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71 · Dec 1
No one
Liana Dec 1
I hate when people say
"No one asked"
It makes whoever it is said to
Just feel so bad
For trying to share whatever they wanted to share
To the world
Why are people so cold?

I hate when people say
"No one cares"
How is it a thing
Said so casually in conversation?
What if it's someone's greatest fear?
And then they get told that
For talking
Like that helps anything
Or anyone
Ever

So if anyone says this
I'll just give them a glare
And I'll say to the victim
"They should speak for themselves because I'm listening
And I care"
Don't really like this one but it actually makes me so mad, especially when they say it to me or anyone else who doesn't talk much in the first place. Like what are you doing!?!
Liana 6d
Yes
There's a monster in my head

He makes me dread
Everything
Like the worst is always about to come

He makes me fear
Everyone
Even when they're trustworthy

He comes out
Late at night
He claims he doesn't want to hurt me
But he always does

He makes me question myself
And those I love
For no reason

Yes
There's a monster in my head

He makes me lie for hours in bed
And for some comedic relief
I called him fred
Fred the monster
Living rent-free in my head
Please leave me alone
I don't need you at all


Fred doesn't leave
He just sits there
As if he has a right
To take up space
I only have so much
What you're doing isn't fair Fred
Please go away
I had an old version of this but I wanted to add a bit

(This was written by a bear names Greg who was engaged to eggs)
Liana Nov 30
They say to live in the moment
Which I admit
Usually is a good thing to do
But for a second now
I want to live in the past
So I can feel like
Everything has worked out
(And this time not for you)
And so I can appreciate how much better things are now
Big- like how we don't live together anymore
And small- How all the plates finally match
Both are good enough

And then I can return to the present
With a more pleasant
Point of view
This note will make pigs fly
69 · Dec 14
Scars
Liana Dec 14
Hands covered in scars
And I know
It's my fault

I wonder
Who could ever love them?
They are just a reminder
Of what I've done
And that isn't beautiful
At all

Blood isn't beautiful
Injuries aren't beautiful
Especially when I'm the cause

People
Want
Perfect

But I want to be loved like a hot pepper
For my flaws
Even when they aren't pleasant
Or beautiful

Unfortunately
I'm not a vegetable
(this note was written by the view out your bedroom window)
69 · Nov 10
It ends
Liana Nov 10
I don't like things to end

Today I met up with some friends
We had a good time
Playing board games and laughing
It was fun
And soon
It was over
It would be another week
Until I'd see them again
But in the meantime
I'd feel like I had no friends
So I left their house
With a heavy heart
Going back in time to when I was a little girl
Begging my mother in tears
"Just five more minutes, please!"
But now I just had to deal
It was over
And that was it
Sadness eating me
I wished I enjoyed it more when it happened
I feel this way every week
69 · Nov 3
Am I Being Watched?
Liana Nov 3
I feel as though I am being watched
I know I'm not
No one can see through my eyes
No one can see through my head

You might think this scary
But it's not
I want to be watched
I want someone to know
That way
They can believe me
That way they can understand me

And I can stay silent
Liana 5d
Too many things to get done
They overflow my brain
Made me feel like I need to punch something
And walk
Walk far far away

I tell my mother
And plead
I know it's late
But I need this for me

She says
"Max four blocks"

I seem to teleport outside
It couldn't take a shorter amount of time for me to leave

I walk
Blast my music
And I take off my jacket
Even though it's cold
Even though it makes me shiver
I need to feel something
Even if that's all it is


Music intensifies
I want to run
And I'm done holding back
Acting normal
Acting calm
So I run
As fast as I can
Hands in the air
With the occasional spin

What a powerful feeling
The night is mine
The sky is on my side
And I can run

I smile
The most genuine smile
In weeks
Maybe months
While I cry

I
Feel
Alive

For the first time
In what feels like forever
(This note was written by a fountain full of lovely wishes that will never come true)
67 · 3d
"Stop"
Liana 3d
Once should have been enough
"Stop
...
Please stop"

