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Mya Aug 2017
Remember all those years ago?
They warned us that all that time together wasn't good-
Was not healthy- but its not like we were on a diet
We drank in the warmth of each others company
And feasted on delightful conversation

Now, when you leave I know why we were warned
I put the weakest peaces of myself in you, hoping that
Maybe when you leave, I would only be stronger
All I did was tear myself apart

When you go my mind beings to decompose
You were all that kept it alive
My monsters creep out form the closet
Like every day is Halloween, but they're not after candy-
They're after me

My heart breaks down
I can feel the pieces fall into my gut
Those soft eyes kept it pumping
The lack of you is dangerous
All of me falls apat

Constantly and only when you're gone

I know why they said it wasn't healthy for us
Because you replaced all my other addictions
I cry and beat my head against the wall because I know
Nothing I could smoke would **** the lingering pain like you
Without you, I'm just a shell waiting to be filled again
....with anything

Which is why I do what I do-
When the distance is unbearable
Someone else offers to fill me with light
Sometimes I think it might be love
It never is, and I don't think it ever could have been
Love is the chemical my brain produces when my heart starts beating
Only ever reanimated and put back together by your gaze

Letting you walk away is a dangerous game
Time is the unbearable theashold
How long is too long before I become
More than just empty...too empty
Or too broken

It all sounds bad, I know, but that is not the case
I learned something while being entertained by others
You are all I ever need
I was emptied faster with them- they were not you
This distance is killing me, however, that is not a problem
Because you alone can bring me back to life



...never forget though, it still rains every moment you're gone
Forever yours, babucakes.
129 · Jul 2018
Whiskey Feelings (pt. 3)
Mya Jul 2018
He makes me feel warmer
Than the whiskey as it goes down
129 · Nov 2017
Reason #33
Mya Nov 2017
If I drink enough
Maybe I'll find you
At the bottom of this ******* bottle
Mya Jun 2018
Skimming sensation
From anothers skin
Has hollowed me out
Made every last corner
Emptier than the whiskey
Because not even drinking
Fills the hole you left anymore
Baby, please just come home.
129 · May 2018
Lunar Torment
Mya May 2018
I miss you like the sun misses the moon:
Each day
And every night.
128 · Dec 2018
What kills the most
Mya Dec 2018
Is knowing that you'll be the one
To break my heart
For the last time

Theres nothing I can do
Or want to do
To stop you

I know my fate and the role you play
So I'm here to love you
Until the moment you destroy the last pieces of me
All I ask is you make it quick.
127 · Mar 2018
Question 11
Mya Mar 2018
Are things truly
better this way?
Mya Jun 2018
With you I can keep my eyes open
And the dream still unfolds.
I don't have to waste time sleeping
Just to have you next to me.
I love you.
126 · Jun 2018
Honey Feelings
Mya Jun 2018
These honey feelings
You have me stuck in
Leave me breathless
And sticky
Things get jumbled together
Maybe things that shouldn't
And everything becomes
Foggy and hazy
This process continues
Until not even the bees
Want it back
I thought you were sweet- but when I looked for the bees, all I got were the flies.
126 · Oct 2018
You should probably go
Mya Oct 2018
Before my heart claims you
And my head regrets it in the morning
Sorry, it happens more often than you'd think.
126 · Jun 2018
The Lake and my Lover
Mya Jun 2018
I miss the taste
Of the Lake
On my lovers longing lips

I miss the smell of the water
In his hair
As I run my fingers through it

I miss the sun
Reflecting off the crystal brown surface
In his eyes.

Through him
I guess
I still miss the Lake
Where does my heart truly belong?
126 · Jan 2018
Skip Button
Mya Jan 2018
I've had you playing in my head
Playing on repeat for days
Like every other catchy song before you
I wish I was able to leave you in the past
125 · Jan 2018
Do you think of me still?
Mya Jan 2018
I hate you
Because you're the reason my mind races at night
But have I
ever made yours skip a beat?
125 · Sep 2018
That's how it goes
Mya Sep 2018
I am in a place
That you can't comprehend
Because if you had ever been here
You would have never made it out
125 · Dec 2017
Reason #205
Mya Dec 2017
The hardest part is
Even after all this time
The torture and tears
Heartbreak and sorrow
I still love you
And there's still nothing I can do
To make you love me
123 · Jun 2018
Spiced Rum
Mya Jun 2018
He's not my lover
But I know the taste
Of his lips
That's why getting drunk off him is so easy.
Mya Oct 2018
I don't know how to say it to you.
...So,
I guess I just shouldn't,
right?
122 · Oct 2018
I'm My Own Nightmare
Mya Oct 2018
The number one cause of being let down


