While you prowl
In the dim moonlight
I pray you please
Please dont touch him.

He wont be able to resist you
And your boundless temptations
But you are more
You are capable of compassion

I cant bear to see
What you'll do to him
And what he will reciprocate
And how my heart will punish itself

Does it make me evil
To love him
More than myself?

It became
All too real
Excitement
Passion
Grace
But so did the
Fear and
Loss

But not hope
It will be the light
To guide me back
Into your arms

Cold
And coated in ice

Have you ever
cried so hard
your teeth rattled
and your body shook
So much so,
that you were convinced
without a doubt
that your entire being
would crack and crumble too?

From every nights hearbreak
To the next mornings hangover
I can't seem to stop loving you
And **** it hurts

Let me feel that freedom
That you feel
When you choose her
Over me

If you spent less time
Fighting yourself
Maybe you'd actually
Be able to save someone else

But how can you stand on your own cape
As your hair catches fire
And tell the world it's fine?

Silver clouds
raining down
flood the world
and let it drown

Taint the soil
let it boil
one last call
end it all

sunlight shatters
did it matter?
in this finale
where will you be

in the arms of love
or dying of
the silver liquid

Dont let the right time
Lead you into the arms
Of the wrong person

You spill too much information
to lie to me now
and think you can get away with it

You won't see me again under this moon
You won't even be
Seeing your own bed tonight,
will you?

Trying to survive you
Will be what kills me

And I'm still falling
I'm still in love

My beautiful body
Tainted by a wicked mind

Some monsters have hearts
And we become the monsters
When we dont look for them

I guess all I have been trying to say is:
This all hurt,
More than anything I have ever had to feel
But I hope she can love you
In all of the ways that I couldn't

I liked the days better when
You were begging to hold my hand
As we froze beneath the winter sun
Rather than it being pushed away
While me welt from the weight of the summer star

Poems can't mend every hearbreak
But I'll de dammed if I don't try

How long will it take me to see
That out of all my pain and agony
Eventually comes beauty and grace?

Those teaching us to survive
Are always the ones
Trying to take life from us

The words you give me
Taste sweeter than honey

I'm in desperate need of saving
But only worthy of being saved
When I beg for it first

These whiskey feelings
I give myself
Straight from the cup
Tonight
**** me more than anything else
And leave me more empty
Than I have ever been

Maybe he's not you
And maybe I'll always miss you
But he will truly show me
What exactly I have missed out on
And he will take care of me
After you finish breaking my heart
I know he will pick up the pieces
And fill the missing gaps
With pieces of his own

Its just the way that disappointment moves
Through the body
It leaves everything feeling empty
But heavy
And it ***** because
There isn't anyway to undo it

My words could never be
As beautiful as her soul
Or complete as her person

But not for me

The rain last night
Washed away my sins
But
What's going to wash away yours?

If I drink enough
Maybe I'll find you
At the bottom of this ******* bottle

My greatest fear
is that I'm going nowhere
too **** fast

This water
Has a strange way
Of making me want to die

No, no.
Not suicide
I don't want to die
I very much want to live
I love those around me
But

The water
That **** water
It calls to me in peace
Offering it at the bottom
Of the murky water

Everything you've ever wanted
It says
Just swim deep enough to find it
It sings
And I want to.

I want to plunge to the bottom
And find all that I think I deserve
Cold bitterness overpowering my lungs
And the peace and joy
I was always offered all along

It must be against some
Law of Nature
For me to be happy
Since every opportunity I've ever had
Rots and decays in my hand

Roses are red
Thier petals are hot
I made it clear that I love you
But you did not

I know goodbye
Isn't forever
But time without you
Feels like eternity

Seeking attention
From any of those
Willing to give it

My soul is on fire
Burning for all the sins
My body committed

Why is it so toxic
To love myself?

I won
I finally did
But still for her
I feel the loss
And pain
And I wish
Somewhere close to the surface
Of my heart
(Though I wish I could say it comes form a place deep down)
I could take the pain from her
I wish that I could carry it
Far from her
For she lays in this bed
Yet, by her own hands she did not make it
She was thrown into those sheets
Not a victim intentionally
But crowned so by fate.

I'm sorry.

He makes me feel warmer
Than the whiskey as it goes down

Skimming sensation
From anothers skin
Has hollowed me out
Made every last corner
Emptier than the whiskey
Because not even drinking
Fills the hole you left anymore

His honesty
Lights the way
To a home in him
I never knew I had

I miss you like the sun misses the moon:
Each day
And every night.

X

Remember all those years ago?
They warned us that all that time together wasn't good-
Was not healthy- but its not like we were on a diet
We drank in the warmth of each others company
And feasted on delightful conversation

Now, when you leave I know why we were warned
I put the weakest peaces of myself in you, hoping that
Maybe when you leave, I would only be stronger
All I did was tear myself apart

When you go my mind beings to decompose
You were all that kept it alive
My monsters creep out form the closet
Like every day is Halloween, but they're not after candy-
They're after me

My heart breaks down
I can feel the pieces fall into my gut
Those soft eyes kept it pumping
The lack of you is dangerous
All of me falls apat

Constantly and only when you're gone

I know why they said it wasn't healthy for us
Because you replaced all my other addictions
I cry and beat my head against the wall because I know
Nothing I could smoke would **** the lingering pain like you
Without you, I'm just a shell waiting to be filled again
....with anything

Which is why I do what I do-
When the distance is unbearable
Someone else offers to fill me with light
Sometimes I think it might be love
It never is, and I don't think it ever could have been
Love is the chemical my brain produces when my heart starts beating
Only ever reanimated and put back together by your gaze

Letting you walk away is a dangerous game
Time is the unbearable theashold
How long is too long before I become
More than just empty...too empty
Or too broken

It all sounds bad, I know, but that is not the case
I learned something while being entertained by others
You are all I ever need
I was emptied faster with them- they were not you
This distance is killing me, however, that is not a problem
Because you alone can bring me back to life



...never forget though, it still rains every moment you're gone

This time,
it just feels better.
A friendship built
from trying to gather notes,
instead of shirt buttons.
And sliding into chairs
next to other another
instead of sliding hands
down jeans.
This time feels better,
because this time is healthy.
And real.

With you I can keep my eyes open
And the dream still unfolds.
I don't have to waste time sleeping
Just to have you next to me.

Is knowing that you'll be the one
To break my heart
For the last time

Theres nothing I can do
Or want to do
To stop you

I know my fate and the role you play
So I'm here to love you
Until the moment you destroy the last pieces of me

How sweet is the sirens call
as she sits and waits
Her gaze is beatiful
and dangerous
Her melody so intoxicating
and deadly

Beware the beauty in the shadows
For it's nothing more than filth in the light

I've had you playing in my head
Playing on repeat for days
Like every other catchy song before you
I wish I was able to leave you in the past