If pretending was cancer
I would've been dead by now

She taught me alot of things.
But mostly regarding human beings.
That they can be a handful sometimes.
Coz they know nothing about being precise.

She told me to find meaning in everything i do.
And that dreams do really come true.
She always told me, she didn't have money.
Even after i saw it.

She always warned me about boys.
I didn't get why.
As i grow older,
I'm starting to see what she was talking about.

I dream one day, i grow up to be like her.
And give my daughter the best advice as well.
I love my mom so so much

Don't i satisfy your needs as a man?
Or perhaps i do
Just not enough

Don't i love you right?
Or perhaps i do
Just not enough

Isn't my body attractive enough?
For you to be obsessed over it.
Or perhaps you once did
Just not anymore...

Let ME just start by saying:
I've come to realise something
About our relationship, that's actually heart breaking...
You may think that I'm lying
Or perhaps dying
I know after this you'll need some healing

But babyy
The person that was making you happy
Was also making ME happy.
That person is ME.

What actually made ME happy
Was the fact that I'm making you happy
Not that you made ME happy

Truth is
Im the one for you
But you're not the one for ME

I miss you everytime i think about you
I miss you everytime i achieve something
I miss you everytime i doubt my capabilities
I miss you everytime I'm lonely, hurt, disappointed and depressed

Yeah people come and go
And i know
That it happened 7 years ago
But it still hurts like crazy.
Mommy it's no secret that I'm holding on to you and i refuse to let you go.

I refuse to forget about you
I'd rather stay this miserable knowing it's making me feel closer to you
Than being happier and forgetting about you.

I still think my life would be much better if you had stayed a little longer
A little longer to see me grow into this strong, caring and loving daughter
But am i really strong?
Should i consider myself strong when i fail to just let go of you?

A promise from me to you is that I'll never give up on my dreams
I'll fight even harder when it feels like I'm being defeated.

I think
I am thinking
That i don't like to think
What others think of me

My mistake was loving you more than i loved myself.
My mistake was loving you more than you loved yourself.

Your mistake was taking my love for granted.
Thinking I'd be numb to all the heartbreak and humiliation till the time you decide to settle down.

My mistake was believing you everytime you told me "I'm sorry, it won't happen again".
Crying myself to sleep most nights thinking that's what it's took to love someone.

Your biggest mistake was wiping away my tears without thinking you'd be wiping your own tears one day.

My biggest mistake was falling inlove with someone i wanted you to become one day.

Love yourself enough to know
what's meant for you and what isn't.

Respect yourself enough to know
to never tolerate any form of disrespect.

Appreciate yourself enough to know
that you deserve to be happy.

Compliment yourself enough to know
that you're perfect.

Know, know, know
that there's nothing wrong with being a kind person.

People come and go in our lives.
Make sure they don't leave with a part of you.

There she lies,
Under a tree with countless flies.
She really has beautiful thighs,
But her past wasn't as beautiful.
Her mind is the only thing that's colourful.
However she is a beautiful creature
That loved nature
I swear if she was a bird she'd be a vulture.

I'm never lonely buh sometimes i have the feeling of loneliness.
I know this is madness.
Old people call it stress.
I can't say i'm depressed

I've never felt this powerless
I wish i was a Disney princess
And have imaginary friends
Because their smiles are priceless

I think the reason why those feelings were familiar is because the situation is similar...

I chose to live and tell a tale
Because at the end of the day,
I can't run away from reality

Can't i be a little girl once again?
With bruised knees and messy hair.
Days where my best friend was a teddy bear.
And i had new friends every year.

Can't i be a little girl once again?
With a careless attitude.
Days where i didn't care about a dude.
Coz i always thought they were rude.

Can't i be a little girl once again?
With little pride.
Days where i was so pure inside.
Even though i always lied.

Days where i needed your love.
You weren't there to share it with me.

Days where i started being naughty.
You weren't there to rebuke me.

Days where i started looking like you.
You weren't there to see that.

Days where i started falling in love.
You weren't there to warn me about boys.

Days where i had many questions.
You weren't there to answer any of those.

I gave you my entire soul
Even though i was told...
You were nothing buh a player,
I cared less, for i am your lover
Who tries by all means,
Ensuring our relationship never sinks.
I kept telling my friends how precious they are and that they deserve so much better when i knew deep down that i needed to hear that too.
What do i do now...?
Now that you've found yourself a better me...?
Guess imma be relating to all the sad memes.

How do you want to live in joy,
When you search for love in just a boy?
Any other thing can fill that void.

It's things like these that gets me annoyed.

You know, sometimes being selfish,
Helps to get away from alot of *******.
But some girls just don't get it.

Betrayal and I were very close friends.
But betrayal was a back stabber.

I then became friends with Karma.
But Karma was a *****.

I met Dishonesty along the way.
But Dishonesty was a moody person.

Me and Lies were best of friends.
But our friendship was poisonous.

I then became friends with Love.
But she brought nothing but trouble in my life.

Now i trust no one but myself.

The first time i fell inlove was my second time