I don't wanna know...
If you're out, because I am not there...
I don't wanna know...
No, I don’t want to care,
Don’t wanna be aware,
It’s just not fair...

To tell the truth, I'm just trying to stay away from you.

And it's hard to forget, shake it off, not care,
When I fell in love with you, want you.
But it’s...
All so hard to go through,
My dreams will never become true.

To tell the truth, I'm just trying to stay away from you.

'Cause I don't wanna see you anymore.
I don't wanna see you anymore.

‘Cause every time I see you message, it gets me kinda crazy.
But that quickly goes away, and I’m left with my memories hazy.

My mind gets all blurry, foggy, woozy.
Devoid of all interest, back to empty.

I don't wanna see you anymore.

Things will never change, ‘till I stop wanting you.
When I think about you, it's my personal torture.

To tell the truth, I'm just trying to away from you.

“I don't want to see you anymore.
It's nothing you've said or done,
It's just the way I feel inside.”
She said at night.

Reality hit in the morning,
As I reached for her hand across the bed.

And the first thing on my mind,
Was the last thing that she has said.

“I don't want to see you anymore.”
How could it end this way?
I just broke right down, and cried.
I guess that’s another one in my book.
Just another lost one, written in my book.
Just another check mark in the book.
My book.

******* it, just say you hate me!
Tell me you regret you ever met me!
Come on, make sure that it hurts, right as you’re leaving...
Just prove it to me that...
You never even really ever wanted, loved me.

Don’t say you’re sorry, just hate me...
Don’t say you’re gonna miss me, just say you hate me...

...

It doesn't really matter what you say,
They're only words, they fade away.

You didn't really mean what you said.
When you were lying, I was only being led.

Little things, stupid things, I can’t forget.

And I really don't think I'll ever love again,
You think you know someone, and then...

It unfolds, unravels in front of you... Its just been a game to them.

Yeah, they say when we grow up...
You'll understand when you're older...
Guess I'm still a kid, I don't know it...
If I'll ever let go of this.

Say goodbye to the old me...
We're not friends anymore, you don't know me...
I know I could die any moment...
If I do just remember this...

Actions speak louder than words do, it's pretty quiet, isn't it?
Look at the world we live in, defined by comment sections.

Surround yourself with people that challenge how you think,
Not people that nod their head, and act like they agree.
Always be yourself, not the person that you pretend to be.

It's not about what people think, it's about how you feel inside.
Don't act a certain way to someone to make them happy, once they find out, they'll break.
People are like glass.

I heard that life's too short, don't let it pass you by...
Yet we waste a lot of time crying over wasted time,
Don't we?

Don't be over optimistic, naive, for once, look at it from a different angle.
Don't trust everyone, people change, even Satan used to be an angel.

Think twice before you're taking everything from the hand that made you.
Don't believe what you believe, just cause that's how they raised you.
Think your own thoughts, don't let people do it for you.

You're not something I require,
Not something worthy of being desired.
We're done with that, no way.

I'll just take myself higher,
So I'm feeling okay.

Look at me now,
I'm done with chasing after people, all the fakes.
They taught me how...
And now I'm feeling okay.

They taught me how,
Now I'm feeling okay.

I wanna take my time,
To make my decisions,
Change my mind,
For no **** reason.

I'm better off solo.

Break me down,
But I won't be imprisoned.
Hold my ground,
'Till my heart stops beating.

I'm better off solo.

You tell me you need me,
You tell me you want me,
But we all know I'm better off alone.

Now I'm feeling okay.

You taught me how,
Now I'm feeling okay...

I've been waiting for the day you say you want me back...
I've been alone,  but really, I can't seem to understand...

You threw my heart into the flames,
I rewatched your videos, ones you sent, and ones I recorded, frame by frame,
I tried to delete them, but I still keep them, just in case...
If you're wondering if I still love you, after so much time has passed...
Since you asked...

I don't really want you back,
I just want the life we had.

And I remember all the times you said you had my back...
But now... We're separated, going down our separate paths.

Maybe because they fuel my disorders, who knows,
But...

But I can't let the memories of us go.

He was 16, with nobody to talk to today.
Like every other day.

He would sit down at the table,
Tell himself that it's alright,
He was waiting on the day he hoped a lover would finally arrive,
He'd never be alone...
Have someone to hold.

And when nights were cold, he'd say:
The world's not perfect, but it's not that bad,
If we got each other, and that's all we have,
I will be your lover, and I'll hold your hand,
You should know I'll be there for you...

When the world's not perfect,
When the world's not kind,
If we have each other, then we'll both be fine,
I will be your lover, and I'll hold your hand...

You should know I'll be there for you.
...So where are you...?

You don't exist, do you?
No, you were just another imagination, just another dream of mine.
I should've knew,
After all, it's nothing new...
But still, it left me kinda blue...
All my life interest, flew
Out the window.

Oh, man... What a view!
Just look out there, all of what's come out of me, blowing in the wind.
It's beautiful... Isn't it?

"Oh, he's sweet.", but a ******.
A little bit ******.
"Oh, he's hot.", but a ******.
Looking so alive, but he died though.

No, no...
You'll play along,
Let him lead you on, and on, and on.
You'll be saying, "No, no..."
Then saying, "Yes, yes, yes..."
'Cause he's messing with your head.

"Oh, he's sweet.", but a ******.
A little bit ******.
"Oh, he's hot.", but a ******.
Looking so alive, but he died though...

See, someone said, don't drink his potions.
He'll kiss your neck, with no real emotions.

You're just like me, you're out of your mind.
I know it's strange, we're both the crazy kind...
Yet, you're telling me that I'M insane.

A compliment to me, it remains.

Nobody really ******* wants to be with me, like they always say.
Never message, I always have to start, I know that they are fake.
Seriously, what do you want me from me, break?
I just want to finally escape this dark void of a place.
But that's always been the dream, same *******, different day.
So I slightly overdose on my antidepressants, try to get rid of this pain...
But it's never gonna change, and I'll always feel the same.
I don't know what to do, my life is never changes, I want to get up, off this train.
Never feel excited, and it's always been this way.
I wanna make it out, I wanna get up out this rain..
And say you had my back, but always saw me in this pain.
I'm tired of this ****, and I'm so tired of these days...

Sleepless nights, anxiety, every **** thing else, just not doing any good for me.
Sometimes I wanna tell my problems, but nobody's here to be listening.

Nobody's listening, nobody cares.

So I sleep all day to escape, after waking up,  always check my phone...
Every single time, even though I know nobody cares, I'm alone.
Nobody even messages, I feel like a ghost.
I just wanna find some peace, but nowhere feels like home.
I somtimes just want somebody, who would listen, and can cope...
I don't know what to do, cause I can't trust a soul.
Try to avoid it, ignore it, but still the problems, feelings overflow...
But I really never had anything to lose, I'm on death row.
You say you understand, but you don't even ****** know.
Every day I wake up, and I'm always feeling low.

I really just had enough, and I truly hope that one day this can stop...
I'll just keep on trying to get day by day, try not to drop.