My words could never be
As beautiful as her soul
Or complete as her person

Roses are red
Thier petals are hot
I made it clear that I love you
But you did not

He makes me feel warmer
Than the whiskey as it goes down

Is knowing that you'll be the one
To break my heart
For the last time

Theres nothing I can do
Or want to do
To stop you

I know my fate and the role you play
So I'm here to love you
Until the moment you destroy the last pieces of me

Skimming sensation
From anothers skin
Has hollowed me out
Made every last corner
Emptier than the whiskey
Because not even drinking
Fills the hole you left anymore

If I drink enough
Maybe I'll find you
At the bottom of this ******* bottle

I miss you like the sun misses the moon:
Each day
And every night.

May the Sun provide you the comfort
The Moon stripped you of

Are things truly
better this way?

Before my heart claims you
And my head regrets it in the morning

I am in a place
That you can't comprehend
Because if you had ever been here
You would have never made it out

I miss the taste
Of the Lake
On my lovers longing lips

I miss the smell of the water
In his hair
As I run my fingers through it

I miss the sun
Reflecting off the crystal brown surface
In his eyes.

Through him
I guess
I still miss the Lake

With you I can keep my eyes open
And the dream still unfolds.
I don't have to waste time sleeping
Just to have you next to me.

I've had you playing in my head
Playing on repeat for days
Like every other catchy song before you
I wish I was able to leave you in the past

These honey feelings
You have me stuck in
Leave me breathless
And sticky
Things get jumbled together
Maybe things that shouldn't
And everything becomes
Foggy and hazy
This process continues
Until not even the bees
Want it back

I hate you
Because you're the reason my mind races at night
But have I
ever made yours skip a beat?

The hardest part is
Even after all this time
The torture and tears
Heartbreak and sorrow
I still love you
And there's still nothing I can do
To make you love me

He's not my lover
But I know the taste
Of his lips

The number one cause of being let down


Is hoping in the first place

I can tell how he's doing
Just by how he answers the phone

You think I miss you
You think I'd miss you
But I already don't
even remember your name

I don't know how to say it to you.
...So,
I guess I just shouldn't,
right?

The sunset looks so much more
Brutal
Without you

Your problem is
You can only see beauty when you're drunk
And I
Was beautiful always

The way you hugged the bottle
Tighter than you ever held me
Allowed me to see fatherly love
For a toxin much stronger than myself
Something inanimate
That would take the pain away
Like my smile never did
I guess my love for you
Could never heal like the whiskey

Why does self-destruction
Yield self-gratification
regardless of how ephemeral?

I wish you'd never read my words again
So I can tell my tales of hurt and heart break
Love, lust, and war
without fear of worry

I wish I could say I'm in love
But right now I'm not so sure
Not even about myself

Ice cold
lies told
To keep his heart beating

The Lake
Rejected
Me
Even when
I thought
I was worthy

I would do so many bad things
For that one good girl

I didn't ask to fall for you
But that didn't stop you
from catching me

The only problem
I have with my drinking
Is the problem you have
With my drinking habits

If not me,
then who?

I'm ready to let Mother
Turn my toes to roots
And mend me back into the soil

My arms reaching for the warmth
And healing from the sun
To help me grow

I'll wait for the rain
To pour down on me
And wash all I do not need away

From the center of the moon
To the deepest part of the ocean
No...
The distance between stars
Millions of years away-
No...
The distance between the stings of my heart
And every other gap in between

I just can't do it
I can't stand
to hear your voice
and not feel your breath

Do I even know how to love?

Look Honey,
I bet you're funny

You're oh so sweet
I felt your friction and the heat

But this has got to end
I'm not looking for just another friend

Or better yet
Shut the **** up
And just kiss me

Rest now baby girl
You'll need your strength
for when he tries again tomorrow

Is it wrong
to burn souls
In order to save my own?

When it comes down to it,
humans will do anything
for self-prevalence
and survival

So,
does the arson make me evil?

Here I am
Naked in this bed
Alone
Feeling empty
Or is it the bed...
Who is empty
I don't know.
I stopped thinking
Too much about anything
After the clock on the wall
Began laughing at me.
I mean,
What time is it even?
How many hours have passed
Since you left?

My mind races at night
Because I know you're running
   -around with her

-this shooting star shoots across the Sky
Like the tears rolling down my satin cheeks
An invisible corset tying itself around my chest
As if it couldn't also see the imperfections somewhere lower

Even now
I realize my life has fallen victim
To some sick metaphor

At this point I'm called
Not by my given name
But of that of a flower

Rose

And for me,
Many times,
Love has come and love has gone

And I burn for the things I have done
I am douced in the flames of infidelity
But I've seen the flowers burning

It's common,
When love dies,
To see the image of fire- set to the lovely petals  

roses

So then, why,
After love has left me yet again
Should I be surprised that I'm burning still?

This is a game.
I wouldn't lie to you,
it really is.
But don't think
for one ******* second
that I didn't come here to win.

When it comes down to it
I always thought you would be the one to cry over
But after all this time and no tears
I guess I had nothing to fear

I bet you could frost me over
Even in the middle of summer

I counted each and every set of headlights
Hoping they would add up to you