I want to see your smile,
Share your happiness for awhile.
I wanna be your hero,
But always been a zero.
Tired of being just like myself,
Tired of reading those books off a shelf.
Want to live my story, my life,
Never be boring, in strife.

Did I ever get over you?
Ask what kind of person I am.

Stuck here wondering what to do.
When does a boy become a man?

When you’re smiling, I’m feeling blue,
Where do I find the strength to stand?

Asking questions, still got no clue,
Will nobody give me a hand?

I guess it’s too late for you and me,
I was so deep in love back then….

Sure I fell hard but can’t you see?
That I just got back up again.

How can I smile,
Knowing the same thing I did yesterday?

When, for a while,
I knew that was all you and I would say.

So that is all,
If you just didn’t want to see me anymore…

That’s not my call,
But you just keep smiling, it’s so hard to ignore.

So this is it,
I don’t think it’ll fade, my “love’s” first impression.

Hard to admit,
That I might’ve just been lying about depression.

Today’s a good day,
a day to live
or a day to die.

An ocean resides in the sky,
With rumble and flash it bursts.

And the sky falls in so many pieces,
its tears fall all over the ground.
Crying for each and every one of us,
All our tears, fallen to Earth, again and again.

Spiders crawling, under my skin,
And I feel like I’m burning.
How can I atone for my sins,
When I still feel the yearning?
Pursued by the mistakes of my past,
chased through dark corridors in my head.
Can’t hide from the shadows they cast,
all these voices screaming that they want me dead.

Here I am, left wondering,
and wandering.
all alone but for passing shadows.
Walk my own path pondering,
and pandering.
Nod, wave, smile, nobody cares or knows.

Suddenly, a clap of thunder
tore the night asunder,
and ripped through my troubled mind.

Lightning came soon after,
along with frightening laughter,
Which I realized was mine.

The reason I run away, though there’s no place to hide,
Is You.
The reason I feel this pain, killing me inside,
Is You.

What’s wrong with the asking?
I don’t care if you don’t answer.
Spending so long masking,
Thoughts spreading like a cancer.

The sweetest thing, lick my lips, I will never taste,
Dear You.
Cruel little thing, you’re with him, such a waste,
Hate you.

You’re the closest thing to an angel,
That I’ve ever seen.
Feeling more like I’m in a living hell,
Than I’ve ever been.

Because I can’t bear to be near you,
Knowing I’m just no good.
Always wondering what I should do,
I never understood.

I didn’t think that the time was right,
And so I made you wait.
But when I thought it would be alright,
By then I was too late.

Be patient, darling, and I will come,
Slow and sure in my way.
Or come take my hand and lead me on,
I’ll follow you all day

I can’t rip through these bindings,
maybe it’s myself I’m finding
That’s in my way

So I just keep on fighting,
The hate inside I’m inciting
It’s in my way.

In my head there’s a war being fought,
Contradictions, self-loathing in every thought.
Don’t get in my way.

Chewed fingernails, drinking wine,
                                                           ­                      It’s not very hard to see.
Doesn’t take much to find,
                                             That there’s something very wrong with me.
It’s only me, nevermind,
                                                      ­      I guess this is the only way I can be.
Tried to change my ways,
                                                       Clean it up, wear the only suit I’ve got.
Pretending at halcyon days.
                                                       But I melted when the heat got too hot.

First, already lost for words,
Second, keeps pushing forwards.
Third, the limits are closing in,
Fourth, Another scrunched paper in the bin.

Start again, the first sentence sounds nice,
The next one… Well, it’ll suffice.
Stop, and realize it’s not even that great,
Forget it, put it away, and procrastinate.