I shouldn't have to say it 11 times
I shouldn't have to count
Yell
Or cry
Still to no avail
You're truly blind

"Stop"
It should be enough
To say once

Maybe I shouldn't even have to say it at all
Maybe he should have learned these simple things by now
Nevertheless
I need to

"Stop"
I try

"Stop"
I sob
...
It's in vain
The stuff you learn in kindergarten yet my 57 year old father can't get it

(This note was written by the chinchilla hiding in your sink drainage)
67 · Nov 2
Life Kind Of Sucks
Liana Nov 2
I am shivering
I am not cold

I am in the bathroom
I don't need it

I can't breathe
It isn't my asthma

I am exhausted
I can not sleep

I am lonely
But I won't text anyone

I am crying
I don't know why

I fear I will die
Nothing real is killing me

My stomach is grumbling
I won't eat

Right now
Life kind of *****
If you feel this way now, sending love ❤️
67 · Dec 6
My mind makes me sick
Liana Dec 6
I am here on earth
Technically

I am in my mind though constantly
And that's the reality

Unfortunately
Being in your head
When it clearly hates you
Is exhausting

The overthinking
Doubting
Repeating that same words over and over again
Guilt for things you didn't do
Morbid thoughts about someone killing your family
Intrusive thoughts about stepping on to the road

"They're not realistic"
You tell yourself
But still inside believe that they could be



It's like if you always were eating the same food
Everyday
Every second
And you don't like it
It makes you feel sick

I feel sick
All
The
Time

Both mentally
And physically

Please release me from my head
My hands hurt from trying to break the bars
But don't do it like I do
Where I end up kind of not feeling anything at all

"Is this because you are a part of me?"
I wonder
Maybe
Maybe not
This is so messy, I decided not to edit it. Sorry

(This note was written by checkers print in calming colors for your pleasure)
67 · Nov 9
Unfortunate Truths
Liana Nov 9
My father will never change
Though I need him to
People still feel like they are in a cage
But it's 2024
The world is going down hill
We should be getting better
We discriminating still
I thought we were over that already
Wars are a current problem
Though it's studied in history notebooks
So many people feel numb
Children and adults
We are destroying the earth
Though we claim to love it
Some people think that they don't have worth
But they are the most precious ones

These are just some unfortunate truths
The list goes on and on
Liana Nov 26
You took a blade
And you stabbed my back, heart and my brain
Made me so confused and hurt
Now bad feelings always lurk
Especially when something reminds me of you
The problem is
I've known you forever
So everything reminds me of you

The worst part
Is that you're too blind to see any of it
I never got a single apology
And I know if one day that you ruined for me
Would be on repeat until you got it right
You'd be stuck forever
You don't see your problems
Those problems are a big part of me now
So I guess
You don't see me
Do you?
Not at all
Thoughts branched out, kind of got messy, sorry

(About my dad btw)
Liana Nov 20
If only everyone
Was a little bit more
Like my cat

Because he sees someone crying
And sits with them to comfort

When I arrive home
He comes to welcome me

No matter how many times
We kick him off the dinner table
He always comes back trying to take
What he believes he deserves
And he eventually he succeeds

He loves
Unconditionally

he's there
Always

And he's absolutely bonkers
But he doesn't care
I didn't edit this
Sorry if it doesn't make sense
66 · Nov 19
Which do you wonder?
Liana Nov 19
If you look at me in school
You wonder
Why is she so quiet?
What is she even looking at?

If you meet me out of school you wonder
Why won't she stop talking?
Why does she not take anything seriously?

