I did it again
Love should be sin
That I wouldn’t do again
You played me like a violin
First the start I didn’t want soul ties
Then I thought we was meant
Somewhere lies and betrayal begins
And things take a shuffle
Asking when will it be just us again

I swear I am feeling the same way.
Unwanted and unsure now and that not how I should feel.
Every night I try my hardest to make myself think it’s just my depression or anxiety.
This is why I was afraid of loving again.
Cause it the same things each time.
I get used to things and they faded away.
And feels changed on a relationship.
I really tried not to get used to going to sleep on the phone, saying I love you , and hoping to hear from you.
But I did.
Now I sit up every night trying to fall asleep on my own.
I started hiding my feelings and just accepting these feelings and thoughts.
Now I’m just waiting for the day, you don’t wanna be with me.
I know that it is coming. I feel insecure, crazy, n unwanted.

I wrote this poem
For the ones I am about to hurt
I am broken and alone
Trap in my mind
With no room to grow
I have shed many tears
Felt my heart break
Seen my body shake
Smoke the pain away
Just to seen another rainy day
So I groom myself
This one last time
Make sure I have everything in line
For this time
Cried for the last time
Laughed for the last time
This is my last time
To the man I fell in love with
Sorry for everything I couldn’t fix
To my siblings that will miss me
Try not to remember me like this
To my parents that hate each other
I wish you can work on your differences
To my godparents that helped me
I am sorry you can’t fix this
This is it.

I swear I am feeling the same way.  
Unwanted and unsure now and that not how I should feel.
Every night I try my hardest to make myself think it’s just my depression or anxiety.
This is why I was afraid of loving again.
Cause it the same things each time.
I get used to things and they faded away. And feels changed on a relationship.
I really tried not to get used to going to sleep on the phone, saying I love you , and hoping to hear from you.
But I did.
Now I sit up every night trying to fall asleep on my own.
I started hiding my feelings and just accepting these feelings and thoughts. Now I’m just waiting for the day, you don’t wanna be with me.
I know that it is coming. I feel insecure, crazy, n unwanted.

Can this relationship wait
Is the words you used.
So I said yea cause you was going through something.
But you kept flirting for me and giving me mixed feelings for you.
It was like you wanted me but didn’t too. So I continue to be attached to you.
Got use to the calls every night and the long talks.
It was too good to be true but I was just hoping it was true.
Cause you made me feel so much better than the last dude.
But it was only to get me I see.
Cause now I don’t hear from you.
But when I do I hear relationship aren’t for you.
So what am I ?

Feel my pressure
Maybe use your tongue
To turn me up
Ain’t felt it in a minute
So let’s have some fun
Push down a little more
So this waterfall can run
Lucci ain’t the first to say this pun
**** even make me run
Just go a lot deeper ***
Cause I’m tryna feel it in my gut
Let’s make love like Bonnie n Clyde on the run
**** that was fun
He likes the way I ***
All over his face
Fresh out the easy bake oven how I taste

Spoken so softly
He can make me hot like the sun
No touch can fix what he done
Want to feel him inside
Deep I won’t run
Kiss down my spine
Run is hands over my body
Love me hard
Make me bust like fire work
Let’s become one