Maybe he's not you
And maybe I'll always miss you
But he will truly show me
What exactly I have missed out on
And he will take care of me
After you finish breaking my heart
I know he will pick up the pieces
And fill the missing gaps
With pieces of his own

I want to call you
While you're sleeping
And fill your voicemail
With love notes

He's not my lover
But I know the taste
Of his lips

I have never touched a god before
If I ever did, though, it would've been him
I could always see the constellations in his eyes
Not to mention the eternal flame in his soul
I should have known from his scent what he was
Sweet yet powerful all at once
A smell which brings tears of grace to the eye

I have never been touched by a god before
If I ever was- it would have been him
His fingers were strong but never hurt me
He put the light back into my heart
And with each graceful sweep of his glance
He rid me of my insecurities
My eyes began to shine like the stars in his

Together we stay above the sky
Watching the jealous stars below

Hand me the script baby,
And I'll do the rest

Anyone can put pen to paper and cause a smile
The difference is when
He put a pen to paper and made my heart sing

You throw me down
Onto the bed
Just to watch me giggle
And count the stars in my eyes

He touched the hole in my chest
Without hesitation he dove into his own
Holding out the beating ***** to me
Leaving himself empty
To make me whole

Close the pack baby*
He whispers to my weakness
*Lighters are only used
To burn the past
Or escape the darkness
With me you've already done both

Warm and gentle- like the dew on crisp grass
He looked at me with a smile
As he ran his finger through my hair- and I dared to ask
What are you looking at?
I laughed through my words
Quiet and swift
"Nothing more than the most beautiful sunrise"
Where? There are no windows in this room
He just laughed and threw the blanket over our heads
Like a storm cloud snuffing out all the light
But still he insisted, pushing the hair from my face
Steady and strong like a soothing breeze
"You're my sunrise- the most perfect one God has ever blessed man with"
Sigh
"But selfishly I'll admit that I am the only one to cherish this mornings grace"

You gave me a penguin to help me fly
I laughed at the irony behind it
Sternly, you told me believing was all flying took
The penguin wasn't to show me how
But how not to let fear stop me

As I lay down to sleep
All I want to dream of is
You

Every inch of your body calls to mine
Baby,
I'm just here to answer

I'm still in your notebook
Long after you've left
My page remains
Being open was hard for you
I get that
Not all of us can bare to share
But I pushed you away
For that I'm sorry
If you ever need me again
I'll still remain in your notebook

I seek out those
Who look like you
Because I want to find you
In everything

Knowing all too well
That those little similarities
Will never actually amount to all of you

With each treacherous kiss
You ripped the words from my tongue
You snatched the power from my lips
Everything I had- you consumed
Leaving me with nothing

The strange man walked in
As he entered- my breath left
My heart didn't skip, no
My heart was caught in a whirl wind

You're so stuck in your ego
That you need to think
All my tweets are written for you
How foolish

Entonces,
Mi alma debe ser perfecto
Con buena salud

He would catch every falling flake
Just so it doesn't melt me with it

I'm not scared to die
I'm sacred to live through it
And suffer the weight
Of another failure

I should stop worrying
About where I am in life
Relative to everyone else

I forget that I alone
Am floating at the center
Of my universe

Is something grown in trust
And nurtured in integrity
Not something you can just assume
Because you see your partner
Holding it all

To be another's weakness
What an honor
To know a life could have such an impact on another

To make the individual weak
But together as a whole
To use the weakness
To be stronger

What a privilege
To be intertwined with another
To touch that soul
To make it weak
So in turn
Both may be greater

What a silly thing
Love
What a fickle thing
Emotion
What a wonderful thing
Life

What a weakness it is to find strength in
Love
Emotion
Life

All with another
To be
Whole

With claws so sharp it's easy to see
Why you tear me down so often without a second thought
The poison I ingest daily
Comes in the form of the little words you think hold no meaning
Your tacky glue won't hold us together
If all you do is throw out the pieces at your feet
Maybe when you look at me
-how I look at you
You'll know the pain of watching the mold break

If you don't like
The words I say to you

You're not going to love
The ones I write about you

How could you stand there and say
Forever and Always
To someone
You knew you didn't want
Now or ever?

Tú eres mi mundo
y lo más importante para mi

I am never going to find in you
What I need to be searching for
Within myself

Every inch of my skin
Becomes explored by your fingers
Completely and utterly naked
But you build me up
I'm **** but not vulnerable
I'm **** but not disrespectable
You treat me like the fair maiden
I never knew I could be

I am in a place
That you can't comprehend
Because if you had ever been here
You would have never made it out

You were supposed to be
my hero.
So then tell my why
in the face of the fire and flames
you left me to perish alone.

You can only torment a soul for so long
Before it rejects you as its master.

And you'll never see the pain
The ache you give my body
As you sit there alone
Pretending the sting in your existence
Only punishes you

Learning the art of disassociation is easy!
Anyone can do it
Begin by being the c**t you are
Good
Now look one of your friends in the eye
No, not that one. Make it a best friend.
Hold their heart in your hand
Shove it in the ground at their feet
Walk awa-
Oh, you're already going?
Wow, looks like you've done this before
Finally you've mastered the art of disassociation

I wish I could be there for you
Every time you need a tune of loss
So I could sing you the song of victory

In the cold
My petals fall
The stem rips all it can from the ground
Soil seeking revenge
Gives nothing up
And eventually
the stem follows the dying tragedy

As I gaze out the window
So goes my soul

To the trees I run
Into the forest I go

Each tree being something different
Something– amazing

My fingers lingered on bark
And my toes danced in the dirt

Once I reached the heart of the forest
I planted my feet

Oh woah
I knew

All was connected
All was one

Each tree
An individual beauty

But together
Together was magnificent

Just hold my hand
as we cross this bridge
A gap between youth and aging
No where near dying
But deathly afraid of growing old

Just hold my hand
We don't have to do it alone
I've got you
And you've always had me

Standing in a city of shadows
My back to the wind
All is looking up

The looming can't last
The spirits will dissipate
And I will be left to stand alone

In this sardonic city of shadows

the whisper of the leaves kisse my ears
like lovers lips that anoint my cheek

eyes closed
heart open

   but just like the breeze
I can no longer feel your touch

I can hear them laughing
While drinking
And I resent them for it

Because I
Am only good at drinking alone

And I refuse to kiss
Spoiled flesh

Love is a chemical reaction
Its the rush of things mixing in the brain
The sweaty palms and achy legs
Nights filled with lengthy texts
Leading up to the risky three words:
"I love you"

Lust in a physical desire
Its the rush of rolling in another's sheets
The sweaty bodies and shaky limbs
Nights filled with screams of desire
Leading up to the routine phrase:
"Let's ****"

Know that at 11:40 pm
I could have destroyed you
I could have killed you one last time
I didn't because some part of me loved you
But at 11:43 pm you killed that last part
You destroyed a tiny piece of me
Shows how much you love me

The flaw from yesterday
Is not the flaw of today
Today's flaw is the fact
That I believed I was flawed yesterday

Speak as you wish
But I'll believe as I may

I'm drained and damaged
And oddly never broken

I just can't do it
I can't stand
to hear your voice
and not feel your breath

Please don't grow impatient
with all the time I'll take
realize I'm spending my time
clearing a space for you