I don't want smart.
I want spontaneous.

I don't want roses and a candle-lit dinner.
I want drunken nights by the campfire.

I don't want a boy that says 'I love you'
Because I don't believe in love
And, even if I did,
I'm not emotionally capable of feeling it.
I want a boy that's okay with that.

I don't want a boy that showers me with compliments
or a knight in shining armor.
I don't want mushy love letters or romantic get aways.
I don't want a boy who's looking for a wife
because I don't believe in marriage.
And I don't want a lover.
I want a partner in crime.

I want a boy with chaos flickering in his eyes.
I want a boy who smiles a lot.
I want contagious laughter.
I want loud.
I want steamy kisses where he presses my body into his and my skin tingles.

I don't want late night phone calls or 'Good morning' texts.
I want a boy that calls me out on my *******.
I want a boy that pushes my buttons.
I want a challenge.

I don't want a boy that makes me feel pretty.
I want a boy that makes me feel alive.

I want a boy that taps on my window in the middle of the night
And brings me on a starlit adventure.

I don't want a boy that makes love.
I want a boy that will **** me raw.
And I want a boy that will let me pass out on him afterwards.
And I want a boy that won't get offended if I move away in the middle of the night
Because cuddling hurts my neck and his heartbeat is keeping me awake.

I don't want a boy that holds hands.
I want a boy that drives too fast.
I don't want a boy that babies me.
And I don't want a shoulder to cry on
Because I'm not fragile
And I can take care of myself.
I want a boy that pushes me into oncoming sprinklers
And doesn't hold anything back.

I don't want a boy that's looking for forever
because forever seems like a really long time.
I want a boy that goes day by day.

I don't want safe.
I want to go fast.
I want to live on the edge.
I want exhilaration.

I don't want to be wanted.
I want to want.

I walk to think, but all that I can think is of you.

I stand to rest, but all my energy is aimed towards you.

I sit to relax, but all my comfort is dependent on you.

I lay to sleep, but all my sleeping time is spent on you.

I sleep to forget, but all my dreams are about you.

The pain.
It just pulls me down.
***** me right into the ground.
Or at least I feel that way.
Physically I look ok.
But mentally i'm worse than a shipwreck.
My soul soul has sunk into the depths of the ocean and is pulling my mind along with it.
I want my soul to come back up but it can't float anymore because theres a hole in it and now its submerged in the depths of the ocean.

It's cold and the heater isn't on but my heart is on and its love for you is keeping me warm.

i fell in love with you again

I play your mind like a guitar

Plucking away at your thioghts as they pass by

I play your heart like a drum

Producing love everytime it beats