But the thing is
If you know me
The real me
I promise you
If you ask
Or sometimes don't
I'll tell you
The truth
So you won't have
To wonder
Anymore
I am very different in different social situations
But both are me in some way
Not in a comfortable sense though
For those first two
Liana Nov 3
I figured it out
People just want to be hot peppers

Peppers are spicy which pushes people away
But their flavor is enough for people to stay
People still love them
cook with them
Eat them
They even learn to love their spice
Just existing is enough to suffice

People just want to be hot peppers
Their “flaws” are loved
People love them for it sometimes
Their wonderful flavors appreciated

People just want to be hot peppers
There are some who can't handle them
Which is normal if you're alive
But despite those haters
They still thrive
66 · Nov 7
Friends
Liana Nov 7
You think that you are happy by yourself
Until you make wonderful friends
Then you can't stand to be alone again
But to make those friends
Is the tricky part
And it can be a lot more than tricky
So best of luck
I believe you will figure it out in the end
Message me if you please ❤️❤️
I'll truly be happy to talk with you
66 · Dec 8
3:00 am
Liana Dec 8
Its 2:54
My mind is racing
My eyes are fighting so hard to hold back tears
Morbid thoughts
Scary thoughts
Rain into my head
Flooding it,
Drowning the joy

It's 2:57
Getting late
I should go to bed
Why I am so scared of it though
While I long for it
What is wrong with my head?


It's 2:58
Getting goosebumps
Shivering for no apparent reason
My head hurts
My brain hurts
Why can't I sleep?

It's 3:00am
Officially the "devil's hour"
The only devil I see
Is the one messing with my head
Making me mad
Making me sad
Making me just feel plain old bad
(This note was written by the pillow that threatens to ****** your loved ones)
65 · Nov 17
What happened today
Liana Nov 17
She came over
And we had fun with friends
Then they left
And we started talking

At first, all light and funny stuff
Until she started opening up
Telling me about such terrors
No one should ever have to experience
And me
Trying to have good, thoughtful responses
Making sure she feels safe
I don't know if it worked

I feel bad
For ever feeling bad
About anything
When she had it so much worse

I wish I could fix all the problems
That her heart holds
So many
She once had to go to a phyc ward

I wish that I would know whether it was okay to hug her
Because I really wanted to
At that moment

So many problems
She is just a girl
This shouldn't be a thing
This shouldn't be real

The world is so ****** up
These shouldn't be problems
People have to face
Now I can't sleep
Simply for hearing them
65 · Dec 7
Untitled
Liana Dec 7
Why couldn't things be that way more often?
Humans love labels, that's proof I'm not one

(This note was written by a dolphin stuck on Saturn who is really craving pepperoni pizza and melon juice)
Liana Nov 22
Whenever I walk across the street
The person in the car has to stop
I think about how
In just a slight movement of their foot
The person in that car
Could end my life
And all that I know would be effected
And everyone who knows them will be effected
And it may or may not
Go on and on

We trust eachother so much
And so little
65 · Nov 26
Accomplished Nothing
Liana Nov 26
The end of the day
Slowly yet ****** approaching
And I have done nothing

Regret and guilt eat me alive
Grief for the time I have lost
Wasting

Things were there
Waiting to be done
Calling my name out in vain
Taunting me
And I ignored them

Remorse

For today
I feel as though
I have accomplished
Nothing
I'm sorry
64 · Nov 25
Just me
Liana Nov 25
I see a girl at the party
She's just sitting there alone
Staring into nothing
So I feel the intense urge to go up
And ask her
"Are you okay?"
To which she responds
"Yeah, this is just me"

I go back
And start dancing again
Waving my hands the way everyone else does
But I know it's not me

I dance alone
In the shower, in my bedroom or in my backyard in the rain
While listening to old music
And genuinely smiling
11/23/24
64 · Dec 4
My Worst Night
Liana Dec 4
I remember one night
As clear as day

It all started when I watched a movie
The dog has died
And it reminded me of mine

I let myself sob
I knew my mom would only come back late
And my dad wasn't truly there

So I cried and cried
Distracted myself by watching more
And cried again

When she got back
She came with me in bed
As I sobbed


Soon enough
She said "it's time to sleep!"
And that's when I realized
I couldn't stop to weep
And it wasn't just that
I couldn't breath
I was shaking
I realized
It was a full blown panic attack

Unable to stop
Already 3am
My mom not knowing what to do anymore
She said "If you don't stop
I'll have to take you to the hospital"

A nightmare

Scared out of my mind
Knowing that's the last thing I wanted
I went to the bathroom
And took a cold shower

