It's sad that you dont see
A life with me

After all I'd ever give to you
But I will never do

Are you going to be
the next face to haunt me in my nightmare?

If you’ve never seen
A sunset in reverse
Then I envy you.

You then
Have never watched the colors fade
And turn to black

Even as
You were promised the saving grace
Of the sunlight.

Never once
Were you betrayed in the
darnkness
By your own heart.

If you have never seen
A sunset in reverse
Then I beg you.

Please remeber
The beautiful vibrance of the light
Bask in the radiance

Even as
You doubt the night it happened
And pretend it didnt hurt

Never once
Let the struggle consume your being
And drag you back

If you've never
A sunset in reverse
Then you've already healed

When I closed my eyes and dreamt of you
The visions I had were beautiful
-and cursed
You looked so lovely
-and my eyes couldn't break away
The way you reacted to the escalation
My heart fell
-so far down it broke the veil of slumber
My lips long for you
Other limbs quiver with anticipation
but my eyes-
I'm scared for them to close agian
In fear of the image never changing
backed with the fear those images
may even replay with my eyes open

Entonces,
Mi alma debe ser perfecto
Con buena salud

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Because if it's not one thing! Its another!
She screams and her words crack the floor beneath her.
I'm a horrible person- I ******* get it
They, trapped in a single body, throw their arms up.
Their words were faint- but heard.
I don't know how to love!
His remark shatters the sky
or how to be loved
those ones shatter her heart as he holds the other boys hand in the photo of his phone screen- where she once belonged
You don't understand that!
She said throwing the clothes her mother got her from the /mens/ department out the window
I'm battling demons that nobody understands
he looks in the mirror one last time with the glistening escape hanging ever so slightly off the edge of the sink
In a soft other worldly whisper,
Heard from everywhere,
Because it comes from everywhere:
Nobody will ever understand
---

i wear my heart on these pages
spread out like the ashes of my love
the phases of hurt spelled out in black
the moments of bliss dressed in white

Suddenly
My face wasn't the one you saw
When Life became too much to carry
...doesn't moving on feel good?

The ******* the other side of the glass looks back
Seeing into her own eyes
Touching the cold space in between the images
Which one was real?

Her heart raced as the cracks chased each other
It's all falling apart
Stepping back trying to keep an image clear
She's losing it

Pieces shatter and slide around the surface
Don't touch- they're sharp
The once clear picture now scrambled at her feet
The shards will make her bleed

I can feel your love fading
And that's fine.
I always knew
This day would come.
I just never anticipated
That I could be replaced so quickly.

His music carried me
Each note drifted me farther
To new places and sights
Only the richest person could ever hope to see

Each pass of his fingers showed me a new light
Something different I knew
He had never shown anyone before
The music was no longer just a sound

It was living in the room with us
Showing us how to feel
Guiding us to the stars
Slowly melding our souls together

His eyes never met mine
But how could they?
He was already in his blissful place
I stood watching from the neighboring star

I envied the noise
For being so close to him
Knowing every inch of his heart
Like maybe I will some day

I could fall in love with him
Probably because of his smile
The way it sets the dew before dawn
And makes way for morning's grace
Or maybe it's because of his words
When they wrap around me tighter
Than even my favorite jacket
Better yet, it comes from the core
Spinning me along for the ride
Keeping my feet on the ground
And close to his comforts

Every time
You ever told me
To stop
Being a piece of me
I remembered
All of your nights
Curled up to Jameson
And I realised
The only thing
That will
Ever make you whole again
Is going to be that bottle

I realised something in the car on my way home this morning,
and it was this:
I always say he's perfect,
And it is the most true thing I have ever said.
Fear follows this thought
Because
The thought of losing something has never been present
But the thought of losing perfection
Is horrifying.

I'd tell you I love you
But I'd hate to wake you
From this dream of perfection
And let my honest touch taint you

You dont love her
For the flower she is.

You don't kiss evey petal
As tender as the breeze intended.

You don't prop her stem
Allowing her to grow tall and strong.

You love her
Like your next victim
-like the prey you think she is

You love her
By giving her the water she needs
-only to drown her in it

You love her
By plucking her from the ground
-and ending her beauty

But here you are
On the frontlines
Fighting a war
For someone who will never
Wage the same battles
For you

I know you wouldn't approve,
but I love this girl, you see.
She's a little rough around the edges
but shes filled with sugar and baked
to the ripe warm temperature of perfection
when shes in my arms.

But wait, I know...
I know I'm losing you at this point,
and you don't want to hear
a word I've said but wait, just
Wait.

Momma, I love this girl, you see
and its messed up and killing me...
Because, well, she doesnt know
how my heart howls at the moon
aching for her to be near me.

I want to give her everything.
Even if that's just the fragile mist of time
which drizzled through the cracks
of this shattered reality and broke apart against the rocky surface of the ever-playing nightmare.

