Posted for my mad buddy who I swear has peed reading it. If you think it doesn't fit here. Don't read it I guess.

Cindersfellas

When Cinderella lost her shoe, the Prince did all that he could do!
Night and day he gave his all to re unite it with her smelly sole
So many that he tried it upon, yet none could hold the slipper on.
To fat to thin or athlete's foot and what a stink he had to sniff up

But as he thought his quest was fraught, a delicate foot he came upon
Pedicured and delicate, all his foot ferishes desired!
Like fingers into a silken glove, her tootsies slid into its glass a perfect fit he's found his wife

All ended well her sisters thrashed and cinders got the Princes heart
She also got the princes cash, his castle horses cars and thrones, all the maid had dreamed upon.
That as Disney is same in life, when you marry a gold digging *****

But.. Cinders is simply just a tale to make kids think that lifes a rainbow
With unicorns an Bambis too with multi coloured marshmallow poos

It ain't that or nothing near, because there ain't no Prince or footwear here!
Often a fool who does there part to show their love to another's heart
Yet used and abused and taken for granted, often hit and always shouting

Ringin bells? And not in church? You're a victim of the Disney curse!!
You ain't Snow white more like the prisoner, locked inside a nightmare before Christmas
No glass slippers no carriage either, all they sold you is wedding fever!!

So be your own Princess or Prince or knave or whatever else you think
Your life, your choice your one and only
Don't waste it with unworthy causes.

For in the end you're a long time dead
Don't let them **** you inside as well
Your heart beats and it beats for you
Sometimes in time with another's too

So there you have it, all that is
No glass slipper no magical dream
But if you think the one for you
is out there in lifes foggy world
You may be right and find them there
I hope it's all that you deserve

But remember now just these things.
Cinders never got a ring !
Maybe Shrek was not a Prince
But Fiona didn't get beaten up

The smell of a womans freshly washed hair
When a woman leans back knowing you are there
The scent of perfume on her neck
When she has dressed to go out but has dressed only for you
When she cries and smiles at the same time
Hugs you and melts into you
When you watch her sleep and pray to a god you don't believe in that she wakes tomorrow
When she touches you in a crowd as though you are the only two people in the universe
When all you imagine all day is comimg home to them as much as they do you
Feeling bad because you said something you didn't mean because you both had a bad day
Wishing you were somewhere else
All these little things

Love is blind
Deaf and dumb
When your young and full of ***
As you age it gets fuzzy
Scared your mistakes will catch you up
When your old only then you know
Which was the love that you let go

I asked her to sleep with me
But I wanted her to stay awake more than anything

In youth he courted her as men do
He would bring flowers to her door
Roses on her pillow, petals scattered in affection
What was expected under loves direction
They married and this remained
Over the years kids came it wained
They built a home together
A place of their own
Amazingly he felt alone
The dream wasn't to buy her flowers
But to plant a garden where they could walk
A place to sit in twilight years
Watch the grandkids end the fears

Picture the scene
Together yet apart
Falling asleep alone
Mind creating a alternate world
A world were he is all
He is the arms that hold you
The lips that kiss you
A duet of pleasure he caresses you
You are transcended
Morning comes he's not there
You go to work, sit at your desk
There he is, he passes you say hi
He raises a smile, sheepish
Not because of the night before
For he was not there
He never was
Well not until you close your eyes
Tonight

There have always been silences
You never hear them begin
How can you?
In the morning,
coming home,
at dinner.
He's tired, she's stressed
It creeps in.
It grows
Then one day an explosion
The silences are gone
Rage replaced them
Anger and spite fill its spaces
The silences?
They simply left,
With me

Oh Valentine oh valentine
Like every other year
You get a card from a geek
The guy you thought quite weird
He's stalked you now for months on end
And finally tried his luck
He should have checked the wedding ring
The three kids and a dog!!!