It was cold
And miserable
I hated it so
But after collecting myself a bit
I was able to sleep
A terrible sleep though


I've had nights
Feeling so physically ill
But I know
Nothing will ever
Compare to that night

I was only like 9
But I'm telling you
I was so ready to just crumble up
And die
I've had bad nights since, but this was my first so I was petrified

(This note was written by the elephant in your pipes)
64 · Nov 19
Death
Liana Nov 19
I don't know much about death
Except that it takes your loved ones
It is a big question mark
Taughting me
Constantly

I think
Our brains
Simply can't
Comprehend
That they one day
We won't be there

I don't know much about death
But I know
For some it might be loud
A gunshot the last sound they here
And for some it might be quiet
Alone in world with their last tear

I don't know much about death
But I know
For some it might be at age 6
A very tragic thing indeed
And for some at age 90
Holding the hands of their children
Maybe just as tragic

I don't know much about death
But with great sadness I know
That while some stay until they can't anymore
Some want to go

Death
Holds suspense, grief, and longing
In the palm of his hand
And he boasts it
Liana Nov 13
I was sitting alone at lunch
As one does everyday
Thinking
listening
And looking around
Until I see this group of girls come my way

Are they coming toward me?
I wonder in a panic
As they get closer and closer
Giggling and chatting
With their pretty little smiles

"Hey, do you want to sit with us?"
One of them asks
I pause a moment in disbelief before I answer
"Yes, of course!"

"Oh my god, your hair is so pretty"
One of them says
"Thank you so much!" I say as everyone is still gushing

I sit down with them not really knowing how to feel
Some minutes pass
And I realize
They're are actually, kind of nice?!


Still not like me at all
Wearing their makeup and doing their dances
But I decide that it's okay
And it doesn't really matter

Tomorrow
I will not sit alone

I hope only
That this will be better
At least
Won't be worse
I think I'm happy about this
63 · Nov 5
To be happy
Liana Nov 5
All humans do
Is to result in happiness
We do everything in our power
“Once I get __ I will finally be happy”
We think
Then after a while
we get it
And we may be happy for a bit
Then it's over
And we want something else
“If only I had it!”
And it starts all over again
63 · Nov 2
Intrusive thoughts
Liana Nov 2
I come at unexpected moments
I bring fear and anxiety
I whisper morbid thoughts about your family and society

My favorite times are 3 am and always
My favorite topics are death and pain
I like to make sure that you scream silently in vain

I take you out of reality
Launch you in to space
I planet for the people you may ****
And a star for the ones you won't save

Short and quick
I can ruin your day in the snap of my finger
The what if’s taking over your brain and I promise they will linger

I also serve a purpose which I admit a often fail
To protect from the things that can put you in jail
I know it makes you crazy and so I'm sorry to say
That 's the only thing I know and I'll do it until the end of always.
Feedback heavily appreciated! Thanks for reading ❤️
63 · Nov 6
House or home
Liana Nov 6
In my head
I have this mantra
For anytime I feel uncomfortable
Or sad
Or just plain bad

I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home

The saddest part
Is that I say it in my own house
I want to feel at home
In my own house
I never have
Is it too much to ask?
Liana Nov 26
I walk in the hallways
And I hear someone say
"This is the worst day of my life"
And we just had class together
And I know
Someone stole a pencil of his

I can't help but wonder
How could it be
That for someone it might be losing a pencil
And some it might be getting beat really bad one day
seeing a parent being put in jail, maybe leave
Or seeing your father say he wants to die
And get on his knees crying and shouting
In the middle of the street
Oh why
Oh why
I swear the world plays favorites


To be clear only the last one happened to me, thankfully
63 · Dec 1
Cats Just Know
Liana Dec 1
Lying on the bed
My friend sound asleep on the other side
And her cat that runs away from family comes
And lays next to me
Rubbing against me
Asking me to pet her

