You're going to resent me tomorrow
And the hatred will follow
But I have to do what is best for me
that's always been the key

Entonces,
Mi alma debe ser perfecto
Con buena salud

Silver clouds
raining down
flood the world
and let it drown

Taint the soil
let it boil
one last call
end it all

sunlight shatters
did it matter?
in this finale
where will you be

in the arms of love
or dying of
the silver liquid

Your greatest gift
has always been your jaw
Strong and unwavering
Making it nearly impossible
to gather your emotions and thoughts

But your greatest weakness has always been
caught between the moments
you put pen to paper
and sacrifice your heart
Exposing your internal
and true
weaknesses

Now I can see it all

I wish you'd never read my words again
So I can tell my tales of hurt and heart break
Love, lust, and war
without fear of worry

Is it wrong
to burn souls
In order to save my own?

When it comes down to it,
humans will do anything
for self-prevalence
and survival

So,
does the arson make me evil?

The hours with you immobilized my values
Something in the way you looked
-mostly at me
A longing in your glorious emeralds
Not just for touch
but maybe something more

As the sun rose over the clock
The image of my lips on yours
grew increasingly distant
Night is were we thrived
Day drove us apart
- in a way my heart couldn't handle
But I wished it could

The time I spent in his green eyes
Has me spinning
Drunk off the rush and beauty
I could feel them tenderly stripping away my passion
and silencing my conscience

My body aches still to be touched
Despite my heart's fear of desire
of one day beating
-only for him

After all,
the challenge was
to keep hearts out

I didn't ask to fall for you
But that didn't stop you
from catching me

What is love
If not many?

The odds are in my favor
But number are like stars
And they aren't always aligned

Learning to take a bullet with grace
Is the most painful experience
Life can teach

I fall in love with the flowers before they even begin to bloom
Which is why watching them wilt before they blossom
Kills me the most

You still live inside my eyes
I see everything through you
At the end of the day I guess
That explains why I see the world
Crumbling to ash or
Bathing in blood

All along you were something
Not of this place
Physical or hyper-realistic
You were a tar pit I fell into
Now I deal with the ramifications
Mending my scorched flesh back together

Little girls fear the monsters
Hiding under their beds
Waiting in horror for the moment
It decides to strike
Rather, she should be waiting
For the daunting moment
nascent womanhood takes hold
And the monster under her bed
Becomes the man laying in bed
Next to her

You are the reason I fear I never
Give birth to a daughter
Your fingers reach far and dig deep
Souls like yours spawn from
The coldest flames
and the hottest anger
Therefore nearly eternal
Set forth to bring the end

When I think of the pain I felt
I try to think of all of the others
you will eventually trick
Much like what you did
to me
And I pick a religion
Then pray, and pray, and pray
And when I'm done
When I rise from my bruised and tired knees

I pick a new religion and I pray again
For all of those before me
And the ones to come after
I pray for the girls
Laying in bed and terrified of the things
All girls should be afraid of
Still ignorant to what men like you do
I pray they be preserved and find love
Only where love should be found
I pray for myself last,
because I have already survived you

But...do I ever pray for you?
In a moment of pride and strength
I will tell you I do-
in times of my weakness
I fall to my knees and I prayed
*You would be fixed

The crimson liquid rolling
Rushing
Down your back and from your spine
Gushing
I see the blade you tried to hide
Thinking she was on your side

Its began to dry
-the vital sap
With her gone-
you've no handicap

But you left the blade embedded
Seems to her you're still debted
Yet you know you owe her not
For with her hands she gave you naught

With heavy heart I try to save
All along you've been so brave
Leave her be
-and come to me
My truth shall set you free

I let the embers turn to Ash
I'm letting you go
As I believe you've long since done to me
You destroyed most in your path
But I've found the Vallie
Nascent and lovely
Her joy for me sings with grace
In the silent moonlight I can hear her calling
I could only ever hear your flames raging
and burning
I'm finally ready to heal
and I'm going to let it be by her fields

