answers to the universe were all hidden inside of you
they ran deep alongside your finger prints
knowing this
you'd coat your hands, your body
in layers and layers of clothes
enjoying the ascendancy you held on me
all I've ever wanted was answers
but you never touched me
you never touched anyone

Lavender linen
Swallowed me whole
Waddled me up in
Silky sheets
Cradling my skin

my life is in pause
i've lived the same day for six months now
I eat gray food
in my gray house
well trying to breath in gray air
than i lay and stare
stare
and stare
at blank walls
only walls
its so suffocating

sometimes i still feel you whirling around inside the air I breath
your energy lingers
like a ghost
not here in person
but in spirit