Vision is going black,
I’m standing on the edge.
I just wanted some friends.
I just want my life to end.

I’m done feeling all these feelings,
Staring at this ******* ceiling,
Wishing my life had some meaning,
Hold my breath ’till I stop breathing.

No, these people are not my friends,
I don't even know 'em.

Don’t want to die alone,
But I’m living in a hell.
Stand back from this top,
Climb down the ladder,
‘Cause I don't even trust myself.

And I fell for all your reasons,
Again.
The chemicals numb my feelings,
I become so cold, I’m freezing.

Just hold me ’till I stop bleeding.

No, these people are not my friends...

I’m in my head again...

Quick, just overdose, get the medicine.

When did I become so numb?
When did I lose myself?
All the words that leave my tongue...
Feel like they came from someone else...

Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things, I know I should...
Where is the real me?
I'm lost, and it kills me inside....

When did I become so cold?
When did I become ashamed?
Where's the person that I know?
He must have died, gun aimed,
Framed,
And I am the only one to be blamed.

I'm scared to live, but I'm scared to die...
And yes, life is a pain, and every day, I ask why?
Why am I
Still alive?
And where am I?

I wanna feel something, I'm numb inside...
But I don't feel nothing, I wonder why.
All of my therapists tried...
To figure me out...
I knew it, but to their surprise...
They couldn't fix me, so they prescribed
Some medication,
For my major depression...
Is life really supposed to be a blessing?

I'm at the bottom, and I don't know what the problem is...
I'm in a box, but I'm the one who locked me in...
Suffocating...
And I'm running out of oxygen..

Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things, I know I should...
Where is the real me?
I'm lost, and it kills me inside....

Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things, I know I should...
Where is the real me?

I'm lost, and it kills me inside....

I spoke to God today...
And she said that she's ashamed...
What have I become?

What have I done?

I spoke to the devil today...
And he swears he's not to blame...
And I understood, 'cause I feel the same.

Arms wide open,
No hand to take,
I stand alone...

I'm no hero,
I'm just a zero...
Right or wrong,
I can hardly tell...

I'm on the wrong side of Heaven,
And the righteous side of Hell.

I heard from God today
And she asked the same of me...
"What have you done...
And who have you become?"

I saw the devil today....
He looked exactly like me...

I'm not defending...
No reason to, so I'm just downward descending...
Falling further and further away...
Getting closer, every day.

I'm getting closer every day...

To the end.

I am quickly learning that the things you promised me are *******,
But of course, I took it.

And every single secret of mine has been broadcast like tv...
You took all the people I knew in my life,
Told them ***** lies,
They left, one by one, like flies.

All your friends, and everyone I know, are aware of everything wrong with me,
And you were cruel enough, to sever all the threads, that were tying you to me.

For a second you made me believe we were lovers,
Made me believe in forever, but now we’re enemies.

Pull all your ****** knives out of my back.
It's an order, I will not take kindly your attack.
Though, I can't say I was that surprised, at how you turned on me so fast.
I let you in,
I held you close.
Still, my blood flows like a river, 'cause i trusted you the most.

I can’t even think straight, I have your voice everywhere in my house.
It’s like i almost miss you...

I should’ve known .

Sweet talk, so sweet that I'm getting a headache.
Too good... Too good to be true, shouldn't believe it.
You talk like you need me, like you'd never leave me...

Until I begin to believe it.

I was good on my own, until you came along.
Waited for me to fall,
And now the you I met,
You I know, is gone.

If you don't mean it, don't just say it.
If you don't feel it, don't you ******* fake it.
If it's a lie, don't you dare say it's true.
If you don't want me, why'd you take it?
Why'd you take my heart?

How come you bought it, just to break it?
If you don't love me then don't say you ******* do.

Days passed, since I'd even seen a trace of you.
I guess you really couldn't give less of a ****.
I begged, "Just be honest!", you said you don't know.
My disbelief lost it's suspension.

I was good on my own, until you came along.
Waited for me to fall,
And now the you I met....

You I met... Gone.

Behind my smile... It's there.
And I start to feel it.

When you spit venomous words,
With all your poison...
You punch me, and kick 'till it hurts.

You've made your choices.

I didn't want to show...
What lives under my skin.
But now, you're gonna see.

You're messing with a monster.

I couldn't stand up to you...
But finally, I couldn't wait much longer.
You thought you were strong,
But I proved... I'm so much stronger.

So now, you've seen what I am...
You better start running, hiding.
Yes, just run as fast as you can,
'Cause I will be coming.

You've pushed me through the border, my trigger...
Be careful, now I'm quicker,
Bigger,
Sicker,
Now I'm the kicker.

Goes to figure.

I didn't want to show...
What lives under my skin.
But...
Now you're gonna see.

You're messing with a monster.

But I've still got a heart...
We could restart...
But hidden in the dark...
Is the side that I don't show...

But I've still got a heart...
We could restart...
It's only when you choose to beat, and kick me down.
That you're messing with a monster.

And even when I give you a chance...
You choose to advance.
I don't like to break glass...
But I don't take kindly your attacks.

I didn't want to show...
What lives under my skin.
But...
Now you're gonna see.

That you're messing with a monster.

I don't wanna know...
If you're out, because I am not there...
I don't wanna know...
No, I don’t want to care,
Don’t wanna be aware,
It’s just not fair...

To tell the truth, I'm just trying to stay away from you.

And it's hard to forget, shake it off, not care,
When I fell in love with you, want you.
But it’s...
All so hard to go through,
My dreams will never become true.

To tell the truth, I'm just trying to stay away from you.

'Cause I don't wanna see you anymore.
I don't wanna see you anymore.

‘Cause every time I see you message, it gets me kinda crazy.
But that quickly goes away, and I’m left with my memories hazy.

My mind gets all blurry, foggy, woozy.
Devoid of all interest, back to empty.

I don't wanna see you anymore.

Things will never change, ‘till I stop wanting you.
When I think about you, it's my personal torture.

To tell the truth, I'm just trying to away from you.

“I don't want to see you anymore.
It's nothing you've said or done,
It's just the way I feel inside.”
She said at night.

Reality hit in the morning,
As I reached for her hand across the bed.

And the first thing on my mind,
Was the last thing that she has said.

“I don't want to see you anymore.”
How could it end this way?
I just broke right down, and cried.
I guess that’s another one in my book.
Just another lost one, written in my book.
Just another check mark in the book.
My book.

******* it, just say you hate me!
Tell me you regret you ever met me!
Come on, make sure that it hurts, right as you’re leaving...
Just prove it to me that...
You never even really ever wanted, loved me.

Don’t say you’re sorry, just hate me...
Don’t say you’re gonna miss me, just say you hate me...

...

It doesn't really matter what you say,
They're only words, they fade away.

You didn't really mean what you said.
When you were lying, I was only being led.

Little things, stupid things, I can’t forget.

And I really don't think I'll ever love again,
You think you know someone, and then...

It unfolds, unravels in front of you... Its just been a game to them.