The Earth was bright. As she spoke her eyes were vibrant,
And her words enthusiastic.
Her face was full of expression,
Her life was full of meaningless worries.

The moon shadowed the Earth. Her eyes became dark,
Her words became dull.
Her face is full of contempt,
Her life is full of complications.

The Earth is pitch black. Her eyes are closed,
Her words are silenced.
Her face is now full of amity,
Her life is now emptied of demur.

The Earth is slowly lighting up. Her eyes are opening,
Her words are whispers.
Her face is full of confusion,
Her life is full of memories.

The Earth is bright. Her eyes are opened,
Her words are proud.
Her face is full of comprehension,
Her life is full of contentment.

I open my eyes, where am I?
When did I get here?
The walls are high, there's no escaping.
No door or window, just simply sitting.
Is it possible to recover
From a disease that only I have the power to stop?
I cannot focus long enough to think, or feel around.
How do I get out?
I dropped myself here, and it’s on me to get out.
I need to sober up, and find a way to return to it.
I try, but I only scratch at the surface.
I cannot dig a hole to get out,
it will only bring be deeper.
What if I just gave up?

I hide, but you find me.
I escape but you capture me.
There is no love, only horror.
I found your notes,
on the gravestones of my family.
My mother, father and brother,
they are my town, my home.
You took them away, and tortured me.
I try to run, but you scratch and bite.
Pieces of my flesh gone, memories changed,
bones broken, and hope astray.
I hope you rot in this place…

You are a violent beast,
trapping me in this ugly cage.
You’re lethal, and delusional,
watching every step I take.
The trickle of blood,
falling down my neck.
The colors swirl together,
making an ugly black blank
of nothingness as I slip
from consciousness.
The pain leaves and
I waste away wistfully
into a blur of shadows.

Run, run, run, I cannot hide.
Pools of blood near my side.
Run, run, run, pools of blood.

You’re as frightening as a nightmare
pulled from the deepest thoughts
and fears inside me.
I now sleep endlessly,
as the memories
consume and
devour me.

I am slowly
dragging Myself
out of a treacherous
hole meant for those
who defy the truths
being inserted into
our menacing minds.

A Shield.
That's what it is.
A secret invisible force
that lets me hide.
It helps mask the
pain and sorrow
and anger and
regret and remorse
woven into my soul
piece by piece.
It helps me face
my peers,
my parents,
my friends,
my goals,
my dreams,
myself.
And even I
cannot see past it.