Those teaching us to survive
Are always the ones
Trying to take life from us

I wish I could say I'm in love
But right now I'm not so sure
Not even about myself

It's a pity
That my lovely hopeless heart
is eternally
Dammed
To a sinful and wondering
Body

The night air was cold
Spring was in bloom
So were those rising emotions
The only warmth in the earth around us
Was coming from us
Little lightning bugs mocking the stars above
Teasing them for our amusement
The world was singing in moonlight
All for you, maybe, for us
In that pale blue
We were simply Spring with the rest of the world

I wish you were the one
Sitting across from me in that chair
Time spent with you
Is far more precious than anything
Even in the tiny space
We would have between us
Is so much energy
It moves the galaxies

And into the abyss it went
Everything

Or better yet
Shut the **** up
And just kiss me

The rush of having those stunning emeralds
Piercing down to the core
Everything inside beats faster
But the world around spins no different
Does it not know what is about to happen?

The fading green gems growing closer
It's going to happen
But where is the title wave?
The rush is gone and turns to heat
Scorching deserts of embarrassment flourish
Cactus needles fill the gaps in time

Looks like it's not this time
But maybe some time soon

...or at least I hope

What the ****
Am I to do
When everything
Comes back to you?

You leave me beaten
Like you do
Always my heart aching
Black and blue

I'd tell you I love you
But I'd hate to wake you
From this dream of perfection
And let my honest touch taint you

I ran across our messages today
****- reading your name haunts me
Seeing the image of your face
Shatters my heart
Knowing I loved you completely
As you waited to tear me apart
If only forgetting you was for me
As was as killing me was for you

When consoling people
Most try to be soothing
Not accusing

Hes not the love of my life
Hes just a lover tonight

You're curse will be
Knowing that every time
You close your eyes you will see my crying face
And you will know
It was all your fault

You kiss with infected lips
With the expectation of being healed
Failing to realize
the sickness you spread

She has the kinda face
who needs a saving grace

Baby, hes' a charmer
but I'll tell ya he'll harm her

He is actually the devil
but she'll take your heart and revel

I think you know their fate
but it's already too late

I can give you
Everything
You've ever wanted
You, however,
Need to figure that out first

Her hands melted right into mine
The perfect fit, one of a kind
I was gifted the words in which to speak
The flavored sentences to make her weak
Too perfect to exist, God had made her
Lust had consumed me, Satan her sender
But lust had to be my least worry
When my heart departed in a hurry
It leaped right into her sweet soft eyes
Without any warrant or comprimise
When the hell will I come to realize
My heart wishes for my own demise
But yet another chance I give, to my own
Surprise

Death always comes in the form of loss
Destruction travels by flames

I could have been something
But your fire
had boiled me down to nothing

Mix drinks
Not emotions

I'm honestly searching for something
It doesn't have to be serious
But it needs to be genuine

You spill too much information
to lie to me now
and think you can get away with it

He let me sing
Songs on end
For moments that felt as if they would never end
Through my belting
and maybe a few tears
He understood my suffering
And in his silence
I knew he had a plan to me

These creeping thoughts of You
Are all too tiring
My eyes still wander
Thought the gallery of my mind
Imagines distorted by the thin grime
Of sentimentality and nostalgia

But the You to me
Was never truly to you that You are
The You to me was only the version of You
I stowed away in my visions
And held almost forgotten in my heart

For when I gaze upon You now
My eyes beg to shut
For reality doesn't align with
The mirages of my memories
Words You speak
Mimic Your tone
But fail to reach my understanding
Your helpless screams of
Swirling dread and fear of your end

I can't keep visiting You
For You are in the past
The You that lives on now
Is a timeless captive who may never grow
Or change
Abandoned to fade
And share the same doom as those fated memories of You

And I cannot look for You
In my future
Because the You are to me now
Perhaps the true You to you
Is stuck in a space
Left behind My in time
Still waking to fight the tireless battles
Of Your war torn mind
Capsizing over the paralysis of each decision
A despair that is not mine to carry

I shouldn't be alone
In a place as Beautiful
As this

There should be no tears shed
In paradise

You're not my sunshine
You're my candle
I don't want to share your light
As you lead me out of the dark

My greatest enemy-
      Has always been myself

No other demon could-
      Smile so sweetly

Not even the Devil would-
      Laugh so openly

I hear you
You speak in nascent flowers
But breathe out raw sewage
Your to tongue writhes with lies
While your heart suffocates
Soon silence will be left to flourish
Then my ears will no longer bleed
When I have to hear you

Today the little birdie screamed out and told me
I was worth saving
*We're all worth saving

Once again
She sleeps with the monster she created
Knowing full well in the morning
He will have left with the moon
For what he feels for her
Is only what she wants to see in him

Maybe he took too much
More than he deserved
Little gaps in my heart
Filled for just the tiniest moments
He took it from me
All the loniness
Maybe then replace it,
Even by no fault of his own,
With the emptiness

I would rip out your eyes
If it meant I never had to look deep into them
And trick myself back into falling in love
Looking so deep
I become a time traveler
Going to the times when we were perfect
Like all other travelers before me
I know I can't stay in the past

Here I am
Naked in this bed
Alone
Feeling empty
Or is it the bed...
Who is empty
I don't know.
I stopped thinking
Too much about anything
After the clock on the wall
Began laughing at me.
I mean,
What time is it even?
How many hours have passed
Since you left?

Necesitaba más amor
de lo que tuviste que dar

So many past names
And almost given last names
Too much to ever keep track of
Who the hell are you?
Who am I supposed to become?

Too many passing glances
And familiar faces
To ever keep straight
I'm sorry, do I know you?
Do I even know myself?

We grow our love
In a garden of weeds

Cheers to the girl
Who ripped my heart
To keep hers beating

Skimming sensation
From anothers skin
Has hollowed me out
Made every last corner
Emptier than the whiskey
Because not even drinking
Fills the hole you left anymore

"I never did." he said as he walked away forever.

It was in that moment
While lights were dim
and the temperature rising
That losing myself
To retain you
Became too much to bare

I miss you like the sun misses the moon:
Each day
And every night.

I thought of you
In the pale glow of the early moon
My fingers melted into every inch
Until my body shook
And my legs quivered
My jaw tensed
As my body sighed
Then all at once the bliss
Poured over me like crashing waves
Wave after wave of inocence lost
Drifting into the sweetest dreams

Does it make me evil
To love him
More than myself?

Genuinely healing
Instead of hiding
Feels so **** good
Why didn't anyone tell me this before

When you left me
You took more than just my being
You stole my appetite

But when he's near
Each time he draws closer
He brings forth an animalistic hunger from deep within me

He pulls me in close to his heart as he sleeps because I know
He craves the sensation of my skin pressed against his own
Yet little be known I crave it worse than he does but my lips will remained sealed to protect those hearts

As for demons and devils
Keep them
I have my own