Kiss me
Under the wounded twilight

Take me
Under the bleeding starlight

Hate me
For the depleting moonlight

Leave me
Due to the judging sunlight

Even now
I realize my life has fallen victim
To some sick metaphor

At this point I'm called
Not by my given name
But of that of a flower

Rose

And for me,
Many times,
Love has come and love has gone

And I burn for the things I have done
I am douced in the flames of infidelity
But I've seen the flowers burning

It's common,
When love dies,
To see the image of fire- set to the lovely petals  

roses

So then, why,
After love has left me yet again
Should I be surprised that I'm burning still?

I'm drained and damaged
And oddly never broken

**** this place.

I want my coffee white as the snow
And bitter as the man I thought I loved

I was always enough
In fact,
I was everything you ever wanted
Needed
Thank god,
You finally realized that

Why can't my heart let you go?

She has your face
This much is true
But with her soul
She wears it better than you

The time I spent in his green eyes
Has me spinning
Drunk off the rush and beauty
I could feel them tenderly stripping away my passion
and silencing my conscience

My body aches still to be touched
Despite my heart's fear of desire
of one day beating
-only for him

After all,
the challenge was
to keep hearts out

Don't call him
He's not waiting for it anyway

Just hold my hand
as we cross this bridge
A gap between youth and aging
No where near dying
But deathly afraid of growing old

Just hold my hand
We don't have to do it alone
I've got you
And you've always had me

He would catch every falling flake
Just so it doesn't melt me with it

Laying there
Leaving morals behind
Rolling in hues of grey
Heating up shades of red
Tension builds
But so does the emptiness
The faux passion is daunting
With the heaviest prospect being-
Betrayal of the heart
Weeping of the mind
Along side
The overall deterioration

I would say I got the last laugh
That I was able to rip you apart
But it seems the loneliness
Beat me to it

Looks like after all this trouble
All these broken promises
Shattered and abused hearts
You were still my biggest mistake
Not for just what you did
But for believing I would be able to love you

Science says that we are mostly water
If that were true then I should be able to melt away
To slip though all of the little cracks
And drift in a direction from it all

But here I still sit
Wishing that if I was not water
That I could be invisible
Even science has no evidence of that ever happening

I'm constantly backed into the corner of society
Friendless and not all there
Riddled with the things that make psychologists giggle
Just someone else's side project

You're my ghost-
Or that's always how I speak of you.
Telling tales of how you haunt me
Over and over
Night again sending agony through me
Something lingers still-
Pulling me though the places of my mind
Leave me be
Set me free
Yearning to find love
In something other than the void you left beind
So, I'll beg you this once more
Let my soul go
Just like you had no problem with doing to my body

Warm and gentle- like the dew on crisp grass
He looked at me with a smile
As he ran his finger through my hair- and I dared to ask
What are you looking at?
I laughed through my words
Quiet and swift
"Nothing more than the most beautiful sunrise"
Where? There are no windows in this room
He just laughed and threw the blanket over our heads
Like a storm cloud snuffing out all the light
But still he insisted, pushing the hair from my face
Steady and strong like a soothing breeze
"You're my sunrise- the most perfect one God has ever blessed man with"
Sigh
"But selfishly I'll admit that I am the only one to cherish this mornings grace"

Please come back to me
Even if it's in another life

Like a tree I gave you life
As a human you cut me down
I had more value to you dead

Tides that are bigger than you will always turn
That doesn't mean you have to go with the current

I stare at these blank pages
Wanting to spill my soul
Knowing **** well
That's there's nothing left to empty

In a few hours
The sun will come up
He will be gone
And will any of it
Even matter?

You're not my sunshine
You're my candle
I don't want to share your light
As you lead me out of the dark

Marks the spot
Where you buried my heart

A boy once told me
You can't expect the one who hurt you
to be the same one who fixes you
And ****
Did I not want that to be the truth

Oops...
But those words never fixed anything

Puff puff puff
'Till my lungs turn black
I want to love him
But he'll never love me back

She's probably as pure as a daisy
I can't wait to show her my thorns

With all this in me
will I ever be sober again?

There are better things to cry about
But somehow it's always you

I'm still paranoid
And I'm sorry
I tried so hard
To smoke you away
That I almost did

When my heart belongs to you:
I'm free

The tears that roll
Because of you
Always taste the saltiest

Only fools say:
"I should have known better"
Because a wise person
Would have never made such mistakes

You called today
I didn't pick up
Because I don't love you
Until I see you loving her

Good-bye to those
who chose to walk away
You did all you could
to save yourself in the end
Your happiness is all I could have asked for

I wrote your name today
And I couldn't picture your face

Tú ibas mi ángel
Pero
Tú eres el diablo ahora

Hes the one
Because even in the silence
There is a melody between us
Sometimes the stark sound of nothing
Comforts more than frivolous words

When you left me
You took more than just my being
You stole my appetite

But when he's near
Each time he draws closer
He brings forth an animalistic hunger from deep within me

There's no poetic way
To say everything is ****
Some grim realities
Can't be glued
To the wings of butterflies

I want to love you
Will all of my being
So why do you insist
On making it so **** hard?

Death always comes in the form of loss
Destruction travels by flames

You played so much with smoke and mirrors
I didn't even notice the smoke coming from the fire you set under me

Please write
If not to me
Then for me

These whiskey feelings
I give myself
Straight from the bottle
Are often sweeter
Than you ever were

In the souls
Of these random people
Without taking from them
I'm still able to gather thier pieces
And patch my soul back together

I tossed my body around like a rag doll
until it wasn't even recognizable
as human anymore
Sunset through sunrise
this cycle is how I can justify
doing all the inhumane actions
the routine everyday life the choices I make
can clearly be done so
because what is being done
isn't being done to a human soul

I saw The End today
We didn't to out in glory
No, it wasn't swinging either.
We fizzled away
Through little red lines
Floods of salt water rained down
Showering me in humility
You in shame
Tearing flesh
Tore us away