Momma, I'm sorry...
I'm so sorry if you dont love me,
for the love I have for her.
But right now, I'm watching her
love someone else and Momma,
Momma, its killing your baby girl.

I don't bloom
Because you command me to
If I bloom at all
It will be
Because
I am finally ready
To face the world
And because
The world is finally
Ready for me

Tell me that you dreamt of losing me
I want to see the tears in your eyes
As you tell me how I walked away
Hearing your voice break as you whisper
Don't go
Ache as you tell me this other worldly fear
Realize that you're not sleeping
Open your eyes before I'm gone

I fall in love with the flowers before they even begin to bloom
Which is why watching them wilt before they blossom
Kills me the most

I have written you so many beautiful poems
It's a shame you never had the capacity to enjoy them

Your legacy
Will be a new set of scars

You cant love me
And not because
You're incapable
Of loving
It's simply because
You're incapable
Of loving me

"Don't you think you're wasting your potential"
...potential*?
I want not
Thus I waste not
Simply trading one skill
For one of equal value
In the ever lasting search for greater happiness

The sun could never outshine her
However, I failed to remember something simple
We continue to see the light of a star
Even years after they have died

We grow our love
In a garden of weeds

On this climb up from broke
I hope I don't slip and choke

There's no escaping this noose
I found the golden goose

I think the greed has changed me
Haven't recognized myself lately

See, I sacrificed love for money
But paper don't taste like honey

So I sit here numbing my mind
Forgetting all I left behind

Darling please
Let me rip your clothes off now
Dont worry
I'll be sure to fold them in the morning

I dont want to love you anymore
The fickle emotion
Is rotting my heart
And boiling my brain

Now comes the time
When I full the void
With little red lines

The morning sun
Kissed my skin
And told me it was okay
To miss you

The pain of the cancer gripping the lungs
Pulls the flesh from the face
-taking the mask with it
The beating creeps up behind the eyes
The disease expands until it bursts
-then the sound of the bullet
Ends alone in silence
Faceless

I thought sleeping with you
meant laying next to you
sharing body heat
not giving you my body
followed by hollowing abandonment

Remember
Something shared
Is almost always
Something lost
Something
You'll never get back
So don't give away
Don't share
Keep all
Stay whole

I cut my tongue
to bleed out the words
you've been dying to hear
but even in these final moments
of curt existence
you're still not satisfied

Cheers to the girl
Who ripped my heart
To keep hers beating

He was a wildfire
His flames hotter than the desire I had for him
From the beginning I was locked in his gaze
His eyes the prison I walked right into
His smile the lock I let close
Trapped like the other prey before me
Exactly where he wanted me
Just where I wanted to be
The fear and the rush between us-
That's what started the fire

I felt it
In that last one
Those sparks on my lips
Those came from two hearts merging
A power so out if this world
The last time it was felt
Or even experienced
Was the Big Bang

He touched me and the sky lit up
Blue had a meaning once again
Clouds could gather
To accumulate and rain down
Once again
That essential hue

They hit the ground, bringing life
Green dominated the land
Complimenting the sky
Brining further colors in the voice of petals
In this presence of new life

I began to thrive

Do you think butterflies are just as beautiful
Even with wings ripped off?

I want to be sober enough
To mean it when I tell you that I love you
But ****** enough
To not have to remember it in the morning

There are times
Even in love
When frustration becomes
A malevolent force

To my partner
I give it all
Or would even sacrifice
If needed

I love this spirit
With all of my being
But ****
How do I express this

This...


This.

No these


These feelings I have
****
Too many of them
To even count

I don't know if its love
Love makes you want to kiss
And sing
Maybe even procreate

No, but he
For him I feel so much more
My whole body
Feels these things not just my head

-tell me I dont need it
-make me put it down
-sing me out of my sorrows
-catch all of my falling tears

I just need someone
To show me the love I'm missing
And give me a reason to stay

Oh Love,
As I watch you fall
all I want is to offer my hand
and raise you in your glory once again.
It pains me that I cannot.
You know as well as I
that the flesh of an angel,
cannot withstand the sting
of a demon's touch.

Necesitaba más amor
de lo que tuviste que dar

Close your eyes, sweet prince
When you rise in the morning-
The dragons will be gone
Your burns will have healed

This light of the new day
Paves another path to glory
Rise now!
Your prince(ss) still waits to be saved
Lands yearn to be conquered
Life begs to be lived

Therefore, give up not!
Yesterday has beaten you down
But tomorrow will crown you King

Please don't grow impatient
with all the time I'll take
realize I'm spending my time
clearing a space for you

She has the kinda face
who needs a saving grace

Baby, hes' a charmer
but I'll tell ya he'll harm her

He is actually the devil
but she'll take your heart and revel

I think you know their fate
but it's already too late

I'm praying for a miracle
While sifting through this pile of cash
How foolish I must be
To think life could flourish here