It makes me feel okay
It makes me feel home

Everything
Is at least
A little bit better

I'm telling you
Cats always know
She is by me as I write this
62 · Nov 18
Six year old me
Liana Nov 18
Once when I was around 6 years old
I was ******
At my teacher
So I went and sat under the slide
And I wouldn't move
Even after the whistle was blown
And after my teacher yelled at me some more
And my friend joined me
And then left
And until they say they would call my mom
And that they were disappointed in me
I still sat
That was all I could do at my age to protest
And I did until I felt I had made my impact
Then I got up silently
And went in line
With a smile of satisfaction
And the reminisce of tears on my cheeks

Now
When I'm ******
I sit there
Clenching my fists
And do nothing else
(Outside of my head)

I wish I would be more like 6 year old me
Honestly
True story
61 · Nov 2
Five More Minutes
Liana Nov 2
Your parent is waking you up
“Five more minutes!” You plead
And now all you want to do is sleep, sleep, sleep
The warmth of the blanket
The peace that comes with the dark
The calmness of your heart
In bed that very last night, none of this you saw
You saw monsters under your bed
Monsters living in your head
The blanket was too warm
Your pillow covers in tears
Only in the morning do you think this would please
In your head all would be solved
Five minutes and all problems
–****, gone!
Then when it's over, you want it again
61 · Dec 9
This Morning/ Now
Liana Dec 9
I don't wake up in time
My mom is yelling at me
Loudly
But she doesn't even notice what she's doing
Or she doesn't care

I can't be yelled at by her
My eyes are beginning to water
My chest is getting tight
My tired cold body gets tense
I can't go to school like this
Not now at least

"Mom, can I go to school a bit late today?"
"No"
She says
She yells some more
I still think she doesn't know that she's yelling
"Mom, you're yelling"
I say calmly as tears leak out of my tired eyes
All I hear is anger and
Disappointment because her daughter is acting like someone her age and not someone who seems especially mature

"Liana, if you need to go to school late
You need professional help"

She means a psych ward
And I know it

No, no, no
Fear spreads through me like a virus
It takes control
It makes me power off
My screen is glitching
I don't work anymore

If I want to act like someone my age who got 3 hours of sleep I need to go to a mental hospital where I won't go to school at all?

As I get up out of bed
Run to the bathroom
To cry

I brush my teeth
Wash my face from the tears
But new ones spill out
They won't stop coming
It's a thunderstorm
It's been brewing for a while

Come back to my room
My mom in there doing something
I step into my closet to change

What am I doing?
She's your mother
she's your sane parent.
So many would wish for one like her
I think

After arguing
Crying
Explaining
She says
"I'll take you to school after my shower"
And now I'm writing

I can't go to school like this
I'm a thin plate
Just waiting to break
And school likes throwing things like me
So I'll split into a million little pieces
And maybe never put me back together
(this note was written by duck tape)
61 · Dec 4
I am
Liana Dec 4
I am quiet
But my thoughts are loud

I am untrusting
But I trust you too much

I am choking back tears on the inside
But I'm smiling on the outside

I wonder what's wrong with my mind
Way too often
(this note was written by the number seven after he decided he wasn't he was going to be odd)
60 · Nov 17
Left the band
Liana Nov 17
I feel betrayed
I thought we were a group
We would stick together
Forever
And we would see eachother every week
As long as we wanted to
How dare you leave
I didn't agree
I feel betrayed
I heard it from my mother
You didn't even bother to tell me
I have a band and my bassist  and drummer are quitting (they're twins). It's the second time I had to start over, I feel so betrayed.
60 · 1d
Knowing
Liana 1d
I may not know
What will happen to tomorrow
But I know
That someone is laughing now
That someone is sobbing now
And that I wish I could do either

I may not know
What to say always
But I know
That I was once younger
And that every second I am getting older

I may not know
If I'll die tomorrow
But I know
That someone will live

I may not know
Who will cry tomorrow
But I am certain
That someone will
And I hope
That the love I send them
That they don't know I'm sending them
Will go through

I may not know if they feel it
But I know that I hope the impossible things
I send strangers
Will go through
And I know
And that when I remember
I'll take it from the stranger who doesn't know that I know
Just in case
(this note was written by a world where each snowflake was the same and was checked before it was allowed to fall)
60 · Dec 6
I Love When
Liana Dec 6
I love
When I make people laugh
And when they feel comfortable enough to cry
To share theirs thoughts out loud
So I can too can be mad
And express how much I don't want them to die
I feel so honored when I get to be that person for someone. Unfortunately, I'm not ready for any in person human I know to be that for me.