Life is a game some say
Well games have rules don't they?
Do we simply play with people?
With or against?
Is that the all of our existence?
Do we try to win?
Win what? Love? Money? Position? Just what?
In doing so, with each win, we loose.
To believe different reveals a fool.
The best we can ever hope to achieve is life without fear.
Fear of loss, hunger, poverty, loneliness, hurt and emotions many.
Be it selfishly of with others empathy.
Know when you play this game, and roll the dice, move your piece, change your position in this life.
Tell your story, play YOUR game, choose a side or shy away.
Remember this and this alone.
The game will end, when is beyond your control.
All you have done, achieved, lost or found, loved, desired, or craved, wanted or needed, shouted or screamed for or just remained silent over.
It's all gone, because this was never your game
We're only players each the same
Rolling the dice
Again and again
Again
And
Again

I saw the sun and the clouds today
The sun kept peeking out trying to play
Then tonight the stars they came too
Of course they just reminded me of you
But you're not here just the cold lonely moon
But in my head you were never gone
So wherever you are and what ever you do
Look up at the moonmI'm looking too

Bucket lists are all the rage but life's for living at this stage
Make a list of what matters and why
When you read it try to laugh not cry
What I like and what I want are sometimes only just for fun
What I need is more of the point and why that is, is seldom said
As thoughts career within my head
I want to feel like I belong
Not to a group but to someone
I want to know I make them smile
Even if only for a while
Who needs a list to sort this stuff
Who wants to tick them one by one
All is lost and all is found
So no point in writing anything down

I once commented upon the pants ******* rollercoaster ride that is life
Someone said "What you consider important today, will not be a priority tomorrow"
Tell that to a cancer patient
A parent whos child is bullied
A lover who finds texts on their partners phone
A child who looses a parent..
Maybe we were on a different ride in a different car after all

Panic stained all that I touched
Viral in some ways making it sick
Midas touched and gold followed
I touched and only pain
The destruction of worth
Nothing golden only deep darkness
Touch no more

Almost yet not
Within grasp
Yet not holding
With but without
Almost is nothing
The lost

So people think where at it
They think we're on the job
Touching where the sun don't shine
The horizontal jog
Sneaking round in darkness
A bunk up here and there
A bit of a knee trembler
Oh when oh where!
I suppose they see a something
That neither of us do
Is it what they would do
It they were me and you?
Well sorry to deflate them
It isn't really so
We never got between the sheets
Or any other joy
So just to set the record straight
We haven't popped the cork!
It just gives you a purpose
A topic for to talk!

I looked upon her face
I tried to catch her smile
loved her ponytail
Perfect teeth beaming grin
Though I never knew the girl within
We chat of thing's they have no claim
No claim or sight of what's inside
No idea and guess they might
From ramdom hugs to congugation
He Seamed nylons cause speculation
All topics are open and none closed
In my mind we've popped the cork
Truth be known we never tried
I've never been between her thighs
Never kissed her charming lips
Or touched her *******
Caressed their tips
Run my fingers down her back
Kissed her neck and held her tight
So whatever you think we may have done
You have no concept of literal fun

Always next time or tomorrow or next week
Then it simply never comes as you procrastinate
You sit finding things to do that needed doing
But not what needs to be done
Then time ran out
To late to procrastinate

So many things tear me apart
Like an executioner with his last blow
When the Tempests clouds tear apart.... screaming with the betrayal....  
clarity...
No nay never
But like the sunlight...
Dances, trips in...
But to no measure
Then suddenly without the  hue of all,
is all reality
unparalleled by none
And her beauty was born....
But for who

I lie alone. My thoughts are not here, they are with her.
I don't know what she thinks, I only know an insane void is in my heart. Tearing at my soul.
The torment of not knowing why claws at my very substance.
I imagine the DNA that binds me falling apart, decaying like spent particles in a dying sun.
Now? Nothing..

Painted moons and  rainbow sky
Unicorns and butterflies
A princess for him
A prince for her
But continents divided them
Her friend said go on give it a try
But time zones confuse a goodnight
Hard to hold a vacant slot
When you're asleep and they are not
So love doesn't see a postal code
Flesh and blood sadly does
So once again fate plays a part
In keeping lovers
Far
Apart

I was left high up in the ugly tree dumped and the stork flew away!
I turned to look around me and you guessed it I slipped and fell
Falling fast I hit every branch until I hit the ground
I landed face first where a cow had just crapped, my welcome to the world
I stood up and shook myself, my body not its best, was this the start of something or the begining of the end
I went to school, college too and I just dealt with it all
The snears and making fun off me I learned to ignore
I was different or odd or not the same as you, why it mattered so much I never really knew
I stopped looking in mirrors, I probably scared kids
I don't like my photograph in fact it makes me sick
I wear clothes that hide my shape they really never fit
I have the body of the demon
But an angel hides within
See past all the labels the stigmas you attached
I am no different it's you that lives the lie
The colour of my hair and skin is just how I am wrapped
I am all I'll ever be, no make up heels or fillers to make me look the part
My face doesn't dissolve at night or rub off on my pillow
My lips are crooked, eyebrows thin and my teelth may not be straight
But I spend my cash putting dinner on my kids plates not make up on my face
So judge me not on what you see
Don't judge me at all!
You never earned the right too
You never will at all

