I don’t need you anymore, you said you would’ve been gone years ago was but you haven’t seem to be gone yet
I reminded you everyday of it
to make sure of it
You tell me to try harder
I do but you always talk to much about me, & to me

You come at me like a wave with no notice, Every time were together it gets more darker then ever
I found a way to talk to you
I found comfort with you
But it was awfully difficult

Feeling the smooth tears going down my cheeks from what you said the other nights, having late night crazy thoughts with you was lovely
You wanted to be dead with me
But all I wanted was to stop you

You wanted me to not see the light
I wanted to leave you to the dark

Just the other day you had me screaming in public. During that moment you told me to call it a life instead of a day
You got me though
You had me convinced that I actually wanted to stop trying too

     I just need a hand to hold.

wanting to turn cold on the world, for the people on it
or maybe because i'm living with it
i'm myself's only one
i don't belong to such close people
i can't love. more i love. deeper it gets. meaning less it turns into.
don't know if i find her attractive anymore as i use to