(This note was written by triple A batteries that grew horns)
Liana Nov 28
Of course
Sometimes I feel cursed
Because of my mother's job
For she plays music
Professionally
She plays trombone

Never a routine
Always schedule based on shows

No sleep
The gig ends at 2am and there's a flight to catch at 4

No social interaction
With anyone my age

And pressure
To be a talented musician

But also
I think it's worth it for

The moment I watch her solo
Go crazy and show her soul
I get to think to myself
"****, that's my mom out there!"

I get to play on stage
Big audiences watching
Or more
Listening

Meeting people
From all over the world
With so many stories to share

And see her
Be a role model
For young girls who really want to be like her
For anyone who's interested, her name is Reut Regev and she plays trombone
60 · Dec 4
If She Believes Him
Liana Dec 4
I wonder
If she'll believe him
And all of his lies
Saying he's done nothing wrong
And loved me so
He wants “ to get close”

If she believes him
I'll seem like the criminal
And he’ll seem like the victim to my crime

If she believes him
I'll look like a liar

Why did he need to meet her alone?
I don't understand

Lies
Lies
Lies
But so convincing still

It's like a remix of a song
That takes you a moment to recognize
Because the melody is different

It's my word against his
But I’m younger than him

I wish to never see her again
But I'll see her today

Honestly
I would rather stay in bed
I have other better ways
To do therapy

Other ways
That don't have an unhelpful opinions

Other ways
That can't believe his lies

And other ways
That help me
Instead of stress me
And can keep me sane
(Most of the time)
My dad spoke to my therapist but he's a liar

(This note was written by the souls and dreams of children that school has crushed)
60 · Nov 16
My friend
Liana Nov 16
I have this friend
And boy, her life is hard
Compared to her mom
My dad is normal
Her dad died
About two years ago
And she has autism
What a life

I invited her over today
To play some board games with friends
And then sleepover
And she said yes
She also said that tomorrow was her birthday

I want to be a good friend
But I don't know what to do
Talking to her is hard for me
I want to ask her about her life
But I don't want to make her uncomfortable
I want to laugh
But I don't know what about

I want to make it fun for her
She deserves it, after all
But how?

I will do my best
It's all I can do
But I'm still stressed
Though I don't want to
Not sure
59 · Dec 1
To Paint
Liana Dec 1
Each brush stroke
A part of my soul
Blending
Mixing
Bleeding into eachother

Colors combining
Overlapping
Kind of like my thoughts

They make something interesting
Maybe messy
But calming
At least to me
Another way to deal with the world

(My cat's fish's uncle's enemy's friend took me to the middle of the ocean to write this note)
59 · Nov 8
Intresting Airports
Liana Nov 8
Airports are so interesting
Everyone is going somewhere

But some are going to funerals
Some baby showers

Some to visit their families for a couple days
And some forever

Some waiting for them is only their dog
Some a whole big family just waiting to give them a hug

Some get picked up or dropped off by strangers
Because they have no family left

Some get picked up by their parents
Which some love a lot
Or love less

Probably
Someone will die in their trip

Probably
Someone will have their baby
And maybe they'll be good parents
Or maybe not

Is it just me,
that finds this fascinating?
Back home
Liana Nov 25
A question
I get a kick out of asking people is
What would you do, if you found out that this is all a simulation?
Most people answer
That they would do whatever they want,
Go crazy!
Honestly
Id just keep going along
Maybe with some more experiments
But that's it
Because repercussions are still a thing
And I'm stuck there anyway
Everything remains the same
There is nothing I would know as real
Except what is fake
58 · Nov 10
Sad Common Sense
Liana Nov 10
I am not a psychic
But I have common sense

Before the idea of getting a dog was in your head
I knew you would lose it

Before we even knew you would kick us out of the house
I know it would turn into a junkyard in your hands

