Today,
I found out you moved on,
I realized how little you actually loved me.
How little I meant to you
I was doing fine till today
When i seen the post, i tried to hold in the tears
But i couldn't help it. I started to cry,
To be honest I don’t know why
I don’t want to be with you,
But i guess I still love you
Why though why do I love someone  who hurt me so much
How could someone who lied so much
Still have a part of me
But Also today
I realized I need to love myself
I am the only one who can full the hole inside of me
I need to love myself before I try yo love anyone else
I realized I don't need you
You do not determine my worth
All I need is Myself

One day you might be torn apart. life might be falling around you and you just sit there holding it all in because it's all you can do. you are waiting for the floor to fall from under you and it hurts so much to keep quiet to not want to bother others because you know they have problems of their own and you know that someone cares but you don't know who and you feel all alone even in a room full of people. you feel like an outcast and you act like everyone else you act like life isn’t killing you. you tell everyone it's okay. you are fine but you know if they make eye contact. you will break. you will cry in front of someone, so you avoid eye contact no matter what. you can not show how hurt you are. no one will understand. they probably don't even care. Just hold it all in and hopefully it will just disappear.