grateful for the moments we have caught,
And in our hearts, the beauty is wrought

****

Never come here again
I must have been delusional when I said
This is your home
Now I know the truth that
You don't belong here
You chose these loneliness
You chose to leave
I was wrong to think
You were afraid of love
In your palm of your hand
My happiness should always be
Mine
You have never admonished
Your own faults
I forgive you for
Nothing
Your betrayals means
I went through hell because of you
I will never tell you
Please comeback!!!

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You're my summer breeze
I brush across your cheek
I have always been
And I will always be
I can hear you blow
Although I don't know
Where you're coming from
Or where you go
It's you when I catch the fragrance of spring
When tall trees sway
It's you in the cold winter sting
In the alleyway
I am the sigh
While all creation groans and waits