Before the divorce was even official
I knew you would have a girlfriend the first year after or already had one before (still figuring that out)

Before we went on that last trip
I dreamed this would all happen

Before you went to meet your therapist
I already know you fed her lies

And people tell me not to worry when I say I know what happens next
And it's not pleasant
Liana Nov 21
Trying to figure out
How people
Are underlining
Bolding
And putting italics
On here
My Google search
Has done me no good
It won't even let me copy-paste it on here!
58 · Nov 27
An I for an Eye
Liana Nov 27
You took my vision of the world
my childhood
And how I think
And crumbled it before me
You were just thinking of yourself
For yourself
You did these things
Manipulated me
Until I questioned myself
And what I could see
Often I didn't see you stabbing me
For you had taken my eye
An I for an Eye is what happened
Don't even try to lie
Starting to recognize it better, learning not to trust or belive
57 · Dec 6
Life Without
Liana Dec 6
If the world
Lost it's poetry, art, music, dance, stories, books, and performing
I think
The population would be cut in half
And those 4 billion people left
Would be miserable

I image life without them
As unlivable
Not a fan of this poem, but I got it out of my drafts so yay

(This note was written by the mountain of tissues used to dry tears from lonely people's faces)
57 · Dec 7
I miss my home
Liana Dec 7
I miss my old home

My room
With my couch as a bed
And the walls I hand-painted blue because the yellow was ***** and ugly
With the spot on the wall I wrote my name on when I was seven

The thin walls I could always hear my dad sobbing and yelling through
The thousands of records and things of his dead mother that he kept
Especially his mother's plates which he only took out on birthdays

I miss "the music room" filled with instruments
Damaged wooden floors
And walls completely covered with paintings I've been making ever since I was five

I miss the big tree in our front yard
The one I would hug whenever I was sad when I was younger
The one I cried at on those last four nights

I miss the old floors
How I knew exactly where they would squeak
How I always used to get splinters from them

I miss the green sofa in our living room
The one ripped up by cats
My spot when I would watch TV

And I miss my desk
It was where I painted
It was the victim to all of my obsessions excluding this year
Every one left it's mark on it

It's filled with all my memories
It was where I always came back to
And now I don't live there anymore

We didn't keep our house
My dad kicked us out
Though apparently I'm "welcome anytime"
The last time I was there I wanted to cry
It was a junk yard
It looked and smelled like a crime

I miss my home
Just thinking about it my eyes water
I hate being sentimental like that
I can't help it though
I miss my home
This is really long, sorry

(This note was written by a dream you don't remember but scared you out of your mind)
Liana Dec 1
Hope sure is a heartbreaker
A beautiful creature, with her eyes of gold and daisies in her hair
Holding your life's happiness in the palm of her hand
Just out of reach
Saying "your almost there!"
Even though she runs away from you as you run to her
(In her graceful run)
And when your getting there
She throws them
In an endless pit
They are swallowed whole

She said she wouldn't do that
She promised she'd give them to you
She said those dreams would come soon
And that shed never betray you
She lied

She left you there
Heartbroken
To sob
And wonder why
56 · Nov 20
Perfect day
Liana Nov 20
A prompt in ELA
"Perfect Day"
While everyone started their paragraphs about what their perfect days would look like
With watching TV
And going to the mall
I wrote a poem about how they don't exist
Because she didn't say not to

It went something kind of like this:


There is no such thing as a perfect day
Even if everything goes your way
And you get to sleep in
You eat your favorite food
The sky is blue
Not it's usual gray
And all of your morbid thoughts
Put away

Even if you
Spend the day alone in solitude and peace
Or with your friends
And loved ones
And if you buy a pony
Or win the lottery
Or just smile the whole day
It will never be a perfect day

Because as you lie in bed that night
Or maybe you think about it the whole day
Tomorrow will not be the same
And the sky will return to its gray
And the thoughts flooding back in
And the peace--gone
It seems that something has come of class today. I hope I get an A!


(This wasn't it exactly, but close to it)
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