Love doesn't fall apart as it ages
It isn't like a building but none the less needs maintenance
We often strangle it with expectation or smother its voice.
It isn't alive and yet we must feed it.
It has no conscience and yet we scold it with angry words.
It has no substance at all and yet can be poisoned.
There is no structure to it, no plan.
Though we treat it as a building, a temple or shrine.
It collapses without a sound but the screams are deafening.
When love is done it doesn't walk away like a wounded animal to die alone.
It is euthanized by some, executed by others but always killed by one.
So what of love, Is it real
Is it yours or mine or ours?
Is it stolen, loaned or cheated?
However you obtain it remember to nurture it or like any living thing...
It will die.

It's a race the rats won't enter
Rodents have more sense
Than working just to live
In a place we only rent
For the humans run the planet
Well that is what they think
Reality is they've lost it
There is no human race.

Many times I walked that same beach
Many times I collected shells
Many times I paddled
Many times I watched the sunset
Many times I felt the sea on my feet
Many times I felt the sun and the wind
Many times only I alone
It's the same sun
The same sea
The same shore
But now it's different
I don't walk alone

Tug at my hair
Nibble my neck
Oh kiss me there I'm all a wreck
Fingers entwined hands up high,
Kiss me harder I feel alive
Down my neck across my chest
Oh god I want more lift my dress
Run your tongue across my chest
I want you now get undressed
Almost made it to the bed
Oh do me on the stairs instead
Oh this is how I dreamt it would be!
Take me to bed and ravish me
Hang on
NO
Who's in my bed!
It's me you see
I'm still asleep
Night's like this
I simply weep

Listening to the stories they wallow in past glories with no grasp of the now
Always first to speak and last to listen
Never existed just pull up your socks
Fake to gain attention
Always been odd that one
Where did they go
Never said goodbye
Selfish

She is a beautiful woman
With a beautiful face
With a beautiful heart
In a state of grace
Im in a mire
A mind in a state
Fuzzywuggle brain
All over the place

In youth they swooned when she entered a room, she had her choice of men.
She commanded them without a word and they always did her bidding.
But not all would woo, bow and scrape.
A few ignored her and her ways.
For that alone she was intrigued why they favoured others, and not she.
So one by one she picked them off to prove she could have just what she wants.
A plan she had and then the rub... Her best friends man, he was one.
A sanctioned **** it came to be and then that night she did the deed.
A foolish game for all to play as it ended all from that day.
The trust for all had now been lost and what in all was the cost?
To simply prove she could have it all, then loose the same before the dawn.

And then, silence fell.
The city was fluid before
No signs of conflicts or hate
No rage
People shopped as any other day
They didn't know, no one could
People fell, as thought fainting
Only to shake then be still
None immune, none spared.
Now silence.

Half full?
Half empty?
Why are we so obsessed with measure?
If your blindfold, can you tell?
Does it taste any different?
What of the smell?
So dont measure what you think you have
Or what is gone
Treasure what you have instead
Someday it will be gone

I kissed her like my life depended upon it
I didn't know it did.

Interaction

I have said before, that the shortest distance between two souls is a smile.
The longest, a silence.
For daily we meet people.
Some, no words exchanged and yet an imprint left upon our being that won't fade.
While others speak a thousand words, none impact, their vocality hollow and lost upon you.
But here is the thing.
A smile has many facets.
A smile has no language, no need of a translator, no passport norr permissions sought.
Once you have seen a smile that penetrated your walls, your barriers and fears, it is like wanting a fix.
The yearning to have one more shot.
The adulation, the comfort, the everything.
Has someone smiled like that to you?
What did you do....

I am the watcher, the keeper, the one who looks out. The one who catches those who fall down.
I am the kind word when all is harsh, the laughter that warms you when your worlds torn apart.
I am the light in the darkness the hand as you drown.
No one special just there at the time.
I am the one who sees past your drama and pain.
The one who stops you shaking with rage.
I am no one to anyone, but a last resort.
The one who waited, who walked you home.
The one who chose to make things right. To do something for nothing when others would charge.
You have never met me, but many we are.
Those who still care, those who have hearts.
So sleep now and forget how we met.
Just know there are many..
We have no name.

