Nomadic poet

Nomadic poet Apr 2021

april 5

I know I don't call
I had to give you distance

I still pray for you at night
Your family is still here

I gotta do whats best for her and I
Even if it hurts

Whyd you have to get strung out

Nomadic poet Apr 2021

I do miss it though

I do not regret holding it down for you

I do not regret any choice I made for you

My loyalty for you still stands

Just with different terms now
I can hear it in your voice when you call
I can see it in all the **** you do

You lost and the decision cost it all

You did what you did
I feel what I feel
But my heart so big man

Aint a soul walking i got ill wishes on
Not even you

Its time for me to wake up though
It's a lot of real bad people
Its a lot of real sick people
I can't help people

Sometimes you gotta tuck them emotions
Its still all love just from a distance

Nomadic poet Mar 2021

Untitled

I give more than i receive

Nomadic poet Mar 2021

Talk

Ive heard people speak of how angry the other got
What the other did

That *** for tat type ****

But I swear
I've never heard someone speak on the hurt that was there
Do they tell you about the one on one conversations

Sometimes I wonder if some people ever sit alone enough with their own thoughts to replay those..

I'm honestly just mad at myself
Becuz I cannot bring myself to hold that on you.

It's okay to need help

Nomadic poet Mar 2021

Im sorry im manicly bipolar

Id like to just go a head
Take a moment to apologize

I hear people speak about these things i deal with
They say its all mental and so are we

I'm sorry I'm damaged
Im sorry I'm still learning how to communicate and manage myself and emotions.

I don't meant to be like this.

It is who I am but I pray its not my definition.

Nomadic poet Mar 2021

Wisteria

The wisteria are back
~•~•~
They are my soul

I love when they bloom again

Nomadic poet Mar 2021

Serenity

I may not be a perfect mother
Or a good spouse

I may have helped in the destruction of our family.
But little baby I swear I'm only doing what I think is right.

I can't let our lives be the same as what mine was. I have to do better for you and your life.

I have never known a love like the one we share. You're my mini me and I am you. I promise ill always be there. Doing my best to be the best for you.

I'm sorry I didn't have it together for you from the start. I'm sorry this is what you were handed. And with my soul I swear to change that.

You are my whole world, my only safe place. My Serenity.