Is hoping in the first place
122 · Apr 12
Breathe
Mya Apr 12
May the Sun provide you the comfort
The Moon stripped you of
122 · Mar 2018
Close Your Eyes, My Friend
Mya Mar 2018
I wish you'd never read my words again
So I can tell my tales of hurt and heart break
Love, lust, and war
without fear of worry
122 · Jan 2018
Drunken Eyes
Mya Jan 2018
Your problem is
You can only see beauty when you're drunk
And I
Was beautiful always
122 · Mar 2018
Question 9
Mya Mar 2018
Why does self-destruction
Yield self-gratification
regardless of how ephemeral?
122 · Jun 2018
Its too complex
Mya Jun 2018
I wish I could say I'm in love
But right now I'm not so sure
Not even about myself
121 · Sep 2018
What love is now
Mya Sep 2018
I can tell how he's doing
Just by how he answers the phone
Not all love gets better when time. Sometimes it's something else wearing a mask called love to trick you. Never fall for something that your heart cant disappear into.
121 · Nov 2017
Dear Dad,
Mya Nov 2017
The way you hugged the bottle
Tighter than you ever held me
Allowed me to see fatherly love
For a toxin much stronger than myself
Something inanimate
That would take the pain away
Like my smile never did
I guess my love for you
Could never heal like the whiskey
121 · Jun 2018
The Lake (pt. 3)
Mya Jun 2018
The Lake
Rejected
Me
Even when
I thought
I was worthy
Even when
I was finally ready.
121 · Oct 2018
Sharing it
Mya Oct 2018
The sunset looks so much more
Brutal
Without you
120 · Mar 2018
Question 10
Mya Mar 2018
If not me,
then who?
Mya Feb 2018
I didn't ask to fall for you
But that didn't stop you
from catching me
I just want to be back with you- falling from grace.
120 · Mar 2018
Curled Lips
Mya Mar 2018
Ice cold
lies told
To keep his heart beating
Would you even recognize the truth?
120 · Jul 2018
Drinking Problem (pt. 2)
Mya Jul 2018
The only problem
I have with my drinking
Is the problem you have
With my drinking habits
119 · Jul 2018
Question #?
Mya Jul 2018
Do I even know how to love?
Or how to know love?
119 · Sep 2018
She doesn't even know
Mya Sep 2018
I would do so many bad things
For that one good girl
119 · Jun 2018
I am a child of the Earth
Mya Jun 2018
I'm ready to let Mother
Turn my toes to roots
And mend me back into the soil

My arms reaching for the warmth
And healing from the sun
To help me grow

I'll wait for the rain
To pour down on me
And wash all I do not need away
But what the water misses- can be drown out in flames.
118 · Nov 2017
Distance
Mya Nov 2017
From the center of the moon
To the deepest part of the ocean
No...
The distance between stars
Millions of years away-
No...
The distance between the stings of my heart
And every other gap in between
That's how much I need you
118 · Oct 2018
The Gap in Waves
Mya Oct 2018
I just can't do it
I can't stand
to hear your voice
and not feel your breath
118 · Mar 2018
Worry with Moonlight
Mya Mar 2018
Is it wrong
to burn souls
In order to save my own?

When it comes down to it,
humans will do anything
for self-prevalence
and survival

So,
does the arson make me evil?
118 · Oct 2018
Im after love
Mya Oct 2018
Look Honey,
I bet you're funny

You're oh so sweet
I felt your friction and the heat

But this has got to end
I'm not looking for just another friend
118 · Jun 2018
Just admit that you love me
Mya Jun 2018
Or better yet
Shut the **** up
And just kiss me
I love you, probably too much.
117 · Jun 2018
Long Gone?
Mya Jun 2018
Here I am
Naked in this bed
Alone
Feeling empty
Or is it the bed...
Who is empty
I don't know.
I stopped thinking
Too much about anything
After the clock on the wall
Began laughing at me.
I mean,
What time is it even?
How many hours have passed
Since you left?
Mya Mar 2018
-this shooting star shoots across the Sky
Like the tears rolling down my satin cheeks
An invisible corset tying itself around my chest
As if it couldn't also see the imperfections somewhere lower
117 · Jun 2018
Sleepless in Denial
Mya Jun 2018
My mind races at night
Because I know you're running
   -around with her
117 · Sep 2018
Hush
Mya Sep 2018
Rest now baby girl
You'll need your strength
for when he tries again tomorrow
116 · Jan 2018
Drought
Mya Jan 2018
When it comes down to it
I always thought you would be the one to cry over
But after all this time and no tears
I guess I had nothing to fear
116 · Apr 2018
Passing Lights
Mya Apr 2018
I counted each and every set of headlights
Hoping they would add up to you
116 · Jan 2018
Chilled Through the Seasons
Mya Jan 2018
I bet you could frost me over
Even in the middle of summer
115 · Jan 2018
Falling into Winter
Mya Jan 2018
I want to push him down
into a pile of leaves
Laughing the way children do
I'd fall backwards and he'd catch me
Looking into his beautiful green eyes
resembling the still crisp evergreens
Oh, the trees would be jealous
But also proud-
for their leaves were not wasted
We would lay and watch
the world move on around us
Flowers wilting
Clouds fleeing
Snow eventually following
When its time to fall
into his arms once more
not wrapped in leaves
But in blankets of his love
115 · Jan 2018
Ode to my Wasted Time
Mya Jan 2018
For all of the special somethings
I did for my special someone
Who made me feel like no one
115 · Apr 15
Amnesia
Mya Apr 15
You think I miss you
You think I'd miss you
But I already don't
even remember your name
Mya Oct 2018
This is a game.
I wouldn't lie to you,
it really is.
But don't think
for one ******* second
that I didn't come here to win.
All is fair, my Love.
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