I'm excited to kiss her
The spark wont be there
- this I know
and it's not what I'm excited for
It'll be the rush
rustling faster causing the wind to revolt with an uproar
eyes closing to escape the rain
Then
Suddenly
the bright flash of light- and shock!
Not the spark!
But the shock of pure joy surging through tissue and blood
The clapping of thunder sounding silently as eyes lift

That is the moment I wait for eagerly

When I closed my eyes and dreamt of you
The visions I had were beautiful
-and cursed
You looked so lovely
-and my eyes couldn't break away
The way you reacted to the escalation
My heart fell
-so far down it broke the veil of slumber
My lips long for you
Other limbs quiver with anticipation
but my eyes-
I'm scared for them to close agian
In fear of the image never changing
backed with the fear those images
may even replay with my eyes open

Every tree needs leaves
So allow me to shade you

My greatest fear
is that I'm going nowhere
too **** fast

Please don't grow impatient
with all the time I'll take
realize I'm spending my time
clearing a space for you

The words you give me
Taste sweeter than honey

She's probably as pure as a daisy
I can't wait to show her my thorns

My words could never be
As beautiful as her soul
Or complete as her person

I listen to those sad songs
In anticipation for when
you make my heart recite them from memory

Only fools say:
"I should have known better"
Because a wise person
Would have never made such mistakes

For all of the special somethings
I did for my special someone
Who made me feel like no one

He would catch every falling flake
Just so it doesn't melt me with it

You're not my sunshine
You're my candle
I don't want to share your light
As you lead me out of the dark

I want to push him down
into a pile of leaves
Laughing the way children do
I'd fall backwards and he'd catch me
Looking into his beautiful green eyes
resembling the still crisp evergreens
Oh, the trees would be jealous
But also proud-
for their leaves were not wasted
We would lay and watch
the world move on around us
Flowers wilting
Clouds fleeing
Snow eventually following
When its time to fall
into his arms once more
not wrapped in leaves
But in blankets of his love

Slithering between his sheets
will only lead to venom
coursing through damaged veins
leading into a run-down system
into a long abandoned heart
Of which
he took the last piece

I could have been something
But your fire
had boiled me down to nothing

Your eyes are so good
You can see all the pieces

Your hands are so strong
They can pick them all up

I smirk knowing
I'm the twitch in your toes
I am the reason your legs cause earthquakes
Your gasping breath
Crying moans
Even those are me too
All of your pleasure
-Comes from me

Good-bye to those
who chose to walk away
You did all you could
to save yourself in the end
Your happiness is all I could have asked for

I bet you could frost me over
Even in the middle of summer

There is beauty in everything
Remembering
that beauty does not mean "good" or "lovely"
Beauty is "stunning" and "awe-inspiring"
Forest fires can be beautiful
so can your heart break
As long as you look deep enough for it

I want my words
To make your soul sing

So what would I have to say?

Love, do you even know
What you want to hear?

Just hold my hand
as we cross this bridge
A gap between youth and aging
No where near dying
But deathly afraid of growing old

Just hold my hand
We don't have to do it alone
I've got you
And you've always had me

I'm jealous of the sun
every time she kisses your skin
You're awake every morning
to see her rise
She watches over you each
and every
day
And I wish
I could be her.

Death always comes in the form of loss
Destruction travels by flames

You never asked for a lot
But I'm bad at handling things
And I couldn't even give you the minimum

You kiss with infected lips
With the expectation of being healed
Failing to realize
the sickness you spread

Cheers to the girl
Who ripped my heart
To keep hers beating

In the cold
My petals fall
The stem rips all it can from the ground
Soil seeking revenge
Gives nothing up
And eventually
the stem follows the dying tragedy

Do you think butterflies are just as beautiful
Even with wings ripped off?

I want my coffee white as the snow
And bitter as the man I thought I loved

Would you kiss
all my petals
In the summer sun
without fear of the bees?

The tears that roll
Because of you
Always taste the saltiest

I'm sorry I'm a scratched CD
And you keep getting stuck
On the worst parts
of my song