When the light goes out it's all still there, just hidden
as you sit alone in your chair, blending, silent as the night embraces you
You try to focus on shadows and the embers of the day a day often we want to forget as it's conflicts raged
Yet the emotions wash into the night, your night

Sometimes it will be different, it may hold the very essence of a soul that touched upon yours in strangest serendipity
You can imagine what the darkness holds but only days light realises dream from reality, what was but a chance path crossed or a smile seen as bright as the sun
As I slumber I hold thoughts of pleasure and play that day like a film in my minds eye, slowly now for I must see it's details in emerald splendour
The sepia tones of faces and images alight, I yearn for tomorrow goodbye to tonight.

All day like a muse she is in my thought
The imagined embrace, a stolen kiss
An embrace as two become entwined as though never separated
The car stops I go to the door but it  isn't home anymore
Inside I go and shout I'm home, but no reply I'm all alone
Then in the kitchen she stands and stares as cold as ice her ****** flare
I look forward all day to her embrace as I did for many years
Alas now I'm nothing to her
You should come home to love not war, warmth and love and be adored
If they want you as you do them, then all else in life can be repaired
When it went I didn't see but all was lost and no more here
A lesson learnt in pain and sorrow
I won't come home tomorrow

Anticipation, how much you think,
How do you think,
Do you think the same?
Anticipation, of everything or nothing.
Is it what we want or what we need?
Is it what makes us feel.
Anticipate or wish who knows what a day can bring.

Both ends of the scale darling x!
Love isn't something you can purchase
It is only ever a gift
Sometimes unwanted
Sometimes dreamed of
But only true when given selflessly

I may make that a poem

They watched, they always do.
Tearing you apart without a word.
Looks at first, then the whispers
Is that the reason why?
He isn't with his wife.
Has he gone to the other side.
Has his taste changed so much?
Oh the rumours hurt so much.
No his taste it hasn't changed
He just wants someone who feels the same.
Until that day be it near or far
Keep your noses out my yard.

Write words down that you can't say on paper each and every day.
Drop them into a great big jar
Read them months later and release them and cleanse the soul
Or depress the **** out of yourself
They did burn well though

A horses head in my bed who did I upset.
Was it what I did or didn't say to make her angry in such a way.
It isn't fun to wake that way, not a great start to the day.
I wonder if I'd been worse would it be mine and not the horse!

I held on for so long, the tightest grip on a tearing reality, the fabric old, decaying
It's very fibres parting, splitting and twisting in a thousand ways.
No savior to pray to, forsaken by all gods.
And the devil?  He was too busy watching the last seconds to make a deal.
I imagined a battle for my soul or its remnants decayed, having been eaten out in life now empty for death
What of death? Oh reaper man where art though this evening? Show yourself!!
Is the bitter cold I feel upon my face as I slip your touch
Be you here now with me?
Should I cry for help?
Would any voice be heard
Or do I travel alone tonight?
This dark dark dark night

Why are you naked and stood in the road.

I am protesting for others who are enslaved in the east.
They work in sweatshops and are tortured for greed.
Making shirts for shops to sell to you
Cheaper and cheaper your hands has their blood.

Come inside get cleaned up you're filthy too please oh please let me help you.

I can't because oil companies exploited a tribe and poisoned their water and all of them died.
So your heating is shamefull and your water is theft.
Take off your clothes and join me instead.


Well lets get some food and at least check you out, that cough sounds bad and the sores can be dressed.
You can't fight their cause if you're starving to death.

You food is the product of toture and greed
The beasts are in cages and slaughtered in fear
Your crops are GM and killing the earth, become a vegan you know it makes sense.

So all that I have and all that I do is offensive to you?
You're a product of that, with your middle class dad who worked to his death so bills could be paid
He paid through the **** and then with his life for your schooling and dance and all you now hate.
You judge me and others as state sponsored **** while you pioisly lecture then sit smoking dope.

That cough that sounds bad will your mum come soon?
Take you to swiftly to the emergency room, private of course and step daddy pays! You're just rebelling and finding your way.
Then Dr will treat you with a little jab. Tested on monkeys in someones lab
He was at the same Uni and you drank with him, he used his degree and did good with it.
We have evolved, be it good or bad
We've made mistakes and some so bad
But fight from within and make that your goal because hugging a tree will just get you cold
Now go find a cause and work for its good
Because you're an embarrassment to all of us!

Of all the souls I met upon my journey.
Hers was the most beautiful, the most troubled and the kindest of hearts.
The most open, yet the most contained.
But that part of my journey came to an end. For our paths split never to meet again